While on their first Indonesian tour in late 2008, Sansan left the band, for (according to the band's MySpace blog) "personal reasons." For the remainder of the tour, Onadio Leonardo filled in for vocals while playing bass. When Sansan later attempted to return to Killing Me Inside, the band members decided not to let him back in, preferring to move on without him.
After the Indonesian tour, the band decided to look for a temporary fill in bass player so that Onadio Leonardo could concentrate on vocals. Agung Anak Gde, bassist of Synystra, was added to the group to fill in the bass and backup vocals. This was their lineup for Java Rockin’ Land 2009.
In early 2010, Killing Me Inside released a new video for the song "Tanpa Dirimu" as the new single. The video, (directed by Rizal Mantovani), is the first to not include Sansan.
On June 3, the band announced via Facebook that they were officially finished with the recording of their new album and that it was to be released in the fall. They announced that the album would be self-titled. In early August, Killing Me Inside released a music video on their Facebook blog titled "Biarlah". The album was released August 30, 2010.
Now the band on their Indonesian tour as promo new album, also introducing new additional bassist, Angga Tetsuya.
Band members :
Current :
Onadio Leonardo : Vocals (sometimes play Bass) [2006-Present]
Josaphat Klemens : Guitars [2006-Present]
Davi Frisya : Drums [2008-Present]
Former :
Sansan : Vocals [2006-2008] (now on Pee Wee Gaskins)
Raka Cyril : Guitars [2006-2007] (now on Vierra)
Rendy : Drums [2006-2008]
Touring :
Agung Anak Gde : Bass/Scream [2008-2010] (now on Synystra & Leica)
Rudye Nugraha : Bass/Scream [2010] (now on Thirteen)
Angga Tetsuya : Bass/Scream [2010-Present] (also in Sunset Groove)
Leaving
Killing Me Inside Lyrics
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To all the stories and ending
That we've write.
Now it falls to pieces
Never will the memories fade away
The picture of a broken frame
It's not like our fate is on your hands
We've got a lot to do right now
Something is calling us we're breaking free
Uuh we'll know that tomorrow's still there to see
Our victory, that we've always waited for (we're breaking free)
I know that i will make it through
...
Know that you'll be leaving soon
Maybe we can let this go
...
Nevertheless, we will make it happen
...
Don't have to wait until the morning
...
Time will fly
In a matter of seconds
We'll be this way forever
We've got to take it now
Right now
...
I know that i will make it through
...
Know that you'll be leaving soon
...
Maybe we can let this go
Nevertheless, we will make it happen
I know that i will make it through
...
Know that you'll be leaving soon
...
Maybe we can let this go
...
Nevertheless, we will make it happen
I believe in the memories that you've painted on the wall
...
Talking back to a mirror, to feel the way you do
I believe in the scars of time that decorates up on the wall
Can you feel it? can you see it?
Like a flash
Blinded our eyes
Not meant to be
Its crazy but i feel alive
So alive
...
Our broken frame now slowly fades away
I know that i will make it through
...
Know that you'll be leaving soon
Maybe we can let this go
...
Nevertheless, we will make it happen
I know that you'll leaving now
...
Know that we can let this go
And i'm realy realy sure
...
Nevertheless, we will make it happen
...
The lyrics to Killing Me Inside's song Leaving depict a relationship that has come to an end, with the two parties involved coming to terms with moving on. The first few lines express the realization that the stories and endings they have created have fallen apart, and they are left with memories of a broken frame (symbolizing the relationship) that still hangs on the wall. The lyrics then acknowledge that their fate is not in the hands of the other person, and rather than dwelling on the past, they have a lot to do in the present and need to break free from their current situation. They know that tomorrow is still to be seen and they can achieve a victory that they have been waiting for, but also recognize that one of them will be leaving soon.
The chorus repeats a few times, emphasizing that they will make it through and something is calling them to break free. They don't have to wait until morning and they know that time will fly in a matter of seconds. They need to take action now, rather than waiting around. The lyrics then shift to a more personal reflection, with the line "talking back to a mirror, to feel the way you do" suggesting the pain and struggle of moving on from a relationship. However, the lyrics also express belief in the memories and scars of time that have shaped the relationship's narrative, and ultimately the broken frame fades away as they move on.
Line by Line Meaning
9can't you see
Can't you see the situation we're in?
To all the stories and ending
To everything we've been through together and how it will all end.
That we've write.
The history and memories we've created and shared.
Now it falls to pieces
Everything is crumbling and falling apart.
Never will the memories fade away
The memories will never disappear or be forgotten.
The picture of a broken frame
A visual representation of the shattered pieces of our relationship.
Still hanging on the wall
The broken relationship is still present even though it's damaged.
It's not like our fate is on your hands
Our destiny is not controlled by anyone else but us.
We've got a lot to do right now
There's still so much left for us to accomplish in our lives.
Something is calling us we're breaking free
We're being drawn towards something else and we want to break free from our past.
Uuh we'll know that tomorrow's still there to see
There's still a future and we need to keep moving forward.
Our victory, that we've always waited for (we're breaking free)
We're finally achieving our goals and breaking free from our past struggles.
I know that i will make it through
Despite everything, I know I can get through this tough period.
Know that you'll be leaving soon
I understand that you're leaving soon and we need to make the most of our time together before you go.
Maybe we can let this go
Perhaps we can let go of our past and start anew.
Nevertheless, we will make it happen
Regardless of what happens, we will succeed and overcome these struggles.
I believe in the memories that you've painted on the wall
I have faith in the memories that we've created and shared together, even if it's on a broken frame.
Talking back to a mirror, to feel the way you do
I'm trying to understand and relate to your emotions by reflecting upon myself.
I believe in the scars of time that decorates up on the wall
I have faith in the experiences we've gone through together and how they've shaped us, even if they've left scars.
Can you feel it? can you see it?
Can you sense and comprehend the overwhelming emotions and memories that we share?
Like a flash
Everything went by so quickly as if it was a momentary spark.
Blinded our eyes
Our vision has been impaired due to the overwhelming emotions and experiences we've shared together.
Not meant to be
Perhaps we weren't meant to be together, and that's okay.
Its crazy but i feel alive
Despite the chaos and heartbreak, I still feel alive and invigorated.
Our broken frame now slowly fades away
Our past struggles and relationship are slowly dissipating and fading away into the background.
I know that you'll leaving now
I understand that you're leaving soon.
Know that we can let this go
We can choose to let go of our past struggles and move on.
And i'm realy realy sure
I'm incredibly sure and confident in our abilities to overcome these struggles.
Writer(s): Josaphat Klemens
Contributed by Kaitlyn K. Suggest a correction in the comments below.