Your Back Porch
Knuckle Puck Lyrics


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It's 4am again and I'm falling asleep with the headphones in
It shouldn't be like this.
And it's so hard to act like I'm over this
When everything you said tore my heart out of my chest.

I just wanna feel something again.
I'm not innocent.
Not in the least bit.
Selfish wishful thinking.
And if this mess that I left in the southwest is in your head,
Then I'm not the only one digging up the dead.

You swear you're a safe bet, but I know that you're not
And I think that's why I'm here and you still think I'm wrong,
But there's nothing between you and me.
Not anymore.
Not on your back porch at 4am,
I'm in this van hoping I won't see you again.

I just wanna feel something again.
I'm not innocent.
Not in the least bit.
Selfish wishful thinking.
And if this mess that I left in the southwest is in your head,
Then I'm not the only one digging up the dead.

(My family gets smaller every year) [8x]
Does your conscience keep you awake?
Because one day all that you've felt in those bones will make them break.
But now I know just how you see me, and I want you to know
You won't grow out of selfish, you'll just find better ways to hide it.

[2x]
If you gave all that you take, the weight would take it's toll and your skeleton would cave

I just wanna feel something again.
I'm not innocent.
Not in the least bit.
Selfish wishful thinking.




And if this mess that I left in the southwest is in your head,
Then I'm not the only one digging up the dead.

Overall Meaning

The first verse of Knuckle Puck’s song ‘Your Back Porch’ details the singer’s late-night struggles as they try to sleep but fail due to emotions running high. They refer to headphones, a common motif for those escaping reality, as they try to find solace in the music. However, they realize that this behavior is unhealthy and should not be normalized. The second half of the verse references how the singer cannot pretend to be over their heartbreak when the pain is still very fresh in their memory. This pain seems to have been caused by someone who said things to the singer that have left them feeling damaged and hurt.


The second verse appears to be directed at the person who caused the singer’s pain, with the singer admitting to selfish behavior in their desire to feel some kind of emotional connection again. There is mention of a mess left in the southwest, which is likely a metaphor for the emotional baggage that the singer is carrying with them. The singer acknowledges that they are not the only one digging up the past, suggesting that the other person is also struggling to move on.


The chorus repeats the desire for emotional connection, with the singer acknowledging their flaws and the selfishness of their wishes. The bridge mentions how one day the other person will have to face the consequences of their actions. It ends with a cautionary message, warning that selfishness will only lead to better hiding places, but the weight of the actions will catch up to the individual eventually.


Line by Line Meaning

It's 4am again and I'm falling asleep with the headphones in
I can't sleep and music is the only thing that helps me drift off.


It shouldn't be like this.
I know deep down that something is wrong.


And it's so hard to act like I'm over this
I put on a brave face, but inside I'm hurting.


When everything you said tore my heart out of my chest.
Your words hurt me deeply and I'm struggling to move on.


I just wanna feel something again.
I feel numb and disconnected from my own emotions.


I'm not innocent.
I know I played a part in our breakup.


Not in the least bit.
I take full responsibility for my mistakes.


Selfish wishful thinking.
I'm caught up in hoping things could go back to the way they were.


And if this mess that I left in the southwest is in your head,
I know I hurt you when I left and it's still affecting you.


Then I'm not the only one digging up the dead.
We're both struggling to move on from the past.


You swear you're a safe bet, but I know that you're not
I know you're not as perfect as you try to make yourself out to be.


And I think that's why I'm here and you still think I'm wrong,
I'm trying to prove that you're not as blameless as you think.


But there's nothing between you and me.
Our relationship is over and there's no going back.


Not anymore.
We've both changed and moved on.


Not on your back porch at 4am,
Our late-night hangouts are a thing of the past.


I'm in this van hoping I won't see you again.
I'm trying to distance myself from you and move on.


(My family gets smaller every year) [8x]
I feel more and more alone with each passing year.


Does your conscience keep you awake?
Do you feel guilty for how things ended between us?


Because one day all that you've felt in those bones will make them break.
The weight of your guilt will eventually catch up with you.


But now I know just how you see me, and I want you to know
I understand how you perceive me, and I want to make things right.


You won't grow out of selfish, you'll just find better ways to hide it.
I know you have a selfish streak and I don't believe you'll ever change.


If you gave all that you take, the weight would take it's toll and your skeleton would cave
If you truly faced the consequences of your actions, it would be too much for you to bear.




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Jonathan Rodrigues

Thank you for helping me to dream again. This vibe harmonizes with the echoes within me and reminds me of all of he things I love in life. Thank you Knuckle Puck

KoolAidOverIce

god damn this song is so much better than i thought it was before.

SwarMz

I swear this song saved my life, thank you so much you will always be my favorite band..

SEAN PAGE

SwarMz same

Evan Hale

God, best pop punk I've heard in a while. Digging that brand new reference too

koopathaqwik

danieltoshistheman "you swear youre a safe bet but i know that youre not."

danieltoshistheman

what's the Brand New reference? 

Nik Tackett

An absolute classic

Bird0fPrey

Great sound you guys! You've got a new fan

Lucy Jeanette

Pretty sure I just found my new favorite band.

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