Salvation
Kops Lyrics

I met my darkest hour, it smiled
I faced my toughest challenge and it seemed to mock me.

I have a hard time choosing fights
I struggle to pick battles that are worth fighting.

My loved ones tell me I'll be fine
My family and friends try to reassure me that everything will work out.

Still, I'm so afraid to die alone
Despite their words, I am still terrified of being alone in my final moments.

'Cause I'm afraid there won't come anyone home
I am scared that no one will come to find me when I am gone.

To find me, to find me
I want someone to discover me and remember me when I am gone.

I guess I need salvation
I realize that I need to be saved or rescued from this fear and anxiety.

I guess I'm wrong for failing
I admit that I am at fault for not being able to overcome my fears.

I swallow my pride and cravings
I humble myself and try to suppress my selfish desires.

Pray so I don't Have to renounce my living
I hope that I can avoid sacrificing my life in order to find peace.

Won't let my reason change me
I refuse to let logic or rationality alter my emotions and beliefs.

Cover my eyes so gently
I shield my eyes in a gentle manner to avoid facing the harsh realities of life.

Reap what I sow
I know that I will face the consequences of my actions and decisions.

I cry at tills like a waste of time
I feel like crying is pointless and unproductive.

I think of tills like a waste of mine
I view overthinking as a waste of my time and energy.

I'm losing sleep, I feel so high
I am struggling with insomnia and feel unable to come down from my anxious state.

So I flip the camera on my phone
I turn on my phone camera hoping for a distraction.

Hope for a smile, but he doesn't seem to like me
I want to receive a positive response from someone, but it doesn't happen.

I need salvation
I need to be saved from my fear of dying alone.

I need to reap what I sow
I need to face the consequences of my choices and decisions.