Spilt Milk was recorded in London with Jimmy Hogarth, the sought-after British producer whose recent credits include Duffy, Corinne Bailey Rae and James Blunt. Powerhouse songwriter, multi-instrumentalist and arranger Eg White – Grammy Awards Record of the Year nominee for Adele’s “Chasing Pavements” – co-wrote most of this material. Singer and pianist Ed Harcourt also co-wrote two, including the climactic “Far From the Country,” an especially poignant and personal conclusion to the disc, about the physical and emotional distances one must bridge to keep love alive
For inspiration, Train turns to Aretha Franklin – “There is not a song that Aretha has sung or will ever sing that doesn’t just melt me” – along with blues/R&B cult figures like former Stax star/Raelette Mable John and Bob Dylan-favorite Karen Dalton. Says Train, “I wanted my album to offer glimpses of my influences, not sound like my influences. Jimmy, Eg and I are of similar backgrounds, we appreciate the same music; we have similar tastes. The arrangements are just what we felt the songs needed, they give the songs flavor but don’t try to steal anybody else’s style. I hope the album is a nod to the music I love, while still being modern.”
Music has been at the center of Train’s world since she was a toddler, when her mother encouraged her to play the violin. Train took to the instrument, but, more importantly, she also discovered an innate aptitude as a singer, with unerring pitch and a preternaturally mature delivery from a very young age. Says Train, “There’s depth to my voice and I think it comes from a lot of different places. But the way I sound today is the way I always sounded -- except in a tinier body.”
As an artist, Train could never simply be described as a product of her times and that has allowed her, on Spilt Milk, to create music that can arguably be called timeless. Her mom, who raised Train alone, fashioned what some might view as a sheltered existence for the young Train, keeping her away from television and pop radio. But what she really did was provide a fertile laboratory for Train to freely grow as a young woman and a singer, apart from the vagaries of trends. Train took music and ballet lessons and listened to classical music and opera, along with jazz and blues. Her violin training definitely came in handy: Train has arranging credits on three of her tracks and overdubbed strings on two of them.
Though born in New York City, Train was raised in Savannah, Georgia, and southern soul and gospel, which she sang in church and school choirs growing up, has had the most profound effect on her work. Almost as significant was the moment when, as a teenager, she unearthed her mom’s tucked-away stash of vinyl albums from the sixties and seventies: Joni Mitchell, Jimi Hendrix, Led Zepplin. Say Train,” I remember hearing Janis Joplin’s records and thinking, what is that all about? We lived in downtown Savannah, in a house kind of like a New York City brownstone. When we had thunderstorms I would go up to the roof and scream at the top of my lungs because I wanted to make my voice raspier. God only knows what that’s done to me!”
By the time Train was 19, she was already singing professionally, albeit locally. A producer based in the south who’d spotted Train arranged to bring her up to New York City to showcase for Blue Note. The label chiefs offered Train a development deal – but her mom had other ideas. She insisted her daughter go to college first. Many a confident and headstrong young artist would rebel and go it alone, accept the deal and take their chances. But Train – reluctantly, she now admits – listened to her mom. She agreed to attend college in Athens, Ga., keeping her hand in music by joining a band and spending far more time rehearsing and gigging than hitting the books. And when she was ready to return to her career full-time, Blue Note was still waiting.
It was time well-spent, Train now realizes: “I know that at 19, I would not have made this record, which is the record I always wanted to make. This is the album that defines who I am. At 19, I don’t know what I would have put out. I believe everything happened for a reason. It took this amount of time for me to get here and to make this record. I always knew it would happen. “
Train made several trips to London over the course of two years, to write with Hogarth and White, but the actual recording moved quickly. In fact, Train was such a natural that some of the vocal performances they chose came straight from the song demos they’d originally done. Right before they were about to embark on their final sessions, though, a disastrous computer glitch during file back-up resulted in the loss of much of what they’d already completed. As Train recalls, “It was the perfect electronic storm.” Undaunted, she and her cohorts went back in and re-cut the vanished material with even more passion and determination, the setback turning out to be far more inspiration than challenge. Looking back, Train says, “I don’t think anything was lost. I don’t think there was this one magic moment that we could never recapture. I love what it is today.” And the experience provided her with an album title. “Don’t cry over spilt milk.”
Train’s confidence and faith in what she has created is part of what makes Spilt Milk so thrilling: “There’s just this magic thing that happens sometimes and you think, I want to sing this song for the rest of my life – I want to live in it, I want to bury myself in it, I want to wriggle around in it.. Every time I finished one, it was like, I can’t believe that, at this point in my life I finally have a song I would fight for, that I believe in 100% percent. And now I have all these songs together on an entire album that I feel this way about. For me, that’s my college degree.”
Don' Remember
Kristina Train Lyrics
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Time to wake
Wish I could
Can you forgive me?
There's no time
Like the past,
And then I ask
Why I don't even want to live.
And I'm already dead.
chorus:
Don't remember, it breaks your heart forever
All I can hear is "Sorry, you're on your own"
All this running, I kill myself for nothing
All I can hear is: "Sorry, you're on your own".
All I want
All I need
Is some release
From your shadow.
I'd be satisfied
With so much less
Than you have guessed
So don't feel sorry for me now.
No one ever did before, I lost that war.
chorus:
Don't remember, it breaks your heart forever
All I can hear is "Sorry, you're on your own"
All this running, I kill myself for nothing
All I can hear is: "Sorry, you're on your own".
bridge:
And I'll forget you, like I said I would.
I know you're just another case
I'll have the world but I won't see your face.
chorus:
Don't remember, it breaks your heart forever
All I can hear is "sorry, you're on your own"
All this running, I kill myself for nothing
All I can hear is:
"Sorry, you're on your own,
You're on your own,
You're on your own".
In the song "Don't Remember" by Kristina Train, the lyrics convey a sense of regret, longing for forgiveness, and a yearning for liberation from a haunting past. The opening lines, "Time to sleep, time to wake, wish I could / Can you forgive me?" suggest a desire to escape the burdens of the past and seek reconciliation. The singer reflects on the past, realizing that they don't even have the desire to live anymore, possibly due to the guilt of causing harm to someone else. The line "They tried to kill me, got you instead / And I'm already dead" hints at the idea that the consequences of their actions have caused pain and suffering for others, while leaving the singer emotionally detached.
The chorus emphasizes the theme of loneliness and isolation, with the singer feeling abandoned and unable to find solace. The repeated phrase "Sorry, you're on your own" indicates a recurring pattern of rejection and a lack of support from others. The running metaphor in the line "All this running, I kill myself for nothing" suggests that the singer has been striving to escape their troubled past but realizes that it ultimately leads to emptiness and self-destruction.
In the bridge, the singer declares their intention to forget the person who has caused them pain, asserting that they will leave them behind in their pursuit of a better life. The line "I'll have the world but I won't see your face" indicates a determination to move forward and overcome the hardships they have experienced.
Overall, "Don't Remember" explores themes of remorse, isolation, and the search for redemption. It tells a poignant story of a person grappling with the consequences of their actions and the struggle to find forgiveness and personal liberation.
Line by Line Meaning
Time to sleep
It is time to rest and escape from reality.
Time to wake
It is time to face the challenges and responsibilities of life.
Wish I could
I long for the ability to change my circumstances.
Can you forgive me?
I seek forgiveness for my actions or mistakes.
There's no time
Like the past,
The past holds a significance and nostalgia that cannot be replicated.
And then I ask
Why I don't even want to live.
I question why I lack the desire to continue living.
They tried to kill me, got you instead
Others attempted to harm me, but you became the unintended victim.
And I'm already dead.
I feel emotionally or spiritually dead inside.
All I want
My desires are simple and straightforward.
All I need
I only require a few things to be content.
Is some release
From your shadow.
I crave liberation from the influence and dominance of your presence.
I'd be satisfied
With so much less
Than you have guessed
I would find contentment in far fewer things than you might assume.
So don't feel sorry for me now.
Please do not pity me or express sympathy at this point.
No one ever did before, I lost that war.
No one has ever shown me compassion or support, and I have already succumbed to defeat.
And I'll forget you, like I said I would.
I will intentionally erase any memory of you, as I promised.
I know you're just another case
I acknowledge that you are simply another situation or person to deal with.
I'll have the world but I won't see your face.
Even if I achieve success or acquire everything I desire, I will never again have to encounter your presence.
All this running, I kill myself for nothing
Despite all my efforts and sacrifices, I realize it is pointless or fruitless.
All I can hear is:
'Sorry, you're on your own'.
I am constantly reminded of my loneliness and lack of support.
You're on your own,
You're on your own,
You're on your own'.
I am completely alone and left to fend for myself.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: FRANCIS EG WHITE, DAVID ARNOLD, DAVID GEORGE ARNOLD
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