Fallen
Kritickill Lyrics

I broke this morning's sweat,
I woke up in the morning feeling anxious and worried, feeling physical symptoms of sweat and discomfort.

Three A.M.
The time of night, early in the morning when most people are sleeping, emphasizing the isolation of the singer at this time.

I'm shaking again.
The singer is feeling intense physical symptoms, presumably related to anxiety or withdrawal from addiction.

Thoughts of murdering myself,
The singer is experiencing suicidal ideation, a dangerous and potentially deadly symptom of mental distress.

Seems it's the only way out.
The singer feels trapped and hopeless, believing suicide to be the only solution to their problems.

It's what some people believe to be only in your mind,
Mental illness and suicidal thoughts are often misunderstood or dismissed as imaginary, when in fact they are very real experiences for many people.

But for people like me, it's a living hell...
The singer is conveying the intensity and overwhelming nature of their mental distress.

When I fall.
The phrase 'when I fall' is repeated throughout the song, suggesting the inevitability of the singer's struggle with mental illness and addiction.

I think my life is black.
The singer feels hopeless and pessimistic about their life and future prospects.

Don't try to come looking for me.
The singer wants to distance themselves from other people, likely out of feelings of shame, guilt, or self-loathing.

I'm nowhere to be found.
The singer feels lost and disconnected from others, both physically and emotionally.

You would not understand
The singer feels misunderstood and different from others, believing that others cannot relate to or empathize with their experiences.

How it feels to be addicted.
The singer is grappling with addiction, which can be an isolating and painful experience.

I used to have a life, now I feel life has got me.
The singer feels as though their life has been consumed by addiction and mental distress, leaving them feeling helpless and out of control.

I just can't fight no more...can't believe I slipped...
The singer is expressing a sense of defeat and frustration, potentially having relapsed or given in to their addiction.

And I fall.
The repetition of 'when I fall' and 'and I fall' suggests the cyclical and ongoing nature of the singer's struggles.

There's still time left for me,
Despite the bleakness and despair of the song's earlier lines, the singer expresses a glimmer of hope and possibility here.

I'm not stupid.
The singer is asserting their intelligence and self-awareness, perhaps in contrast to the shame and stigma associated with addiction and mental illness.

I have a problem
The singer acknowledges the reality of their addiction and takes responsibility for their actions.

I know I've let you down; I will never take that road again.
The singer is expressing remorse and a desire to make amends for past mistakes and harmful behaviors, promising to change their ways.

I hope you understand.
The singer is expressing the need for empathy and support from others, despite their struggles and mistakes.

Everything will be right in the end,
The repetition of this phrase suggests a sense of optimism and hope, that despite the difficulties of the present moment, things will eventually get better.

Just pray that I'll be strong...strong enough to quit...
The singer is seeking strength and support from others, acknowledging the difficulty of overcoming addiction, and expressing a desire to quit for good.

When I fall.
The song ends with a repetition of the phrase that has been threaded throughout - 'when I fall' - perhaps suggesting that the struggles and challenges addressed in the song will never fully go away, but must be continually fought and addressed.