Run Away
Kutt Calhoun Skatterman & Bishop Lyrics

I been down & out, running out of luck
I have been feeling defeated and unlucky

I been wildin out, just to feel a buzz
I have been engaging in reckless behavior to numb my pain

Memories from my past, they keep coming
I am haunted by my past experiences and they continue to resurface in my mind

Imma drown it out, with what's in this cup
I am using alcohol to try and forget my past and current struggles

I just need some time, I feel it ticking away
I need time to sort through my thoughts before it's too late

I feel like I'm losing mine, and I'm losing my mind
I feel like I am losing control of my life and my mental health is suffering

I'm in this big ass world, but it feels empty to me
Even though the world is vast, I feel a sense of emptiness and loneliness

I'm missing home because it's more than just a city to me
I am homesick because home is not just a place, but it holds significant emotional value for me

Even on rainy days, when I'm at home I can escape
Despite the difficult times, being at home provides me with a sense of comfort and refuge from my thoughts

From all the crazy things that float around in my brain
Being at home helps me to temporarily escape from my chaotic thoughts

My brothers kept me sane, being away from daily
My friends have been a source of support and stability for me while I have been going through difficult times

Seeing them live on without me is such a crazy thing
It is difficult for me to see my friends moving forward with their lives while I am stuck in a difficult place

I got so much on my mind but I never say a thing
I am keeping my thoughts and emotions bottled up inside

I turn my troubles to lyrics, I put the pen to page
I use songwriting as a outlet to express my emotions and struggles

I don't where to go no more
I feel lost and unsure about where to go from here

Issa cold cold word for a brownskinned boy
The world is harsh and unforgiving for someone like me who is a person of color

You can live for tomorrow and get lost in today
You can focus on the future and ignore the present, which can cause you to miss out on important moments

You can reach for the stars till you fall into space
You can have high hopes and aspirations, but they can lead to disappointment and failure

You can swim in the calm, and get caught in a wave
You can feel safe and in control of your life, but unpredictable events can disrupt it

We could hide till it's gone, we could all run away
We could try to avoid our problems and escape from reality, but they will eventually catch up to us

I been tryna cope, I been in the gym whenever I have time to go
I have been trying to manage my stress by exercising when I have the opportunity

I been writing songs
I have been using music as a creative outlet to express my emotions and experiences

I been seeking somebody who's down to help me when I'm steering off course
I have been looking for someone to support and guide me when I feel lost and directionless

But ain't no love for the brownskinned boy
As a person of color, it is difficult to find support and love in a world that is often discriminatory and unjust

He ain't got no waves, oh he ride the bus
I don't fit into society's definition of success and am not able to afford luxuries like a car

They don't entertain me I guess I'm not enough
I am not recognized or valued by society, making me feel worthless and insignificant

But it's a lot pain that I got bottled up
I am holding onto a lot of emotional pain and trauma that I am not expressing

Maybe shit would change if I had someone to trust
I feel like I would be able to open up and heal if I had someone in my life who I could trust

Katrina told me just because I may have made peace with it doesn't mean it's ok
A traumatic experience cannot be justified or dismissed simply because one has learned to live with it

That haunts me to this day
The trauma and pain from my past still affects me to this day

Thinking of all the things I hid and things I meant to say
I regret not expressing my thoughts and emotions and feel like I missed out on opportunities

I pushed people away and now
I have isolated myself from others and am struggling to form connections

All I got is me, imma be ok
I am learning to rely on myself and not depend on others for my well-being

Don't need no one else, imma make a change
I am taking control of my life and making changes for myself

Ain't no love in this world for a brownskinned boy
As a person of color, I feel like society is not built to support and love people like me

Don't know where I'm from, but I know how I came
I don't have a clear understanding of my ancestry or origin, but I am aware of the struggles my community has faced

I don't know my lineage, where I get this name?
I am uncertain about my family history and how my name came to be

Probably from the ones, that put us in chains
My name and ancestry are likely tied to the trauma and history of slavery and oppression

And we still in cuffs, to this very day
As a person of color, I am still marginalized and oppressed in modern society

They look down on us, like we not the same
The dominant culture views people of color as inferior and different, despite being equal human beings

I could be yo cousin, but they took us away
People of color could be related, but the systematic and brutal history of slavery separated and fragmented families

I struggle with identity cause it was taken from me
The trauma and history of oppression has made it difficult for me to form a clear sense of self and identity

We still enslaved we just making money, listen
The exploitation and oppression of people of color has taken on new forms in modern society, but it still exists in many industries and institutions

Less than a dollar an hour, busting they ass
Some industries pay people of color, particularly those in prison, extremely low wages for difficult and grueling work

And them commissary rates inflated it's a trap n*****
The price of goods within the prison system is unfairly inflated, trapping prisoners in a cycle of poverty and debt

And they wonder why trap n*****s keep the strap with em
People in poverty and oppressed communities turn to violence and self-defense because they are not given equal protection and safety

12 make black people feel like we need a pistol
Police brutality and systemic racism make people of color feel like they need to arm themselves for protection

It's like we guilty till we innocent
People of color are often assumed to be guilty and have to prove their innocence, rather than being presumed innocent until proven guilty

I turn on the TV to see officer acquitted for the murder he committed
The justice system does not hold police officers accountable for their actions and is biased against people of color

Industrial complexes put my brothers in them prisons
The prison-industrial complex disproportionately affects people of color and is a tool for oppression and exploitation

Under the 13th Amendment but
The 13th Amendment abolished slavery except for prisoners, allowing for continued exploitation of prisoners and people of color

I think we had enough, somethings gotta change
As a society, we need to recognize the injustices and inequalities faced by people of color and work to create change

They pull out a gun, take your life away
Police brutality and systemic racism have resulted in the unnecessary and unjust killing of people of color

Ain't no justice ain't no peace a brownskinned boy
As a person of color, I am affected by the lack of justice and peace in society