Wonderful
L.A. Symphony Lyrics

Try to find my way
I am searching for direction in my life

Through the world today
I am navigating life's challenges and obstacles

All I’m looking for
My ultimate goal is

Is some kind of wonderful
To find happiness and contentment

It’s hard to remember that we’re blessed
It's difficult to recognize the good in our lives when we are stressed or overwhelmed

when we’re tethered by the stress
Our anxiety and pressure can hold us back from realizing our blessings

And just weathering the rest
We are struggling to cope with life's difficulties

It’s hard making letters with the pen when you’re broke
Financial struggles can hinder creativity and productivity

And hope would go so much better with a check
Having financial stability would allow for an easier outlook on life

Hard to think, I want to start to drink
I am tempted to turn to alcohol as a coping mechanism

Make a self-pity club call it Martyrs Inc
I am feeling sorry for myself and want to commiserate with others

The newsletters free and that’s hard to beat
I want to create a support group for people who are struggling, but cannot afford to charge them for it

We’re all too poor to ever charge a fee
Our financial situation does not allow us to charge for our services

Pardon me, it’s been a heck of year
I am apologizing for my struggles and difficulties over the past year

Incredible fear, couple medical scares
I have experienced heightened anxiety and health scares

try to take it all with impeccable air
I am striving to maintain a positive attitude despite my challenges

I'm fighting with myself, rather wrestle a bear
I am battling my own inner demons and struggles

Everyday I feel like I’m coming in a thunderdome
I feel like I am constantly facing uneasy situations and uncomfortable interactions

Not quite sure that i’ll be the one that’s runnin' home
I am uncertain if I will be the victor in these situations

Everyday I feel I’m gettin' less lovable
I am losing self-esteem and feeling less desirable to others

Yea, I’m just waiting for some kind of wonderful
I am hoping for something positive to happen in my life

I try, and I try, and I try some more
I am continuously making an effort

Try to find, try to find, what I'm guided towards
I am searching for my purpose and direction in life

I want to be happy and be comfortable
My ultimate goal is to find joy and ease in life

It's difficult to get a hold and get afloat
It's challenging to gain stability and security

So many of us drowning and we don't got a bigger boat
We are struggling together, without the necessary resources or support

My fam ain’t doing too bad
My family is doing relatively okay compared to others

I make enough so my place got some food and a bed
I can afford basic necessities for myself and my family

So why am I like cyanide
I feel like a toxic presence in others' lives

To anybody ever that's by my side
My negative energy can affect those around me

I'm not tryin' to lie, I'll be tryin' to hide
I am not intentionally deceiving anyone, but I am hiding my struggles from others

And be hard to detect like a cyber crime
My struggles are not easily noticeable or detectable

Why do I feel so empty
I have a sense of emptiness and lack of fulfillment in my life

Why do I feel like everyone's against me
I feel like I am constantly battling obstacles and negative forces

Dad dead, mom sick, half brother convict
I have experienced difficult familial situations

And I can’t seem to ever make a good project
I struggle with accomplishment and productivity

No wonder I feel like mince meat, hence me
I am beaten down and weakened by my struggles

Always being testy when I talk about the topics
I become easily agitated when discussing my struggles

Sex, drugs, rock n' roll
A popular lifestyle that people strive for

Ain't that the life that you want for sure
Many people aspire to this way of life

Lately though I don't feel that way so I don't fit in to the culture I hold
I no longer identify with this popular lifestyle

So dear to my heart, puts fear in the heart
Despite my aversion to this lifestyle, I still hold it close to my heart and it causes anxiety

Ain’t no way to prepare for the part
There is no way to anticipate or fully understand the challenges of life

Like I got a car with the headlights broke and here I go trying to steer in the dark
I am trying to navigate life's challenges without full visibility or understanding

That's why I’m having all the accidents
I am experiencing constant difficulties and setbacks

I think I need a bag full of magic tricks
I feel like I require miraculous assistance to overcome my struggles

To make something out of nothing, when a bun is in the oven and
I want to create something positive despite my current struggles and challenges

I can’t control the game but my thumb is on the button whats happening
I feel powerless in life's situations, but want to remain proactive and in control

Too many feelings that just come and go
I experience fleeting emotions that are difficult to manage

Waiting on, waiting on, some kind of wonderful
I am hopeful for positive change or progress in my life

I feel lost at sea being pulled by the undertow
I am adrift and overwhelmed by life's difficulties

Problems go from minor to major real quick
I am frequently facing significant and unexpected challenges

I ain't ready yet to go and meet my creator
I am not prepared to die or face the afterlife

But livin' with myself is unbearable
I find it difficult to cope with my own struggles and challenges

The only thing I’m good at is being terrible
I feel like my life is defined by my failures and struggles

Going through my life with a fine tooth comb
I am closely examining my life and scrutinizing my struggles

Try to put the findings into fine tuned poems
I am attempting to use my creativity to express my struggles

Speak about the heartbreak and the habits
I am discussing the emotional pain and negative patterns in my life

How I got about as much fire as a wet book of matches
I feel depleted and devoid of energy or drive

Times gettin' shorter I speak on it at length
With time running out, I feel the need to discuss my struggles at length

Crunch time but I don’t got abdominal strength
I am experiencing a difficult period, but feel weak and unable to overcome

Can’t really do it on my own no more
I require assistance and support to overcome my challenges

Since I failed I don't want to go home no more
I feel like a failure and do not want to face the disappointment and potential judgement of my family

Looking for a place as I am, I can come and go
I am seeking a supportive environment where I can feel comfortable and accepted

Maybe show up Sunday look for some kind of wonderful
I am hopeful to find positivity and happiness, even if just for a day