California rapper Diego Leanos (born September 6, 1996), known professional… Read Full Bio ↴California rapper Diego Leanos (born September 6, 1996), known professionally as Lil Xan debuted with a drugged-out sound that helped propel his track "Betrayed" to viral success. Delivering emotive rhymes that focused on sex, drugs, and hedonistic behavior, his music fell somewhere between contemporaries like Lil Uzi Vert and Lil Peep. Born Diego Leonas in Redlands, Xan emerged in 2016 with songs like "Sorry" and "Center Fold," building an Internet following that would gain traction in 2017 with songs like "Been Bout It," "Slingshot," and "Who Are You." A short EP, Xanarchy, arrived the same year. The rapper's Total Xanarchy tour, which sold out in five hours, launched in January of 2018. His debut album, also titled Total Xanarchy, arrived in April, and featured guest appearances from 2 Chainz, Diplo, Charli XCX, and others.

Lies
LIL XAN Lyrics

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Yeah, ugh
Yeah, yeah
You are now listening to a Bobby Johnson beat
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, ay

Pray to god like Allah
Please slit my throat

And when you lie, I wanna die
Please slit my throat
You seen me high, almost died
When I slit my throat
They gonna cry when you die
'Cause that's just how it goes
Pray to god like Allah
Please slit my throat
And when you lie, I wanna die
Please slit my throat
You seen me high, almost died
When I slit my throat
They gonna cry when you die
'Cause that's just how it goes

Yeah, no more heartbreaks
I made so many mistakes
Like this bitch might just be the one
They use me, they wanna be someone
Like "Go and get yourself a job"
I cannot be compared to y'all
And if I do not make it, tell my mom this life is fake
And I don't wanna seem to seek same ones I made when I was basic
(When I was basic yeah, when I was basic yeah)
Yeah I rap, but I still fly coach
Yeah I'm rich, but I still don't boast
Yeah I'm sad, please slit my throat
Yeah I'm sad, please slit my throat (I'm sad, please slit my throat)
Heartbreak soldier, caffeine, drinking soda
Flip her like some yola
Stuck inside my mind, I need some peace, I need a dojo
Said I'm stuck inside my mind, I need some peace, I need a do-jo

Pray to god like Allah
Please slit my throat
And when you lie, I wanna die
Please slit my throat
You seen me high, almost died
When I slit my throat
They gonna cry when you die
'Cause that's just how it goes
Pray to god like Allah
Please slit my throat
And when you lie, I wanna die
Please slit my throat
You seen me high, almost died
When I slit my throat
They gonna cry when you die
'Cause that's just how it goes

Okay, so this little light of mine
Tattoos all down my spine
Everybody know that I'm on my grind
Always at a place where the sun don't shine
The media wanna make me a bad guy
I don't know if I'm happy, or right
I stay inside, and I pray up to Christ
Hoping one day, I don't end my life
Way too depressed to express how I feel
Only smoke weed sometimes or on pills
Just a nightmare, I don't know what's real
She came back around since I got that deal
I don't want friends, I want happy niche
She did me dirty, it's fuck that bitch
I was so broke, but now I'm rich
Still the same gang, still the same clique
Xanarchy shit, tell that ho make a wish
From the touch when we kiss
My hands on her hips, fell in love with her lips
Make her swallow my kids
The world is so evil, while we lost in the mix
Tryna' make it make sense
So I wanna know does it matter to you
That I don't have no fucks to give?
Bitch!

Pray to god like Allah
Please slit my throat
And when you lie, I wanna die
Please slit my throat
You seen me high, almost died
When I slit my throat
They gonna cry when you die
'Cause that's just how it goes
Pray to god like Allah
Please slit my throat
And when you lie, I wanna die
Please slit my throat
You seen me high, almost died
When I slit my throat
They gonna cry when you die
'Cause that's just how it goes

That's just how it goes, that's just how it goes
That's just how it goes, that's just how it goes
That's just how it goes, that's just how it goes
I ain't ever ever ever wanna let you go
Yeah, ay, oh
Yeah, ay, oh

Out the booth
Yeah!

Overall Meaning

The song "Lies" by Lil Xan is a melancholic tune that talks about the inner struggles and pain that the rapper goes through every day. The song begins with a prayer to Allah, requesting Him to end the rapper's life as he can no longer bear the lies and deceit that surrounds him. He talks about an incident in which he was high and almost died by slitting his throat. He then goes on to describe how people will cry when he dies because that's just how it goes.

The chorus of the song repeats the prayer to Allah and the rapper's desire to end his life. In the second verse, the rapper talks about his past mistakes and how he's always been used by people who want to be someone. He raps about his struggles with depression and how he needs some peace and quiet to clear his mind. The verse ends with a request to God to make him happy and help him end his life if it's meant to be.

In the final verse, Lil Xan raps about his tattoos and his life on the grind. He mentions how the media always tries to portray him as a bad person, and he struggles to find happiness in his life. He talks about the pain that he feels inside and how he tries to numb it with drugs. He mentions a girl who came back into his life, but he's not interested in friends anymore. He ends the verse with a reminder that he's still the same person despite his newfound fame.

Overall, "Lies" is a song that delves into the dark thoughts and struggles of Lil Xan. It's a cry for help wrapped in the guise of a catchy tune.

Line by Line Meaning

Pray to god like Allah
I am reaching out to a higher power for help

Please slit my throat
I am experiencing a lot of pain and suffering

And when you lie, I wanna die
Betrayal from those close to me deeply affects me

You seen me high, almost died
I have dealt with the consequences of addiction

They gonna cry when you die
The impact of my death will affect those around me

'Cause that's just how it goes
Death is an inevitable part of life

Yeah, no more heartbreaks
I am tired of being hurt by others

I made so many mistakes
I acknowledge my past wrongdoings

I cannot be compared to y'all
I believe I am unique and different from others

And if I do not make it, tell my mom this life is fake
I have doubts about the reality of life and its purpose

Yeah I'm sad, please slit my throat
My depression is overwhelming and difficult to handle

Heartbreak soldier, caffeine, drinking soda
I use vices to cope with emotional pain

Stuck inside my mind, I need some peace, I need a dojo
I feel trapped in my own thoughts and seek a way to find inner peace

The media wanna make me a bad guy
I feel like the media portrays me unfairly

I don't know if I'm happy, or right
I struggle with understanding my own emotions and mental state

Hoping one day, I don't end my life
I have thoughts of suicide and fear that I may act on them

The world is so evil, while we lost in the mix
I perceive the world as cruel and overwhelming

Tryna' make it make sense
I strive to understand my own experiences

So I wanna know does it matter to you
I am seeking validation from others

That I don't have no fucks to give?
I feel apathetic towards many things in life

That's just how it goes
Life can be unpredictable and unfair

I ain't ever ever ever wanna let you go
I fear losing the people I care about

Out the booth
The recording session is finished

Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Sentric Music, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Adrian Bruesch, Kimetrius Foose, Nicholas Diego Leanos

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