The members of the band are as follows:
Biax: Vocals/Guitar
Falla: Bass
Pier: Drums
Danil: Guitar
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First Time
Last Day Before Holiday Lyrics
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But I don't seem to care
The world surrounds me
It's all I want to stare
Thoughts are running
In circles in my head
What I need know
Is to catch my breath
My heart is beating in my chest
Don't you see it's beating faster
We may try but with no success
Our lives are already written somewhere
This time I won't repeat myself
You'd better leave me free to make sense
Out of my life, going nowhere
Don't try to find me
Before you're here I'm sure I'll be far gone
Where I can live
A life away from all the things I've done
You know I cared for you
But there's no time for such regrets
I'll be there alone with me
For the first time in my life
Sun is blinding, I'll walk on all the same
The wind is forcing me to turn my head aside
My heart is beating in my chest
Don't you see it's beating faster
We may try but with no success
Our lives are already written somewhere
This time I won't repeat myself
You'd better leave me free to make sense
Out of my life, going nowhere
Don't try to find me
Before you're here I'm sure I'll be far gone
Where I can live
A life away from all the things I've done
You know I cared for you
But there's no time for such regrets
I'll be there alone with me
For the first time in my life
What I've become will be my only blame if I'm happy with myself
And with all of these pages written with you
Don't try to find me
Before you're here I'm sure I'll be far gone
Where I can live
A life away from all the things I've done
Don't try to find me
Before you're here I'm sure I'll be far gone
Where I can live
A life away from all the things I've done
You know I cared for you
But there's no time for such regrets
I'll be there alone with me
For the first time in my life
There's no reason to feel all of this shame
Be yourself is still your right
The song "First Time" by Last Day Before Holiday seems to be about someone who is feeling overwhelmed with their surroundings and their own thoughts. They are struggling to catch their breath and find a sense of direction in their life. The lyrics suggest that they have tried to live their life a certain way before and it did not work out, so they are now looking for a fresh start. They want to distance themselves from their past regrets and live a life that is true to themselves. The idea of being alone for the first time in their life suggests they have always relied on others for guidance or companionship, but now they want to discover who they truly are without any external influences.
The repeated refrain of "don't try to find me, before you're here I'm sure I'll be far gone" suggests that the singer of the song is ready to walk away from everything and start anew. The lyrics also hint at some sort of past relationship or close personal connection ("you know I cared for you") but they are ready to move forward without it weighing them down.
The chorus with its repetition of "Our lives are already written somewhere" suggests a fatalistic outlook on life, but this is countered by the idea that "being yourself is still your right." The singer seems to hold the belief that while their life may be pre-determined in some ways, they still have the power to shape their own path.
Overall, "First Time" appears to be a reflection on the complexities of life and the desire to find one's own way in the world. The lyrics offer a sense of hope and determination, a belief that it is never too late to make a change and live a life that is fulfilling.
Line by Line Meaning
Everyone's around me
People are around me, but I am not paying attention to them.
But I don't seem to care
Despite people being around me, I am not emotionally invested in them.
The world surrounds me
My environment is all-encompassing and ever-present.
It's all I want to stare
I am fixated on the world around me.
Thoughts are running
My mind is racing.
In circles in my head
My thoughts are repetitive and cyclical.
What I need know
I require something right now.
Is to catch my breath
I need to take a break and steady myself.
My heart is beating in my chest
My heart is pumping, indicating high stress or excitement.
Don't you see it's beating faster
Can't you tell that my heartbeat has quickened?
We may try but with no success
Despite our efforts, we still fail.
Our lives are already written somewhere
Our fate or destiny has already been predetermined.
This time I won't repeat myself
I will not make the same mistake again.
You'd better leave me free to make sense
Allow me to find clarity on my own.
Out of my life, going nowhere
My life is at a standstill.
Don't try to find me
Do not attempt to locate me.
Before you're here I'm sure I'll be far gone
By the time you come looking for me, I will have already left.
Where I can live
I need a place where I can dwell.
A life away from all the things I've done
I need to distance myself from all the actions I have taken.
You know I cared for you
I had affection for you.
But there's no time for such regrets
There is no time to dwell on past decisions.
I'll be there alone with me
I will be in solitude with only myself for company.
For the first time in my life
This will be an entirely new experience for me.
Sun is blinding, I'll walk on all the same
The bright light of the sun is causing me discomfort, but I will continue on.
The wind is forcing me to turn my head aside
The strong wind is making me tilt my head away from it.
What I've become will be my only blame if I'm happy with myself
I will only be at fault for who I have become if it makes me unhappy.
And with all of these pages written with you
All the experiences I shared with you are documented in my life story.
There's no reason to feel all of this shame
I should not feel guilty or remorseful for my past actions.
Be yourself is still your right
I have the right to be true to myself.
Contributed by Aiden L. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Shante Carter
Me rn alone in my dorm with no friends and finals are approaching and this semester has been extremely lonely and I can’t hear out of my right ear because it’s filled with water. Buttt I am about to make myself some hot cocoa, turn on my sunset lamp and relax. Thanks Ava for posting🥲
alina H.
Girl what‘s going on with ur ear, are you ok?
Olivia Lacy
i’m in the same exact boat rn :/ i hope finals are going well for u !! ❤️
Alyssa Maria
<3
A B
You got this.
Skye
So glad you’re feeling better Ava, you looked so slay in your hospital gown 🤭 If there’s anything I love more than target Christmas shopping, it’s watching OTHER people target Christmas shop.
Khalilah D.
Lmfao no cause same ❤
Khalilah D.
Congrats on the car Ava! I really hope you’re doing much better ❤ seeing your videos again makes me so happy. Wishing you the best!
Savannah Thompson
Happy Holidays Ava! Glad you are feeling better. Thanks for being a light to all of us ❤
Brianna Destefano
Why was this video so good?! Like perfect amount of chat and action? I’m not sure. I am glad you’re healthy again! ❤️ Back better than ever!