Wicked Game
Lauren Aquilina Lyrics

I guess my problem's always been
I have always had a problem with giving people everything and expecting the same in return.

Giving people everything
I tend to give too much of myself to others and neglect my own needs.

And expecting the same
I assume that others will treat me with the same level of care and attention that I give to them.

He said he didn't do commitment
The person I was involved with was not interested in a serious relationship.

With tattoos on his skin
He had visible tattoos that may have given clues about his personality or lifestyle.

Maybe I wasn't worth the pain
Perhaps he judged me unworthy of his love or affection, and did not want to commit to a relationship with me.

Oh, if only I, I could verbalise
I wish I could express my feelings and thoughts more clearly and confidently.

What's really going on
I struggle to understand my emotions and often keep them hidden from others.

I internalise and I don't know why
I tend to keep my feelings and emotions to myself, and I am unsure why I do this.

But it's taking it's toll
This habit of keeping everything inside is affecting me negatively.

Nobody ever taught me to play
I was never taught how to navigate the complexities of relationships and emotions.

This wicked game
The game of life and human relationships can be cruel and challenging.

Where everything
In this game, every situation or interaction can have significant consequences and meanings.

Is just too much and I'm never enough
I always feel overwhelmed and inadequate in this game, no matter how much effort I put in.

I keep my words inside my lungs
I hold back my true feelings and thoughts, often at the expense of my own well-being.

Bottle it all up
I suppress my emotions and experiences, and this can lead to anxiety and stress.

I've heard that's what the broken do
I have been told that people who are emotionally damaged or wounded often adopt this coping mechanism.

I don't know how to ask for help
I find it difficult to seek support or guidance from others, even when I need it.

Teach me to be someone else
I wish I could change who I am and become someone who is better equipped to handle life's challenges.

Teach me to be somebody new
I want to reinvent myself and start anew, free from the burdens of my past experiences and emotions.

I've been thinking about death
I have been contemplating the end of my life and the futility of my struggles and pain.

But I'll hold my breath
I will try to endure and persevere, even if it means denying my own needs and desires.

And I'll bite my tongue
I will suppress my emotions and opinions, even if it means sacrificing my own happiness and well-being.

These are dark, dark times
I am going through a difficult period in my life, and am struggling to find hope or joy.

But I know that I
Despite my struggles, I am confident in my ability to overcome my challenges and grow as a person.

I will be what I become
I will take control of my own destiny and become the person that I want to be, rather than letting life or others define me.

Nobody ever taught me to play
I still feel lost and inexperienced in the game of life and relationships.

Where everything
In this game, every interaction or experience can shape who we are and who we will become.

Is just too much and I'm never enough
I struggle to cope with the demands and challenges of life, and often feel inadequate and overwhelmed.