Leæther Strip was one of the earliest and most prominent acts on Germany's now defunct Zoth Ommog record label, Leæther Strip's music has also been released on the also defunct Zoth Ommog successor: Bloodline Records and in the US on Cleopatra Records and Metropolis Records labels. Leæther Strip is currently signed with the Alfa Matrix label.
Torture
Leæther Strip Lyrics
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Lost hopes
Understatements
Salt flows in my eyes
Last chance for forgiveness
Last chance to end my life
My life my lies
My fears are haunting me
Their shame
Their illusion
Their blame
Is all I see
Death wins all my hurt end death ends all the hurting
Death stops my inner cries
Why live in a mad world
Why choke on all the lies
Torture
Taste of metal in my mouth
Torture
Let me pull the trigger now
Why live I am worthless
No room for my despair
No loss for the living
No one would care
I can't change what happened
I won't run anywhere
I search for a safe place
I am lost everywhere
The lyrics of "Torture (A Suicide Note)" by Leæther Strip delve into the mind of someone who is contemplating suicide. This person is overwhelmed by feelings of hopelessness, unworthiness, and fear, and can't see any way out of their pain except through death. The first two lines of the song, "Lost hopes, understatements," set the tone for the rest of the lyrics, indicating that the singer has given up on any hope of things getting better.
Throughout the song, the singer expresses a deep sense of shame and self-blame, as if they believe that their mere existence is a burden on others. The lines "My life, my lies / My secrets, my fears are haunting me / Their shame, their illusion, their blame / Is all I see" suggest that the singer is trapped in a cycle of self-doubt and self-loathing, unable to see anything positive about themselves or the world around them.
The final verses of the song make it clear that the singer has reached a breaking point and is ready to end their life. The lines "Why live in a mad world / Why choke on all the lies / Torture / Taste of metal in my mouth / Torture / Let me pull the trigger now" are a poignant depiction of someone who feels that death is the only release from the pain of living.
Overall, "Torture (A Suicide Note)" is a deeply emotional and disturbing song that speaks to the struggles of those who suffer from mental illness and feelings of hopelessness.
Line by Line Meaning
Lost hopes
I have lost all hope and cannot see a way out of my pain and suffering.
Understatements
The gravity of my situation cannot be overstated; my pain is far greater than anyone could imagine.
Salt flows in my eyes
I am overwhelmed with sadness and cannot contain my tears.
Last chance for forgiveness
This may be my last opportunity to be forgiven for my mistakes and find peace.
Last chance to end my life
I am so desperate to end this pain that I may take my own life if there are no other options.
My life my lies
My life has been filled with lies and deceit, both from myself and others.
My secrets
I carry a heavy burden of secrets that I can no longer bear.
My fears are haunting me
My deepest fears are consuming me and I cannot escape them.
Their shame
The shame of my past mistakes is overwhelming me.
Their illusion
The illusion of a better life has been shattered, leaving only despair and hopelessness.
Their blame
Others have placed blame on me for my mistakes, making me feel even more guilty and trapped in my pain.
Death wins all my hurt end death ends all the hurting
Death seems like the only escape from my pain and suffering, but it will also mean the end of all hope and happiness.
Death stops my inner cries
My inner pain and struggles will finally be silenced in death.
Why live in a mad world
The world seems to be a cruel and senseless place, and I cannot find joy or meaning in it.
Why choke on all the lies
I am tired of living a life filled with lies and deceit; it is suffocating me.
Torture
My pain and suffering are unbearable, like a form of torture.
Taste of metal in my mouth
I am filled with a sense of dread and impending doom, as if I can taste death itself.
Let me pull the trigger now
I am ready to end my pain and suffering, and am pleading for the release that death would bring.
Why live I am worthless
I feel that my life has no value or meaning and that I am not worthy of love or happiness.
No room for my despair
There is no one who can understand or help me in my despair and hopelessness.
No loss for the living
If I were to end my life, it would not be a significant loss to anyone else who is living.
No one would care
I feel completely alone and unloved, with no one who would miss me or care if I were gone.
I can't change what happened
I am burdened by the mistakes and regrets of the past, and cannot change what I have done.
I won't run anywhere
I cannot escape my pain and suffering, no matter where I go or what I do.
I search for a safe place
I am desperately searching for a way to find peace and safety from my pain.
I am lost everywhere
I feel completely lost and hopeless, with no direction or purpose in my life.
Contributed by Jeremiah D. Suggest a correction in the comments below.