She would later return under a new name, howndstooth, and released her new album, new moons, on August 22, 2021.
Le Soldat Pony briefly collaborated with fellow musician And The Rainfall under the name Tecolotl.
This message was in the description of Le Soldat Pony's Bandcamp page at one point:
"I like giving out music for free, I truly do, especially to you wonderful people who care enough to come here and look for it. But I can only give out 200 free downloads per month, so if you want music after that (or just want to donate to a good cause) then the money is much appreciated, as well."
Later on, nearer to her Bandcamp being deleted, this message was in the description:
"Everything's free. If you can't download it, my giveaways have run out, so I apologize in advance."
Stargazer
Le Soldat Pony Lyrics
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for I walked down the sidestreets under the trees
with a headache self-conscious looking at the full moon.
In my hungry fatigue, and shopping for images,
I went into the neon fruit supermarket,
dreaming of your enumerations!
Whole families shopping at night!
Aisles full of husbands!
babies in the tomatoes!]
~
keep your wings on your back
color your life with paint strokes blue and purple and green and black
even the universe loses its way sometimes
search for yourself through a lens
an aperture drilling pinpoints into your head
but it won't kill the silence, no
the radio isn't all out there that's dead
you say I won't see you, you take all the blame
but the truth is I love you so much it hurts to remember your name
even the universe loses its way sometimes
you always knew I'd stay on the ground
open doors just scare me
still you run off and orbit all around my head like a real spacepony
and I was never prouder
but still there's nopony here to hold me
but the truth is I love you so much it hurts to remember your name
~
[Are you my Angel?
We strode down the open corridors together
Where are we going,
Will we walk all night through solitary streets?
The trees add shade to shade,
lights out in the houses,
we'll both be lonely.]
The first stanza of Le Soldat Pony's song Stargazer conveys the feeling of walking down the deserted streets with a headache, self-consciously gazing at the full moon while shopping at a neon fruit supermarket. The singer is struck by the anonymity of life, where even in a place as busy as a market, people bee-line for their choice of fruit, mindless of others around them. It’s almost as if the singer is shopping for the possibilities of what could have been with their loved one. The image of ‘whole families shopping at night, aisles full of husbands, wives in the avocados, babies in the tomatoes' is a reflection of how we all compare ourselves with others while trying to find our own identity. The singer is a part of this world of endless choices, but it's not enough to satisfy the hunger and fatigue they feel.
In the second half of the song, the singer addresses their loved one as an angel, and they question where they're going and whether they'll walk through solitary streets all night. The imagery in this stanza conveys the complexity of the singer's thoughts, where the trees add shade to shade, and the lights are out in the houses, reflecting the singer's deep sense of loneliness. At the end of the verse, the singer admits their love for the other person was so profound, so intense, that it hurts to remember their name, reflecting the melancholy tone of the entire song.
Line by Line Meaning
What thoughts I have of you tonight,
I can't stop thinking about you and I am consumed with thoughts of you tonight.
for I walked down the sidestreets under the trees
I walked down quiet streets under the canopies with nature above me.
with a headache self-conscious looking at the full moon.
I was self-aware and experiencing pain as I gazed at the full moon.
In my hungry fatigue, and shopping for images,
I was exhausted and searching for something to satisfy my hunger for imagery.
I went into the neon fruit supermarket,
I visited a brightly lit supermarket filled with colorful produce.
dreaming of your enumerations!
I dreamt of your detailed descriptions and lists that would satisfy my hunger for knowledge of you.
Whole families shopping at night!
Families were out shopping at night and enjoying their time together.
Aisles full of husbands!
The aisles were crowded with men, shopping for their families.
Wives in the avocados,
The women were shopping in the avocado section of the supermarket.
babies in the tomatoes!]
Babies were being pushed around in shopping carts through the tomato section of the supermarket.
keep your wings on your back
Stay true to yourself and don't lose sight of who you are.
color your life with paint strokes blue and purple and green and black
Make your life vibrant and full of different colors and experiences.
even the universe loses its way sometimes
Even the universe can get lost and feel directionless at times.
search for yourself through a lens
Look at yourself through a different perspective or point of view.
an aperture drilling pinpoints into your head
A camera lens is focusing on you and drilling into your mind.
but it won't kill the silence, no
Taking pictures won't erase the quiet moments or the silences.
the radio isn't all out there that's dead
The radio may not provide all the answers and sometimes it is just noise.
you say I won't see you, you take all the blame
You think it's your fault that we can't be together and you think you're the reason why we might not meet.
but the truth is I love you so much it hurts to remember your name
The reality is that I love you so much that it hurts me to even think or say your name.
you always knew I'd stay on the ground
You knew that I would always stay grounded and not venture outside of my comfort zone.
open doors just scare me
New opportunities or possibilities may frighten or intimidate me.
still you run off and orbit all around my head like a real spacepony
You still orbit around my thoughts and mind like an actual space pony.
and I was never prouder
I was never as proud as I was in that moment when I thought about you.
but still there's nopony here to hold me
I still feel alone and no one is here to comfort or hold me.
Are you my Angel?
Are you the one I've been waiting for or my guardian angel?
We strode down the open corridors together
We walked together down open, spacious hallways or paths.
Where are we going,
Where are we heading and what is our destination?
Will we walk all night through solitary streets?
Will we continue to walk all night long down lonely and deserted streets?
The trees add shade to shade,
The trees provide shade and create a gradient of shadows.
lights out in the houses,
The lights are turned off in the nearby homes.
we'll both be lonely.
We'll both feel alone and without companionship.
Contributed by Gavin C. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Defne Demir
Soldat Pony, please come back