Note To Self
Lennex Lyrics
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filled with sorrow and painful memories
but I can't remember what it was I'd seen
that made me grab my pen and clue you in
for me there's no relief
chorus
that's why I'm living day to day in a sea of gray
so that's why I have to say I'm sorry in this note I've wrote to you
everybody wants to live a life
full of purpose fulfilling what's required
but I doubt there's any hope I can maintain
the course I'm on is doomed
yet one choice looms
while the world just fades away
[chorus]
that's why I'm living day to day in a sea of gray
drowning down the pain in a quart of grain
so that's why I have to say I'm sorry in this note I've wrote to you
so point of finger pull the trigger say your last goodbye
this time tomorrow no more tears you'll have to cry
smooth the wrinkles on your forehead close your eyes
for those that loved me ease your troubles I'm at peace right now
don't blame yourself the things I go through I keep down
the only way for me to rectify this frown
I'm dead
I'm dead
I'm dead
In the song "Note To Self" by Lennex, the singer wakes up in a dream filled with sorrow and painful memories. Although he cannot remember exactly what he saw in the dream, it has affected him so much that he feels the need to write a note to someone to express his sorrow. The singer feels that there is no relief for him, and he is living day to day in a sea of gray, trying to drown out the pain with a quart of grain. He expresses regret and apologies in the note he has written.
The second verse contains a feeling of hopelessness, as the singer doubts he can maintain a life full of purpose and fulfill what is required of him. He feels that the course he is on is doomed and that there is only one choice that looms. He mentions the idea of pointing a finger and pulling a trigger, and saying a last goodbye. The singer believes that he is at peace and that those who loved him should not blame themselves for what he has gone through.
The song speaks to the struggles of mental health and the feeling of hopelessness that can come with it. The lyrics also highlight the importance of seeking help if you are feeling overwhelmed or struggling with your mental health.
Line by Line Meaning
yesterday I woke up in a dream
I had a dream that felt very real and emotional
filled with sorrow and painful memories
The dream was full of negative experiences
but I can't remember what it was I'd seen
I couldn't recall the specific details of the dream
that made me grab my pen and clue you in
I felt compelled to write this note to you about my feelings
for me there's no relief
I am constantly struggling and not finding any comfort
that's why I'm living day to day in a sea of gray
I am living my life with a sense of emptiness and darkness
drowning down the pain in a quart of grain
I am trying to numb my pain with alcohol
so that's why I have to say I'm sorry in this note I've wrote to you
I feel guilty for burdening you with my emotions and want to apologize
everybody wants to live a life
Everyone desires to live a fulfilled life
full of purpose fulfilling what's required
Living a life of significance, fulfilling what is expected or needed of me
but I doubt there's any hope I can maintain
I don't feel confident that I have the ability to live up to these expectations
the course I'm on is doomed
I feel like my life is headed in a negative direction
yet one choice looms
There is still one option that I am considering
while the world just fades away
Everything else seems insignificant in comparison to my internal struggles
so point of finger pull the trigger say your last goodbye
I am contemplating suicide and saying final goodbyes
this time tomorrow no more tears you'll have to cry
If I go through with it, you won't have to grieve anymore
smooth the wrinkles on your forehead close your eyes
I hope you can find peace and try to move on
for those that loved me ease your troubles I'm at peace right now
I hope my loved ones can find comfort knowing that I am no longer suffering
don't blame yourself the things I go through I keep down
My struggles were my own burden to bear, don't blame yourself
the only way for me to rectify this frown
The only way to end my pain and sadness is through death
I'm dead
I have passed away
I'm dead
I have passed away
I'm dead
I have passed away
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