Emerging singer-songwriter, Lexi Jayde, narrates the limbo between youth and adulthood, untangling experiences of self-discovery, love, heartbreak, mental health and nostalgia. Her unguarded honesty and vulnerablility speaks for her generation, reverberating through teenage hearts across the world from Los Angeles to Laos. Lexi’s artistry is built on an open expression of her internal struggles and insecurities; through her timeless music, she strives to build confidence in her global Gen Z “family” to do the same.
If I Really Love You
Lexi Jayde Lyrics
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I could hear the distance in your voice over the phone
You don't say "I love you" back
Or let your feelings show
You used to be so good at that
But now I never know
I wish you would hold me
Want you to show me
If anything left in this is real
'Cause, maybe, I'm afraid to
See you dancing on your own
If I really love you
I'll let you go
Midnight drives in your old sweatshirts never felt so cold
And I still hear the stupid songs you showed me everywhere I go
I can taste the hesitation running from your lips
I can feel it in my bones they're breaking
We can't end like this
I wish you would hold me
I wish you would tell me how you feel
Want you to show me
If anything left in this is real
'Cause, maybe, I'm afraid to
See you dancing on your own
If I really love you
I'll let you go
Moments wrapped around romance
That end with bare sunrises and goodbyes
Romance so fragile and rare
That I wonder if it would have the same taste
If not such a delicacy
But I'd still devour you
As I lay here with cold years of wavering emotions
And pressed desires of explosions
That retreat into dormitory
I wonder are we goin' to fight together
Or are we two twin souls
Fighting each other for a lifetime?
'Cause, maybe, I'm afraid to
See you dancing on your own
If I really love you
I'll let you go If I really love you
I'll let you go
The lyrics to Lexi Jayde's song "If I Really Love You" explore the complexities of a relationship that has hit a rough patch. The opening lines set the tone, announcing that the singer's partner wants to be alone. The distance in their voice proves that they are not entirely invested in the relationship anymore, and the singer feels like she's losing control. Her partner's unwillingness to say "I love you" or showcase their emotions leaves the singer feeling uncertain about the relationship's state.
The singer wants her lover to hold her, tell her how they feel, and show her if anything's left in the relationship. She's afraid of seeing them move on, but also acknowledges that if she truly loves them, she will let go if that's what's best for both of them. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a relationship that's unraveling and the inevitable pain that comes with letting go. The midnight drives, old sweatshirts, and "stupid" songs all seem to be memories that the singer treasured, but now they're a painful reminder of what her relationship used to be.
The end of the song is open-ended, as the singer wonders if the two of them are meant to fight together or against each other. It's clear that there's a disconnect between them, but it's not clear whether the relationship is beyond repair. The entire song is a heartfelt plea for communication and honesty in a relationship that's become strained.
Line by Line Meaning
Yesterday you told me that you wanna be alone
Yesterday you confided in me that you needed space and time to be by yourself
I could hear the distance in your voice over the phone
Your voice sounded distant over the phone, as if you were pulling away emotionally
You don't say 'I love you' back
You refrain from expressing your love for me in the same way that I do for you
Or let your feelings show
You keep your emotions hidden and don't open up to me
You used to be so good at that
You had no trouble expressing your love and being vulnerable before
But now I never know
I can't tell how you feel or where we stand anymore
I wish you would hold me
I crave physical affection and closeness from you
I wish you would tell me how you feel
I want you to communicate your emotions and thoughts to me honestly
Want you to show me
I need you to demonstrate your love and commitment to me in tangible ways
If anything left in this is real
I question whether our love is still genuine and if it can withstand our current struggles
'Cause, maybe, I'm afraid to
Perhaps, I'm scared to face the reality of losing you or seeing you move on without me
See you dancing on your own
Visualizing you happy and enjoying life without me hurts and makes me question our connection
If I really love you
If my love for you is sincere and selfless
I'll let you go
I'll allow you the freedom to pursue what you need and want, even if that means we part ways
Midnight drives in your old sweatshirts never felt so cold
Memories of our intimate moments together no longer bring me warmth and comfort, rather they feel distant and unfamiliar
And I still hear the stupid songs you showed me everywhere I go
The songs you shared with me have become a painful reminder of our current distance and discordance
I can taste the hesitation running from your lips
I sense your reluctance to speak openly about your feelings and desire to withdraw from our relationship
I can feel it in my bones they're breaking
I sense deep emotional pain and weariness that is affecting me physically
We can't end like this
The unsatisfying and hurtful state of our relationship cannot continue like this
Moments wrapped around romance
Our love has been full of passionate and tender moments
That end with bare sunrises and goodbyes
However, those happy moments have been overshadowed by sad and difficult breakups
Romance so fragile and rare
Our love feels like a precious and vulnerable thing that is hard to come by
That I wonder if it would have the same taste
I question whether our relationship would feel as sweet and special without the ups and downs
If not such a delicacy
If it were not so unique and precious
But I'd still devour you
Despite the challenges, I would still eagerly consume and cherish our love
As I lay here with cold years of wavering emotions
I struggle with many years of emotional ups and downs, which have left me feeling numb and uncertain
And pressed desires of explosions
I have strong desires and passions that I feel are bottled up and smothered
That retreat into dormitory
These desires and emotions seem to withdraw into a state of inactivity and apathy
I wonder are we goin' to fight together
I question whether we will be able to work together to overcome our problems and save our relationship
Or are we two twin souls
Or are we two kindred spirits
Fighting each other for a lifetime?
Bound together in conflict and strife for the rest of our days
Writer(s): Danny Spadaro, Lexi Jayde
Contributed by Chloe D. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@elisavsnn
I can’t the aesthetic, the lyrics, the instru, ... I CAN’T REALLY IM CRYING
@emilyjosephine6890
honestly I'm so excited for she becomes world famous artist
@72900
Thank you love
@72900
means a lot all the support for her!!
@aestheticvlogs4563
honestly I'm so excited for she becomes word
@medhagoyal
Guess what
She is now 😌 ❤
@enam98
@@aestheticvlogs4563 what is "for she" explain please?
@tccandler
So talented... reminds of Lana Del Rey. Beautifully written and performed!
@SweeSeo
👁
@hermosaa6793
@@SweeSeo lolol