Lexii Alijai was born and raised in Saint Paul, Minnesota. She was the granddaughter of musician Roger Troutman, founder of the band Zapp. Her father, Roger Lynch, the son of Roger Troutman, was also a musician. She attended Como Park Senior High School in the Como Lake area of Saint Paul, following an interest in basketball, but then focused on music instead and transferred to Creative Arts Secondary School in Minnesota, before then enrolling in an online school. Alijai ultimately dropped out to pursue a full-time music career and began rapping over the beats of popular songs by artists such as Dej Loaf, 2Pac and Drake.
Alijai released her first mixtape, Super Sweet 16s, in 2014 on her sixteenth birthday. She then collaborated with Rocky Diamonds on an extended play, titled 3 Days. A second mixtape, In the Meantime, was released a few months later, then her third, Feel∙Less, in October that same year.
The following year, she and rapper Shaun Sloan collaborated on a mixtape titled Same Struggle. Different Story. Alijai became close friends with Kehlani the summer before the release of Kehlani's debut commercial mixtape, You Should Be Here, which peaked at number 36 on the Billboard 200. You Should Be Here granted Alijai media attention due to her lyricism and flow presented on the track. Her next full-length project, Joseph's Coat, was released late 2015 and featured contributions from Elle Varner. In 2016, she performed at Soundset Music Festival and had opened up for Playboi Carti, Lil Uzi Vert and Rich the Kid. She released a remix of "Exchange" by Bryson Tiller and "Cold Hearted" by Meek Mill and Jay-Z, along with a music video for her remix of "Cold Hearted."
In 2017, she released a remix of "Redbone" by Childish Gambino and "Me, Myself and I" by Beyoncé. On September 8, Alijai released her first full-length debut studio album, Growing Pains, in which she covered topics such as dropping out of school and maintaining a relationship with her ex-boyfriend's mother.
Lexii Alijai died at the Loews Minneapolis Hotel on January 1, 2020, at the age of 21. The Hennepin County Medical Examiner ruled that the manner of death was an accident. A toxicology report revealed the cause as mixed toxicity from fentanyl and ethanol.
By Your Side
Lexii Alijai Lyrics
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Feel so far apart
When things get bad, we pick it up won't let it fall apart
Not much be going strong, I got him tryin' hard
Blow up your phone, you pick it up and hear me cryin' hard
Could barely breathe like why you treatin' me nigga?
You actin' new as fuck, you never been this mean to me nigga
Maybe it's just because you don't know what you mean to me nigga
Know you ain't leaving me nigga, forreal
Yo what we fighting for?
It's getting dead as fuck
We put in all this time to turn around and give it up
And when I cry you just gon' act like you don't give a fuck
Knowing if it fall to pieces you gon' pick it up
(knowing you gon' pick it up.)
(I know that you gon' pick it up.)
You gotta understand that I'm a girl, I trip a lot
Argue bout the little stuff
I give you shit a lot
I might be difficult but in return I give a lot
I'm here forever
Boy you know you got this shit on lock
Through all the fuck yous, the I love you so much I hate yous
And all the little words I use when we arguin' is just to break you
As hard as it is to date you nobody here could replace you
And even if we're stopped, you'll never leave, I can't erase you
Look, you got my mind
My body and my spirit
Lot of feelin's I hide
You'll probably never hear it
Got some bitches on the side but you promise they won't come near us
You know I never leave, I be in the crib
See a lot of shit I don't like
But I be pleadin' the fifth
And when we fight
You go on Instagram deleting my shit
Ain't finna fight, they know my spot
So just go be with that bitch, forreal
I'm tired of fucking with you
Okay I'm really not
Just know you got me boy
Stop fucking with them silly thots
And everytime I see your phone it get me really hot
What it's gon' take for you to realize what you really got
(realize what you really got)
(realize what you really got)
In Lexii Alijai's song "By Your Side," the lyrics describe a troubled relationship between two people who are struggling to understand each other. The singer feels distant from her partner, even though they are physically close. She can sense that they are not on the same wavelength, and there is tension between them. Even when things are going well, she worries that they will fall apart.
The lyrics suggest that the singer's partner is acting differently than usual. She accuses him of treating her badly and wonders if he realizes how important he is to her. Despite their disagreements, the singer still loves her partner, and she is willing to work through their problems together. She acknowledges that she is not always easy to be with, but she is committed to their relationship, no matter what.
Overall, the song explores the complexities of love and relationships. It highlights the struggle to communicate and understand one another, even when you care deeply for someone. It also touches on the frustration and pain that come with disagreements and misunderstandings. However, amidst all the challenges, the song offers a glimmer of hope that love can conquer all obstacles.
Line by Line Meaning
A thousand miles away
Despite being physically distant, I feel emotionally far from you.
Feel so far apart
I feel like there's a growing divide between us.
When things get bad, we pick it up won't let it fall apart
Despite challenges, we work together to keep our relationship intact.
Not much be going strong, I got him tryin' hard
Our relationship hasn't been perfect, but he's making an effort to keep it strong.
Blow up your phone, you pick it up and hear me cryin' hard
I reach out to him when I'm upset, and he's always there to listen.
Could barely breathe like why you treatin' me nigga?
I feel suffocated by his actions and I don't understand why he's treating me this way.
You actin' new as fuck, you never been this mean to me nigga
He's acting different than before and it's hurting me.
Maybe it's just because you don't know what you mean to me nigga
Maybe he doesn't realize how much he means to me, and that's why he's acting this way.
Keep stuntin' all you fucking want
He can carry on with his behavior as much as he wants.
Know you ain't leaving me nigga, forreal
Despite everything, I know he won't leave me.
Yo what we fighting for?
I question why we keep arguing when our relationship is crumbling.
It's getting dead as fuck
Our relationship is slowly coming to an end.
We put in all this time to turn around and give it up
We invested a lot into our relationship, but we're ready to give up.
And when I cry you just gon' act like you don't give a fuck
He doesn't seem to care when I'm upset.
Knowing if it fall to pieces you gon' pick it up
Despite his lack of empathy, I know he'll still try to fix things.
(knowing you gon' pick it up.)
I have faith in his ability to make things better.
(I know that you gon' pick it up.)
My trust in him remains despite our issues.
You gotta understand that I'm a girl, I trip a lot
I'm not perfect and I can be difficult at times.
Argue bout the little stuff
We argue about small things, but they still matter to me.
I give you shit a lot
I can be confrontational with him.
I might be difficult but in return I give a lot
Despite my flaws, I also bring a lot to the relationship.
I'm here forever
I'm committed to this relationship for the long haul.
Boy you know you got this shit on lock
I trust him to take care of our relationship.
Through all the fuck yous, the I love you so much I hate yous
We've gone through a lot of ups and downs in our relationship.
And all the little words I use when we arguin' is just to break you
I might say things out of anger, but my intention isn't to hurt him.
As hard as it is to date you nobody here could replace you
Despite our challenges, I don't think I could find someone else like him.
And even if we're stopped, you'll never leave, I can't erase you
Even if our relationship ends, I know he'll always be a part of my life.
Look, you got my mind
He has my full attention and focus.
My body and my spirit
He has my heart, my physical, and my emotional being.
Lot of feelin's I hide
I keep a lot of my emotions to myself.
You'll probably never hear it
He might not ever know all of my deepest emotions.
Got some bitches on the side but you promise they won't come near us
Although he might have other women in his life, he promises not to let them interfere with us.
You know I never leave, I be in the crib
I'm always there for him and I'm not going anywhere.
See a lot of shit I don't like
I witness a lot of things that upset me.
But I be pleadin' the fifth
I keep quiet and don't say anything about it.
And when we fight
When we argue...
You go on Instagram deleting my shit
...he deletes my posts on social media to hurt me.
Ain't finna fight, they know my spot
I'm not looking for a fight, and everyone knows I'm not confrontational.
So just go be with that bitch, forreal
If you want to be with someone else, just do it. I'm done with the drama.
I'm tired of fucking with you
I'm exhausted from all the problems in our relationship.
Okay I'm really not
Actually, that's not entirely true. I still love him deeply.
Just know you got me boy
I'm still committed to him despite our problems.
Stop fucking with them silly thots
Stop messing with other women and focus on our relationship.
And everytime I see your phone it get me really hot
When I see him on his phone, it makes me angry and suspicious.
What it's gon' take for you to realize what you really got
I want him to understand and appreciate what he has in our relationship.
(realize what you really got)
I want him to truly understand and appreciate me.
(realize what you really got)
I want him to see how valuable our relationship is and not take it for granted.
Contributed by Liliana S. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Erica Love
I swear she helped me through so many heart breaks with my ex. I remember playing this and her album Joseph’s Coat all the time 😢 it’s some artists that you never would’ve thought would leave this world so early! I still can’t believe Lexii is gone ??!🥺
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Erica Love she did I swear back in 2014 😞
Makayla Benson
Swear !! I remember being in class listening to sis ... leave class to call and spazz on him ! Dang lex
Clayvon Hart
Joseph's Coat so lit tho 🔥
O Vercetti
Why you lying
Cohen Smith
@Clayvon Hart wym?
Look E
Her spirit screams through her music 💛 her music hit different now & its a beautiful feeling 😭😔 #LLL 💖
Johr YT
Fuck! Not gonna say I’ve been a fan since when she was alive because I didn’t even know she existed. Hearing her music now I wish I knew her when she was still alive. We just give playtime to girls shaking their ass and playing of looks, but she seemed different, this is art.
Aesha Alberts
She was so talented, this got me through a breakup with my ex. Hard af rip babe
Abhinav Srivastava
RIP. One of the best cadences out there, dope flow, thoughtful lyricism and amazing beat selection. Legend in the making.
Rest in power.