After releasing two albums with this line-up, Sal left due to musical differences, and recruited a drummer for the recording/touring of 'Soul Searching Sun.' Caputo felt that the band's original spirit had left the band, and decided to quit in 1997. After a tour with replacement vocalist Whitfield Crane, the singer from Ugly Kid Joe, the band officially disbanded in 1999.
In 2003, the band reunited with their original line-up and played two sold-out shows before their home-town crowd, receiving great reception. This eventually led to a new studio album in 2005, namely 'Broken Valley'. Caputo came out as transgender in 2011. The band broke up again in 2012.
In 2014 the original 'River Runs Red' line-up returned to stage for several gigs. Their latest album A Place Where There's No More Pain was released in 2017. An upcoming album 'The Sound of Scars' is set to be released in 2019.
11. Hemophiliac In Me
Life of Agony Lyrics
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Vulgar show offensively
Hemophiliac in me
Sacred blessings, blessed me
Hemophiliac in me
Shallow persons hollow you
I'm running away, away from you
Hemophiliac in me
Smoke tracks in my fingers
So ease the speed back
The lyrics to "11. Hemophiliac In Me" from Life of Agony showcase a struggle within oneself. The individual is coping with memories and experiences that they have deemed as blasphemous and vulgar. They acknowledge that there is a Hemophiliac within them, a medical condition that prevents blood from clotting. It is a metaphor for their inability to heal from these memories and experiences. This inability renders them fragile and unable to overcome the harshness of reality.
The individual also struggles with the shallow and hollow persons around them. They feel trapped, as if their heart is pumping glue. They do not want to be confined to this environment, and they attempt to run away. The chorus continues to repeat the Hemophiliac in me, which signifies how these memories and experiences are a part of the individual and how they cannot escape them.
Overall, the lyrics express a sense of hopelessness and an internal struggle. It is a powerful message that resonates with anyone dealing with intense emotions or traumatic experiences.
Line by Line Meaning
Used memories are blasphemy
Memories that are no longer relevant or useful are regarded as disrespectful.
Vulgar show offensively
Indecent and crude displays that are meant to offend.
Hemophiliac in me
A person who is susceptible to emotional bleeding due to emotional trauma or internal struggles.
Sacred blessings, blessed me
I have been graced with sacred blessings from a divine power.
Shallow persons hollow you
Superficial people leave you feeling empty and unfulfilled.
Here my heart is pumping glue
I am emotionally stuck and unable to move on from a difficult situation.
I'm running away, away from you
I am distancing myself from someone who is causing me pain and emotional distress.
Smoke tracks in my fingers
Evidence of harmful habits or behaviors that have left a lasting impact on my body.
So ease the speed back
Slow down and take a moment to reflect on my actions and the consequences they may have.
Hemophiliac in me
Continued struggles with internal emotional pain and trauma.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: ALAN ROBERT, DAN RICHARDSON, JOEY ZAMPELLA, KEITH CAPUTO, SAL ABRUSCATO
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