After releasing two albums with this line-up, Sal left due to musical differences, and recruited a drummer for the recording/touring of 'Soul Searching Sun.' Caputo felt that the band's original spirit had left the band, and decided to quit in 1997. After a tour with replacement vocalist Whitfield Crane, the singer from Ugly Kid Joe, the band officially disbanded in 1999.
In 2003, the band reunited with their original line-up and played two sold-out shows before their home-town crowd, receiving great reception. This eventually led to a new studio album in 2005, namely 'Broken Valley'. Caputo came out as transgender in 2011. The band broke up again in 2012.
In 2014 the original 'River Runs Red' line-up returned to stage for several gigs. Their latest album A Place Where There's No More Pain was released in 2017. An upcoming album 'The Sound of Scars' is set to be released in 2019.
Last Cigarette
Life of Agony Lyrics
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Don't toss me out like your last cigarette
I'm one of your own
Bled my way up from under it
Tryin to fill that hole
But down ya go...
Take your finger off the trig- Let it go â?? Oh let it go
If you don't stop shaking
Soon you will be taking it off - taking it off
So hold me brother
Take your finger off the trigger
Deathbed - I bled - Downhearted
Don't feel like you need to leave because
You disappointed us all
Self-esteem has clipped your wings and now
You try and catch your fall
But down ya go
Hold me brother
Take your finger off the trig- Let it go â?? Oh let it go
If you don't stop shaking
Soon you will be taking it off - taking it off
So hold me brother
Take your finger off the trig
Let me know â?? Oh let me know
If you don't stop shaking
Soon you will be taking it off
Hold me â?? Let it go
Hold me â?? Let it go
Hold me â?? Let it go
Hold me â?? Let it go
So hold me brother
Take your finger off the trig- Let it go â?? Oh let it go
If you don't stop shaking
Soon you will be taking it off - Taking it off
So hold me brother
Take your finger off the trig- Let me know â?? Oh let me know
If you don't stop shaking
Soon you will be taking it off
Life of Agony's song Last Cigarette is a heartfelt ballad that explores feelings of depression and self-doubt. The line "Deathbed - I bled - Downhearted" sets the tone for the song, hinting at the singer's struggles with mental health. Throughout the lyrics, the singer addresses their brother, urging them to hold on and not give in to their own pain. The repeated refrain "Hold me brother, take your finger off the trigger" is a powerful plea for help and support.
The metaphor of the last cigarette is used to represent the singer's own sense of worthlessness. They feel as though they are being discarded like an old habit, and that their brother's disappointment has left them feeling even more isolated. The line "Self-esteem has clipped your wings" suggests that the singer is projecting their own feelings onto their brother, perhaps assuming that they feel the same way. The final lines of the song, "If you don't stop shaking, soon you will be taking it off", are a warning that unless the brother reaches out for help, they may eventually give in to their own pain and hurt themselves.
Line by Line Meaning
Deathbed - I bled - Downhearted
Feeling miserable and defeated, as if on one's deathbed and having spilled much blood in the fight.
Don't toss me out like your last cigarette
Please don't discard me like a used, disposable object; I am a human being like you.
I'm one of your own
I belong to the same group as you and share similar experiences and struggles.
Bled my way up from under it
I fought my way out of a difficult situation, and it was not easy.
Tryin to fill that hole
I am searching for something to fill the emptiness inside me, something to make me feel whole.
But down ya go...
Despite my efforts, I am still falling apart, and it feels like there is no way to stop it.
Hold me brother
Emotionally support me, protect me from harm, and show me that you care.
Take your finger off the trig- Let it go Oh let it go
Don't give in to your impulses and self-destructive thoughts; instead, release them and let them go.
If you don't stop shaking Soon you will be taking it off - taking it off
If you don't calm down and regain control of yourself, you will end up making a fatal mistake that you cannot take back.
Don't feel like you need to leave because You disappointed us all
Don't feel like you are alone and unwanted, even if you feel like you let everyone down in some way.
Self-esteem has clipped your wings and now You try and catch your fall
Your low self-esteem and lack of confidence have made you stumble and fall, and now you are struggling to recover.
Let me know Oh let me know
Communicate with me and tell me what's going on, so that I can understand and help you.
Hold me Let it go Hold me Let it go Hold me Let it go Hold me Let it go
I am asking you to hold me and comfort me, while also letting go of your own pain, so that we can both heal together.
Soon you will be taking it off
If you don't take control of your thoughts and emotions, you will end up doing something you regret or harming yourself in some way.
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management
Written by: ALAN ROBERT, JOEY ZAMPELLA, KEITH CAPUTO, SAL ABRUSCATO
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