I Didn't Know
Lil' J Lyrics

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Introduction to the song, setting the scene

The 1st night I laid eyes on her my 1st reaction was whoa!
I was really attracted to her when I first saw her backstage at a show.

The baddest chick I'd ever seen backstage at a show.
She was the most attractive girl I'd ever seen.

She noticed me, got my front page in a row.
She noticed me and we started talking.

I'm trying' not to answer I'm knowing' I can always get that dancer.
I'm trying to hold back my feelings for her, but I know I could always find someone else.

I told her I was looking for a chance to kick it wit' you,
I told her that I wanted to hang out and get to know her better.

Spit some game or maybe exchange digits wit' you.
Flirt with you and maybe exchange numbers.

The one that could say I missed you J she smiled and said
I wanted to find someone who could say they missed me, and she smiled and said it.

"I gotta go" I wished you'd stay.
She had to leave and I wished she could've stayed longer.

That night we must have talked for 2 hours
We talked for a long time that night.

Discussin everything from my tour to if the world could be pure.
We talked about everything from my tour to philosophical questions about the world.

To where I was about to take her in the silver azure.
I was planning on taking her for a ride in my car.

When she touched me felt like all my ill's had been cured.
When she touched me, it felt like all my problems went away.

Ayyo if this the kinda love my parents told me about.
This must be the kind of love my parents were talking about.

I'm in trouble dial 9-1-1 clap from the double. I'm fadin' fast maybe you can save me.
I'm falling in love fast and I need help.

You know I'm tryin' to run from this, man I'm too young for this.
I'm trying to run away from my feelings because I feel like I'm too young for this.

I didn't know, where love was taken me, me and you, this is all so new.
I didn't know love would take me to where it has with you. Everything is so new.

I didn't know, how love could hurt so bad, feel so good, I didn't know.
I didn't know love could hurt so much and feel so good at the same time.

Now every time I look at her it's like the very 1st time.
Every time I see her it feels like the first time I saw her.

Butterflies like before I spit my very 1st rhyme.
I still get butterflies, like I did before my first performance.

Imma playa, I ain't supposed to feel those things.
I'm a player, I'm not supposed to be feeling these emotions.

And my boys Oh my God if I reveal those things.
I can't tell my friends how I feel, they'll make fun of me.

They'll let me have it still I'm drawn like a attic.
They'll tease me but I'm still drawn to her.

Skittin drastic like a kid with advanced mathematics.
I'm acting weird like a kid with advanced math skills.

So confused I don't know what to do.
I'm so confused and don't know what to do.

Got me showin' how I feel by hidin' it from my crew.
I'm hiding my true feelings from my friends.

I can't control the way I feel, is it wrong the way I feel.
I can't control my feelings and I'm not sure if they're right or wrong.

By losin' my focus and throwin' away my deal.
By being distracted by my feelings, I might risk losing my career.

Cause this too can be a thing in that time shall pass.
This relationship could end and time will continue.

My heart is burning but all that comes fire is ash.
My heart is on fire, but it might not last.

And I ain't feeling burning crash.
I don't want to feel the pain of a sudden breakup.

Viscous smiles and all of that passed like '99
All of our happy moments feel like they passed a long time ago.

I never love a chicken but my dime shall shine.
I've never loved a woman like this before.

I'm wit' whatever baby I hope the feelin' last forever.
I'm in this for the long haul and I hope our feelings never fade.

And now it's February South Beach together.
Now it's February and we're spending time together in South Beach.

True the sun is enevitable is near thought that my tour was comin'.
It's true that my tour is coming soon.

And I'll be out about 16 weeks or so
I'll be gone for about 16 weeks.

So naturally I'm tryin' to think how many times that she could go.
I'm trying to figure out how many times she can come visit me on tour.

What she said froze my thoughts as we stopped me in midwalk.
What she said stopped me in my tracks.

While I'm going overseas, it would be best if we didn't talk.
She doesn't think it's a good idea to talk while I'm on tour.

She couldn't take the heartbreak and deeper than that.
She doesn't want to risk getting her heart broken.

She wanted me to tour freedom and we'll see when I'm back.
She wants me to have the freedom to tour without the pressure of our relationship.

Now I know she ain't competing with that.
I realize that she's not trying to compete with my career.

Instead of always tryna save her place mami gave me space.
Instead of trying to hold on to me, she's giving me space.

So as I saw the tear trickle down her angel face.
I saw a tear roll down her face.

I couldn't take the pain from her I turned and walked away from her.
I couldn't bear to see her hurt, so I walked away.