I Sex Myself
Lil B Lyrics

Don't want the world to see me
I don't want others to see the real me, as they might not understand.

Don't think that they'd understand
I believe that others would not comprehend or relate to my experiences.

Everything's meant to be broken
I perceive that everything in this world is imperfect and prone to being shattered.

Want you to know who I am
I desire for you to truly understand and recognize my identity.

My lifetime came from struggle
My entire existence has been marked by hardship and adversity.

All I've seen is what I follow
The only examples and guidance I have had in life are what I have observed and imitated.

My skin color, automatic transaction
The color of my skin leads to automatic judgments and interactions from others.

I'm already classified, no second chance
I am already categorized and labeled by society, without the opportunity for redemption or change.

Taught to feel nappy hair, little grade
I have been taught to view natural, kinky hair negatively, instilling a sense of inferiority and shame.

Why can't I sag when it's just a style
Why can't I wear sagging pants as a fashion choice without facing judgment and criticism?

Little beard, black hoodie, and I'm all good
Despite having a beard and wearing a black hoodie, I am still a good person.

People judge before they even know me
Others form opinions and make assumptions about me without taking the time to truly know me.

Stare at me, don't know I'm lonely
People may stare at me, but they are unaware of the loneliness I feel inside.

Outside's from these stares from police
I face constant scrutiny and suspicion from the police due to my appearance.

And I get the bad rep because another man
I am unfairly judged and blamed for the actions of another person who looks like me.

That just looks like me
I am judged based on my resemblance to someone else, rather than being seen as an individual.

Think life's a movie like Spike Lee
Some people view life as a movie, influenced by the style and perspective of filmmaker Spike Lee.

Too cool like Ice T
Some individuals try to appear cool and detached, reminiscent of the musician Ice T.

Yeah, I move with Life's Peace
I strive to navigate through life with a peaceful mindset and approach.

And he move with the gun piece
In contrast, another person chooses to carry a gun and resort to violence.

So there's no peace
The presence of violence and conflict prevents the attainment of true peace.

I gotta go to the hood, all I see is
When I visit my neighborhood, all I witness are the negative aspects and struggles.

Divided, the freshest schizophrenics
The community is fragmented and filled with individuals who display conflicting behavior patterns.

Men pimping women, people losing vision
I observe men exploiting and objectifying women, while others seem to lose sight of their goals and aspirations.

Given choices before she started living
Some individuals, particularly women, are faced with limited options and decisions that constrain their freedom before they can truly experience life.

I hate myself
I harbor self-disgust and frustration towards my own self.

I see myself in the mirror
When I look at my reflection, I struggle to recognize and understand who I truly am.

But I don't see nothing
However, the reflection reveals a lack of identity or fulfillment.

If you understand what I'm seeing
If you can comprehend and relate to my perspective and experiences.

Please tell me something
I implore you to offer me insight or guidance.

When you black, the media make you wonder why
As a black individual, the media coverage and portrayal often lead to feelings of confusion and questioning.

I just need my history, because I hate myself
I long for a connection to my ancestral history, as it might help alleviate the self-hatred I feel.

It makes me sad to see pimping
Witnessing the exploitation and control of others, particularly through pimping, deeply saddens me.

Like I'm at a battle with my surroundings
I constantly feel at odds and engaged in a struggle against the environment and circumstances I find myself in.

Everybody do it, but not really
Although many individuals engage in similar actions, they may not fully understand the implications and consequences of their behavior.

And I couldn't imagine my momma
I can't bear the thought of my mother going through similar hardships or being subject to exploitation.

Universal knowledge is karma
Understanding that universal knowledge and wisdom ultimately lead to karmic consequences.

I see young girls hanging off the corner
I observe young girls lingering on street corners, likely seeking attention or validation.

And they searching for love
These individuals are desperately searching for love and acceptance.

In the wrong space gave her mind to a pimp
Unfortunately, they have placed their trust and given their mind to a pimp who takes advantage of their vulnerability.

Now he's changing faces
The pimp consistently switches personas or alters his behavior, further manipulating and controlling the girls.

Sometimes I just wish I could trade places
Occasionally, I yearn to switch positions or circumstances with these young girls, hoping to rescue them from their current struggles.

I hate myself for being taught
I became resentful of myself for absorbing the teachings and norms of the hood that foster negativity and lack of respect or love.

The rules of the hood
The codes and expectations enforced within the neighborhood or urban community.

Which don't matter, no respect and no love
These rules prove to be insignificant, as they do not promote respect or compassion.

Ain't got jail for the real thugs
The true criminals or dangerous individuals often avoid prison or punishment.

And I'm sorry to all the innocent in prison
I apologize to those who are unjustly incarcerated and suffer from a lack of freedom despite their innocence.

You get a second chance when
The opportunity for redemption arises when

You free or in heaven
When you are either released from incarceration or have passed away and entered the afterlife.

I promise if you really love
I make a pledge that if you genuinely express love

And you watch your steps
And remain cautious and mindful of your actions.

Respect everybody, man you will get blessed
By treating and regarding everyone with respect, you will receive blessings in return.

Get your point across without violence
It is possible to effectively express oneself and convey a message without resorting to violence.

The black dying by the gun
Black individuals are disproportionately affected by gun violence and its fatal consequences.

I'm tired of crying i hate myself
I am exhausted from shedding tears and harboring self-hatred.

For real man
Seriously, I am serious.

This been in my heart for a long time
These sentiments and emotions have resided within my heart for an extended period.

And if you understand
And if you possess comprehension and empathy

Please tell me something
Please offer me guidance or enlighten me in some way.

I'm ready to give up my old thoughts
I am prepared to relinquish my previous mindset and beliefs.

I'mma move past what I saw
I am determined to transcend and overcome the negative experiences I have witnessed.

I'mma do what I want and be happy
I will assert my independence and pursue my desires, ultimately finding happiness.

I'm not gon' rob or kill to survive
I refuse to engage in criminal activities such as robbery or murder in order to survive.

Everything I've seen was a lie
All the things I have witnessed and believed in were deceptive or misleading.

I'm not ready to die, I love myself
I am not prepared to die, as I have grown to love and value myself.

I said, everything that I've seen was a lie
I reiterate that all the experiences I have encountered were filled with falsehood and deceit.

I'm not ready to die, I love myself
I am not willing to surrender my life, as I have cultivated self-love and appreciation.

Break that mental
Overcome and break free from the mental barriers and constraints that hold you back.

You know we are free now man
Realize that we are now liberated and no longer bound by societal restrictions.

Break that, uh, mental blockage
Break through the mental obstacles that hinder your growth and progress.

Don't think too hard, free your mind
Avoid excessive rumination and allow your mind to be liberated and unrestricted.