Sober
Lil Xtra Lyrics

They said that you wouldn't be here
I was told you weren't going to show up

Guess I knew you'd be around
Deep down, I knew you'd come anyway

From across the room I feel it as you stare me up and down
I can sense your eyes on me from far away

I guess I've been higher sometime I just can't remember when
Maybe I've been more messed up before, but I can't recall

The last thing that I remember was you... walking in with him
The last thing I know for sure is seeing you with someone else

So I will drink and I'll pretend
I'll try to keep up appearances and fake it

I'm strong enough to handle this
I'm telling myself I can take it

To save the grace of faces I
To preserve the image of my friends

Hope to call my friends
Hope they'll still be my friends

But I'll be fine by winter
I'll cope better when it gets colder

I told you once before
I said it to you already

That I'm in love with freezing
I find comfort in the numbness of the cold

If it's right outside your door
If I can find it close by

I'm right outside your door
I'm nearby, not far away

And all my friends are drunk now
Everyone I know is wasted

But I wish that I was sober
But I want to be clear-minded myself

Because my mouth won't seem to open to you that it's over
Because I can't find the words to tell you it's done

Weekends are for getting wasted isn't that right aren't we cool
We think it's cool to drink ourselves stupid on weekends

You're so punk rock I almost forgot I still fucking hate you
You're so rebellious that I almost overlooked the fact I loathe you

I don't care if people stare or the don't like the way we live
I'm not bothered by people's judgment or disapproval of our lifestyle

Yes we're all in love with dying but we've got so much to give
We might have a morbid fascination with death, but we still have potential

It's not that bad, here on the floor
Things aren't that terrible down here

If I'm not sad I'm fucking bored
I'm either miserable or completely uninspired

I hate the way you make me feel, that's real as hell I hope you know
I can't stand the way you affect me, it's true as can be

It goes to show that life is hell
This proves that existence is a form of torture

I've got to go I don't feel well
I have to leave, I'm not doing okay

I just need to be alone sometimes I hope you understand
I require solitude occasionally, I hope you get it

But it's cool if you don't
But it's fine if you don't comprehend

Now they're all out on the porch
Now they're all outside

But I don't smoke cigarettes
I don't puff on smokes

You keep asking me to listen but you're boring me to death
You keep wanting my attention, but you're painfully uninteresting

Sky is white, my lungs are black
The sky is pale, but my lungs are stained

Once you give in you can't go back
Once you surrender, you can't undo it

Life is wack, I guess that's it
Existence is discouraging, that might be all there is

I'm so done feeling like shit
I've had my fill of feeling terrible

To tell you that it's over
To let you know that we're done