Big Pimpin'/Papercut
Linkin Park/JayZ Lyrics

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
Feeling constantly anxious and worried someone is going to harm or betray me.

It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
Thoughts and emotions spinning so fast that it's difficult to focus on anything.

It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
Unable to control the negative, critical inner voice constantly judging and questioning me.

It's like the face inside is right
The negative inner voice is so loud and convincing that it makes me doubt my own judgment and reality.

Why does it feel like night today?
Everything seems dark and gloomy, and nothing brings me joy or excitement.

Something in here's not right today
I sense that something is off or wrong, but I can't quite put my finger on it.

Why am I so uptight today?
I feel more tense, anxious, and stressed than usual, and I don't know why.

Paranoia's all I got left
I'm so overwhelmed and anxious that paranoia is the only emotion that seems to make sense or fit my experience.

I don't know what stressed me first
I can't pinpoint a particular event, person, or situation that caused me to feel this way.

Or how the pressure was fed
I don't know how I got to this point of feeling so stressed and anxious that it's hard to function normally.

But I know just what it feels like
Despite not knowing the exact cause or source of my stress, I can describe the intense physical and emotional sensations I'm experiencing.

To have a voice in the back of my head
The negative, critical inner voice that constantly judges, questions, and undermines me is always present and loud.

It's like a face that I hold inside
The negative inner voice sometimes takes the form of a face or image in my mind, which makes it seem more real and tangible.

A face that awakes when I close my eyes
The negative inner voice is most active and prominent when I'm alone, still, or trying to sleep.

A face watches every time I lie
The negative inner voice tracks my behavior, mistakes, and lies, and uses them as evidence to criticize and shame me.

A face that laughs every time I fall
The negative inner voice takes pleasure in my failures, mistakes, and weaknesses, and uses them as proof that I'm not good enough.

And watches everything
The negative inner voice monitors my every move, thought, and feeling, and judges them harshly and cruelly.

So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
When I'm facing a challenge, a risk, or a difficult decision, I'm aware that the negative inner voice will be louder and more intense than ever.

That the face inside is hearing me
The negative inner voice is always listening to me, waiting for an opportunity to criticize, judge, or undermine me.

Right beneath my skin
The negative inner voice is so close and powerful that it feels like it's a part of me, and I can't escape or ignore it.

You know I - thug em, fuck em, love em, leave em
I manipulate and use women for my own pleasure and gain, without any regard for their feelings, desires, or dignity.

Cause I don't fuckin' need em
I don't form deep, meaningful connections or relationships with women, because I don't believe they have any value or worth beyond their physical appearance or sexual availability.

Take em out the hood, keep em lookin' good
I choose women who are from disadvantaged or marginalized backgrounds, and I use my own resources and influence to make them look more attractive and desirable.

But I don't fuckin' feed em
I don't provide for or support women beyond the bare minimum, because I don't want to get attached or invested in them.

First time they fuss I'm breezin'
As soon as a woman expresses any dissatisfaction or complaint, I dismiss her and move on to the next one, because I don't have the patience or empathy to deal with her problems or feelings.

Talkin' bout, "What's the reasons?"
When a woman questions my behavior or intentions, I act like it's ridiculous or irrelevant, because I don't have to justify or explain my actions to anyone.

I'm a pimp in every sense of the word, bitch
I view myself as a powerful, dominant, and exploitative figure who controls and profits from women, without any moral or legal constraints.

Better trust than believe em
I prefer that women fear and obey me, rather than respect or love me, because it gives me more control and advantage over them.

In the cut where I keep em
I hide or isolate women from public view or scrutiny, so that I can use and abuse them without anyone noticing or interfering.

Til I need a nut, til I need to beat the guts
I only interact with women when I want sex or physical pleasure, and I don't care about their consent, preferences, or enjoyment.

Then it's, beep beep and I'm pickin' em up
I treat women like objects or things that I can use and discard at my convenience, like a car or a phone.

Let em play with the dick in the truck
I treat women as if they are only interested in and satisfied by my genitals, and I don't care about their intelligence, humor, interests, or personality.

Many chicks wanna put Jigga fist in cuffs
Many women would like to arrest, punish, or harm me, if they knew what I do to them and how I treat them.

Divorce him and split his bucks
Women who marry me just for my money or fame are likely to leave me as soon as they can, and take as much of my wealth as they can.

Just because you got good head, I'ma break bread
I'm willing to pay and reward women who perform oral sex or other sexual acts on me, as a way of keeping them dependent and loyal to me, even if I don't care about or respect them as individuals.

So you can be livin' it up?
I use money, gifts, and status to make women feel grateful and indebted to me, and to create an illusion of glamour and luxury that hides the reality of my abusive and exploitative behavior.

Shit I, parts with nothin', y'all be frontin'
I don't share or give away anything that I don't have to, and I don't like when other people pretend to be generous or charitable, because their motives are likely to be fake or selfish.

Me give my heart to a woman?
I don't believe in romantic love or emotional connection with women, because I see them as inferior, manipulative, and untrustworthy.

Not for nothin', never happen
I will never surrender my power, status, or identity to a woman, because I don't want to be vulnerable, weak, or dependent on anyone.

I'll be forever mackin'
I will always be a womanizer, player, or pimp, because I enjoy the thrill of seduction, domination, and control over women.

Heart cold as assassins, I got no passion
I have no empathy, compassion, or emotional depth, because I see them as weaknesses or liabilities that could undermine my power or authority.

I got no patience
I'm easily bored, frustrated, or annoyed, because I expect everything to go my way and to be quickly gratified or satisfied.

And I hate waitin'
I don't like delays, failures, or obstacles, because they threaten my sense of control, entitlement, and superiority.

Hoe get yo' ass in
I command, insult, or objectify women as a way of asserting my dominance, or implying that they are only valuable or worthy of attention when they conform to my expectations or desires.

And let's ri-i-i-i-i-ide check em out now
I use music, or other channels of entertainment, to distract myself and others from the pain, stress, or boredom of everyday life.

We doin, big pimpin', we spendin' G's
I showcase my wealth, power, and status by spending large amounts of money, often on frivolous or superficial things, to impress others and to reinforce my own sense of superiority.

Big pimpin', on B.L.A.D.'s
I drive luxury cars, such as Bentleys, Lamborghinis, or Aston Martins, that symbolize success, wealth, and masculinity, to attract attention and admiration from others, especially women.

We doin big pimpin' up in N.Y.C.
I demonstrate my dominance and influence over the hip-hop scene in New York City, and show that I'm a powerful and respected figure that others should follow or emulate.

It's just that Jigga Man, Pimp C, and B-U-N-B
I collaborate with other rappers, such as Pimp C and B-U-N-B, to create music that glorifies and celebrates our pimping lifestyle and mentality, and to enhance our reputation and influence in the rap world.