By myself
Linkin Parkꠀ Lyrics

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
I don't know how to deal with the people who are causing trouble for me.

Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Should I just rely on my intuition to guide me, even if that means taking risks?

Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
Should I try to keep my dignity even when I am being tormented by my nightmares?

And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Or should I surrender to depressing thoughts that are driving me insane?

Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Do I just stay put and endure the pain?

Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Or should I take the risk of confronting those who are causing me harm?

Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Should I have faith in some people but risk being deceived by their betrayal?

Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Or should I not trust anyone and just accept a life of loneliness?

Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I am overwhelmed and unable to cope with the current situation.

I make the right moves but I'm lost within
Although I may do the right thing, I still feel lost and directionless.

I put on my daily facade but then
I try to present a false exterior to the world.

I just end up getting hurt again
But inevitably, I end up being hurt again anyway.

I ask why, but in my mind
I have many questions, but I don't have the answers.

I find I can't rely on myself (myself)
I can't be sure that I can trust my own judgment.

If I turn my back I'm defenseless
If I choose to walk away from my problems, I will be vulnerable.

And to go blindly seems senseless
But to blindly move forward also doesn't feel like a smart strategy.

If I hide my pride and let it all go on
If I choose to be passive and tolerate the abuse, I risk losing everything.

Then they'll take from me 'till everything is gone
The people causing my misery will continue to take everything from me if I don't put up a fight.

If I let them go I'll be outdone
If I choose to let them walk away, I know that I will still lose because they will keep winning.

But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
Even if I try to confront them, I know I won't be able to catch them successfully.

If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
The unknown answers to my problems will continue to eat me alive like a disease.

Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
If I never find a solution to my problems, I will be consumed by the deafening silence.

How do you think I've lost so much
I feel like I have lost everything, and don't understand how it happened.

I'm so afraid I'm out of touch
I feel isolated and disconnected from others.

How do you expect I will know what to do
I don't know what I am expected to do in this situation.

When all I know is what you tell me to
I am relying on external sources to guide me since I am unable to trust my own intuition.

I can't tell you how to make it
I don't have the answers to what will make everything better.

No matter what I do
Regardless of what actions I try to take.

How hard I try
Even if I put in my best effort.

I can't seem to convince myself
I can't even convince myself that my efforts will be successful.

I'm stuck on the outside
I feel trapped and helpless from within this problem.

I can't hold on
I can't keep it together.