"My December" is a B-Side of “One Step Closer” and was written by Mike Shin… Read Full Bio ↴"My December" is a B-Side of “One Step Closer” and was written by Mike Shinoda while the band was on tour and recorded after the release of Hybrid Theory, their debut album. One of Linkin Park's softest songs, it features no distorted guitar elements and is carried mainly by piano. It was originally recorded for inclusion on KROQ's "The Real Slim Santa" CD and was first performed at KROQ Almost Acoustic Christmas 2000

Although the song isn't featured on any studio album, it is available on more records than any other Linkin Park song and was first made available by Linkin Park on the One Step Closer CD single, along with "High Voltage", a B-side to Hybrid Theory.

The song is available on the following:

"Kevin and Bean: The Real Slim Santa" (KROQ Christmas CD) (2000)
"One Step Closer" (CD single) (2001)
"Frat Party at the Pankake Festival" (DVD-Audio) (2001)
"Hybrid Theory" (Import & Special editions) (2001 & 2002)
also available as a bonus track when the whole album is purchased on iTunes
"In the End: Live & Rare" (only available in Japan) (2002)
"LP Underground 2.0" (limited edition fan club CD) (2002)
"My Dcmbr Reanimation Promo CD
NOTE: A live version is available on the "Somewhere I Belong" CD single and as an iTunes bonus track for "Reanimation".

In 2002, a remix of the song made by Mickey P. and featuring Kelli Ali, entitled "My

My December
Linkin Park Lyrics

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This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow-covered home
This is my December
This is me alone

(And I) just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
(And I) take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
(And I) just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
(And I) take back all the things that I said to you

And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

This is my December
These are my snow-covered dreams
This is me pretending
This is all I need

(And I) just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
(And I) take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
(And I) just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
(And I) take back all the things I said to you

And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear

Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to

Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

Overall Meaning

Linkin Park's "My December" is a melancholic and reflective song that revolves around the theme of solitude, homesickness, and regrets. Lead vocalist Chester Bennington's vocals sound vulnerable and sincere, almost as if he is directly sharing his thoughts and feelings with the listener. The song starts with the repetition of "This is my December," which signifies the singer's emotional attachment to the month, possibly because it reminds him of a particular event or time period of his life. The phrase "This is me alone" highlights the singer's loneliness and isolation, possibly because he is physically away from his loved ones.

The chorus of "My December" includes the lines "And I'd give it all away, just to have somewhere to go to / Give it all away, to have someone to come home to." These lyrics show the singer's longing to have someone he can go to, someone he can be with. The word "give" emphasizes the singer's willingness to sacrifice everything he has for the sake of the one thing he wants most - companionship. He deeply regrets some of the things he has said or done that may have hurt or pushed away the person he misses. Nevertheless, he still wishes he could go back in time and change the past.

Overall, the song's message is that even though the holiday season can be cheerful and festive, it can also bring back bittersweet memories and make one feel lonely and empty. The song acknowledges what it's like to feel helpless, lost, and regretful during a season that's meant to be joyous and warm.

Line by Line Meaning

This is my December
This is the month of the year that I consider to be my own

This is my time of the year
I find meaning and value during this part of the year

This is my December
I feel strongly connected to this month, it's a part of who I am

This is all so clear
I have a clear understanding of what this month means to me

This is my December
My surroundings and environment during this month are what I consider home

This is me alone
I spend much of this month alone, but I prefer it that way

(And I) just wish that I didn't feel
I'm aware of my emotions and I wish they were different in this case

Like there was something I missed
I feel like there's something I should be doing during this month that I'm not doing

(And I) take back all the things I said
I regret saying things that hurt other people's feelings

To make you feel like that
I said things that caused someone to feel negatively

(And I) just wish that I didn't feel
I'm aware of my emotions and I wish they were different in this case

Like there was something I missed
I feel like there's something I should be doing during this month that I'm not doing

(And I) take back all the things that I said to you
I want to make amends and take back things that I said that may have hurt you

And I'd give it all away
I would do anything to have the things I'm missing during this month

Just to have somewhere to go to
I want a sense of purpose and direction during this month

To have someone to come home to
I want to feel loved and supported by someone during this month

This is my December
This month is significant to me and part of my identity

These are my snow-covered dreams
My hopes and aspirations during this month are important to me

This is me pretending
I may not be as confident as I seem during this time

This is all I need
Despite my feelings of emptiness, this month provides me with everything I need

Give it all away
I'm willing to let go of everything I have for what I truly want during this month