I Don't Want to Live Forever
Listener Lyrics

You've got beet blood in your mouth and lies in your artichoked heart
You are full of hypocrisy and deceit

You’re black eyes stalking through me
Your intense gaze makes me uncomfortable

With a birdcage for ribs, that vultures trying to get out
You feel trapped and vulnerable

It’s scratching your kidney wings
You are feeling restless and anxious

We’re no longer feeding ourselves, the raccoons are eating our dreams
We have lost our motivation and goals to strive for

Pushing past our feeblery to keep them out, this morning I heard one sing:
Despite our weakness, we are still fighting to protect our dreams

There's a whole big world out there my son, be careful don't believe them.
Be cautious of the lies and deceits in the world

There's a crazy old lady in the sun, she's angry can't you feel it?
There is negativity and hostility present in the world

If you don’t work hard you’re no son of mine, well I’ve earned these riverbeds
You must work hard to impress me and earn my respect

And I’ll drown you out until you’ve made me proud if you won’t learn you’re better off dead.
If you fail to impress me, I will ignore you and consider you worthless

So, I’m digging in this farm yard trying to find the seeds
I am searching for opportunities and growth

Forgetting all I have left in this world of course that includes me
I am neglecting myself in my pursuit of success

So I’m digging and I’m learning and leaving nothing unsaid
I am dedicated to self-improvement and honesty

All I am is all I have, I’ll take this garden for my bed
I am content with what I have and will make the best of it

I want to paint seeds together, and follow you right up to the edge
I want to create something meaningful with you and explore new experiences

Filled up and spilling like carried cups, and watch the sun go red
We will embrace life and its beauty

But there’s poison right here in our water, and a shark somewhere in the well
There are dangers and obstacles in our current situation

I wanna show you my life, show me your life and tell me it’s not the devil
Let's share our experiences and validate each other's struggles

It’s the beauty in the struggle has me going keeps me shook
The challenge and reward of overcoming struggles motivates me

Sometimes I can see it in your face God but not in the pages of a book
I see God in your actions and character instead of religious texts

I don't want to live forever. I just want to live for now
I prioritize living in the present rather than worrying about the future

But the angel on my doorstep keeps pointing me towards that plow
I struggle with balancing my desire for immediate gratification with long-term goals

So I’m digging in with both my hands, keeping one eye on the door
I am committed to working hard while aware of potential distractions

If I go looking I’ll probably find it, and get all I’ve been asking for
If I actively seek what I want, I have a higher chance of achieving it

I don't want to live forever. I just want to live for me
I prioritize my own happiness and desires

But your face just keeps haunting, sometimes it’s all I see
You have a powerful impact on me and my thoughts

So I’m working hard at learning all I can I’m gonna give it all to you
I am dedicated to improving myself and sharing my growth with you

We’re all so straight and true, we’re all so straight and true
We are all honest and dedicated to being the best versions of ourselves

I don't want to live forever. I just want to live for us
I prioritize the well-being of our relationship

But the head up on my shoulders keeps driving me to be careless
My own thoughts and impulses may cause me to act recklessly

Our brains don’t want to listen, ears squinting for some honesty
We struggle with being honest with ourselves and each other

It’s gets slippery here, hold on, we are not ourselves probably
We are in a difficult situation and may not be acting like our true selves

But the devil round my doorway keeps singing me something new
I am tempted by negative influences and distractions

So I’m listening with idle hands cupped tight around both ears
I am actively absorbing and considering these influences

My minds open like a burned down house, I haven’t died at all
I am willing to consider new perspectives and ideas despite difficult circumstances

I haven't died at all this year, I haven't died at all this year
I have grown and changed despite facing challenges

Please come and live, why don’t you live, you can live inside of me
I want you to be a part of my life and share my experiences

And in that fire there is truth, but we take our furnace-chests, and run em neck deep into that lake
The truth can be difficult to face and we may avoid it by distracting ourselves

And let the coals stare us down, one last glare of doubt and hate
We may face feelings of doubt and negativity when confronting the truth

But we were wrong, no I was wrong, we’ll just be wrong about some things
We may make mistakes and have to accept them

And it will never be, it can never be, it should never be this easy
Life will always have challenges and it is not realistic to expect it to be easy

Wash away the fire that burns, we wash away our flame
We must let go of negativity to find peace

My eyes saw fire, my heart said escape
I was drawn to intensity but needed to find a way out

It’s the beauty in the struggle has me going keeps me shook
I find reward in facing and overcoming challenges

Sometimes I can see it in your face God but not in the pages of a book
I see evidence of a higher power in actions and emotions rather than religious texts

I thought it was you. but yeah, I thought it was me too.
We may struggle with identifying the source of problems or solutions