If I
Lo-fi Nil Lyrics
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I would silently observe the reflection of this room in your eyes
Hoping to feel present for the first time
If this was my last day here
I would break the glass resting on my skin
That invisibly separates me from this world
And from you
If this was my last day with you
I would talk to you about my half-finished poems
As if I had the courage to write again
Hoping someday you will finish them
While you might be searching for me
Between the lines
Or trying to forget me
If you notice my voice shaking
While talking to you
Try to ignore it
If you notice my eyes getting blurry
Find comfort in your sudden disappearance
And wait for gravity to reveal you again
If I die tomorrow
I would finally realize that the ambient pain
Is another proof that I'm still alive
You know
I know
The fragility of everything
The fragility of me
I know
You know
That as the sunset approaches
Every time you smile
I die a little bit
I'm sorry I haven't touched you enough
You see, I can only say "I love you"
In silence
You might be angry with me
For hiding it from you
But all I wanted was another normal day with you
If I don't die tomorrow
I will live as if I could
The lyrics of Lo-fi Nil's song "If I" depict a deep sense of existentialism and a realization of the impermanence of life. The song starts with an intriguing imagination of what would happen if it were the last day with someone close. The singer contemplates the possibility of feeling present for the first time if it were his last day, which insinuates that he wasn't fully present in their prior interactions. The line "I would break the glass resting on my skin that invisibly separates me from this world and from you" is symbolic of the emotional barriers he has constructed that prevent him from completely connecting with this person.
The singer speaks about his half-finished work and how he wishes to have the courage to complete it someday. He hopes that the person he is with will finish them someday or look for him between the lines. While acknowledging the fragility of everything, including himself, he expresses how every time the person he loves smiles, he dies a little bit. He knows that the pain he feels is proof of his existence and feels sorry for not expressing his love through touch.
The song is melancholic, deeply introspective, and thought-provoking, with each verse loaded with evocative imagery, symbolism, and metaphors. Ultimately, the lyrics of the song encourage the listener to savor every moment, take risks, and live as if every day could be the last.
Line by Line Meaning
If this was my last day with you
If today was the last day I spent with you
I would silently observe the reflection of this room in your eyes
Hoping to feel present for the first time
I would quietly look at the reflection of this room in your eyes, hoping to feel truly present for the first time
If this was my last day here
I would break the glass resting on my skin
That invisibly separates me from this world
And from you
If this was my last day on earth, I would break the invisible glass that separates me from the world and you, which rests upon my skin
If this was my last day with you
I wouldn't tell you
I would talk to you about my half-finished poems
As if I had the courage to write again
Hoping someday you will finish them
While you might be searching for me
Between the lines
Or trying to forget me
If today was the last day I spent with you, I wouldn't tell you that. Instead, I would talk to you about my half-finished poems, pretending to have the courage to write again, and hoping that someday you will finish them. Meanwhile, you might be searching for me between the lines or trying to forget me.
If you notice my voice shaking
While talking to you
Try to ignore it
If you notice my voice shaking while we talk, please try to ignore it
If you notice my eyes getting blurry
Find comfort in your sudden disappearance
And wait for gravity to reveal you again
If you notice my eyes getting blurry, find comfort in the sudden disappearance of your presence and wait for gravity to reveal you again.
If I die tomorrow
I would finally realize that the ambient pain
Is another proof that I'm still alive
You know
I know
The fragility of everything
The fragility of me
If I die tomorrow, I would finally realize that the ambient pain is another proof that I'm still alive. You know and I know the fragility of everything, including myself.
I know
You know
That as the sunset approaches
Every time you smile
I die a little bit
You know and I know that as the sunset approaches, every time you smile, I die a little bit inside.
I'm sorry I haven't touched you enough
You see, I can only say "I love you"
In silence
You might be angry with me
For hiding it from you
But all I wanted was another normal day with you
I apologize for not touching you enough. You see, I can only say "I love you" in silence. You might be angry with me for hiding it from you, but all I want is another normal day with you.
If I don't die tomorrow
I will live as if I could
If I don't die tomorrow, I will live my life as if every day could be my last.
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Vasileios Varnas
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