Drowning
Lost in Separation Lyrics

Standing in a garden fallacies
I find myself in a place of false hope and illusions

That I found as I awoke from this lucid dream
I became aware of my reality as I opened my eyes

Brick by brick I let you build my prison
I allowed myself to be confined and trapped by this relationship

Renumeration for my suffering
I thought my pain was worth it because I believed I would be rewarded

I've burned my candle out at both ends
I have exhausted myself trying to maintain this relationship

I've traded pain for apotheosis
I believed that my suffering would lead to my spiritual elevation

Is this sentence escapable?
Can I escape this situation?

Or is my pain my only home?
Is the pain I feel so familiar that it has become the only place I feel comfortable?

Cold and distant
You seem unfeeling and distant

I shiver at your touch
Being around you scares me

Is this salvation?
Is this what it means to be saved?

Or have I seen this all before?
Is this just a repeat of past experiences?

In repose
When I am calm

It's as if I saw this coming
I had an inkling that things would turn out this way

I dream of drowning in the black
I fantasize about feeling something, even if it is pain

Just to feel something again
I am so desperate for any sensation that I am willing to suffer just to feel alive

I fear falling asleep at night
I am terrified of confronting my own thoughts and emotions

I fear discovering these nightmares
I am scared of facing my inner demons

That creep into my mind
Those thoughts that invade my consciousness

I cheated god in the deal we made
I feel like I have broken some sort of divine agreement

But nothing ever lasts forever
All things eventually come to an end

I see myself in you but we're not the same
I relate to you but we are different

the only common ground we share is this god damn name
The only thing we have in common is our shared experiences

Blame me for my past don't forget my name
Hold me responsible for my past actions, but remember who I am

From the surface everything seemed brighter
At first glance, everything appeared to be better than it was

But behind my mask I'm chasing the rainbows in my head
My true self is chasing after something unattainable

I let them in
I allowed my vulnerabilities to be exposed

The wolves have waited patiently
My problems have been patiently lying in wait

Their claws are digging in
Their impact on me is beginning to take root

And I start to feel alive again
Their influence reminds me that I am still capable of feeling something