I Miss Myself
Lotus Lyrics

(It hurts, I can't take this anymore)
Pain, pain is sexual (It hurts)
I, and I'm horny, I
(I'm tellin you, I'm tellin' you it hurts)
I'm horny, I, horny, I
(I can't take this anymore)

I jump in a mosh-pit
(Come on) , but I'm alone
Between four trees I get it on My brain is hemorrhaging, it's them or me
It ain't easy knockin' over a tree
I pass out, I wake up, the room is padded
It would appear I've had it, but hold up
Clothes rip, wrap 'em around my neck
And choke myself to death, no breath
Now I'm out, I'm strapped down
But wait, I can still move my head around
I got about four inches between
The back of my head (And?)
And the metal gurney bed
Boom! Slammed it, retractions
(Boom) I feel the back of
My skull is crackin'
(Boom) A broken bone is piercing my brain
And oh! I just hammered it in

I hurt myself! I hurt myself! (Stop me)
Pain! Pain! Hurt! I hurt myself (Stop me)

I'm sittin' in the dark, talking to myself
()
Why does everybody tell me that I need help
(Help) i'm in love with pain
I take a needle or a knife
And drive that mother fucker
Through my wind pipe
Just might take a razor blade
Dip it in some gas
See if I can take a little skin off the calf
(What the fuck?)
Grotesque, I'm a walking body bag
And when it all heals, I'll pick the scabs

Alone in the casket, buried in the earth
Self-infliceted wounds
Blood stains on my t-shirt
Kick at the door til' my legs fall off
Try to use my head but my skull to soft
The pain overwhelms
Shootin' through my kidney
Blood rushes out when I stick the shank in me
Keep stabbin' and stickin', a wound opened
Cut off oxygen, take my own life again

I hurt myself! I hurt myself! (Stop me)
Pain! Pain! Hurt! I hurt myself (Stop me)

Why, tell me why do you hurt yourself
When you know I love you? (Stop me)
Why, tell me why do you hurt yourself
When you know I love you? (Stop me)

Do you wanna die? (Die?) Do you need my help?
Is it self mutilation that
You're bringing on yourself
Went through the same situation one year ago
I guess that explains all them
Scars on my throat
Why you still breathing, are you still alive?
Escaping from the demons that
You had locked inside you're that suicidal
Then come an play my game
One gun, one bullet, empty room with no pain

A layer of skin, ooh, I pull it back
And smooth it back down with one simple smack
(Ouch) wednesday nights
I got kicked off my bowling league
Just 'cause I'd show up
Bite a bowling ball, then leave
Yeah, go ahead, curse me, you faggots
So I throw my legs under moving cars
You got your habit's
I don't consider it hurtin' myself
It brings me joy
Now shut the fuck up, here! (Batter up) Crack

Cut and slice away with the steak knife
Hit myself in the ankle with PVC pipe
X-Acto blade, underneath the finger nail
Bleed and make another cut
Fuckin' might as well
Table spoon of Morton salt in an open wound
If it don't burn you don't
Know what you doin' (Right)
If you fail, just return to start
Self-defecation, is a beautiful art (Yeah)

I hurt myself! I hurt myself! (Stop me)
Pain! Pain! Hurt! I hurt myself (Stop me)

Why, tell me why do you hurt yourself
When you know I love you? (Stop me)
Why, tell me why do you hurt yourself
When you know I love you? (Stop me)

Stop me! Stop me!
Stop me! Pain, sexual pain, I, I, stop me!
I, I, sexual, I, is it sexual? Stop me!
Why, tell me why, do you hurt yourself?
(I, I, I, sexual?)
When you know I love you? Stop me!
Why, tell me why, do you hurt yourself?
(Is it, is it sexual?)
When you know I love you? (Stop me)
I, I, I, I, I, I, stop me! Is it sexual? I
I, I, I, I, sexual, sexual, stop me!
Is it sexual? Is it sexual? I, stop me