The group is effectively a re-branding of the touring group that performed under Welch's name to promote his solo album. Formed in 2009, Welch recruited musicians through open auditions via YouTube, and second-round auditions, in person, at his studio in Phoenix, Arizona. The original group was a six-piece group, that featured Michael Valentine on Bass, Ralph Patlan on guitar, Brian Ruedy on keyboard, Scott "SVH" Von Heldt on guitars and vocals and Dan Johnson on drums. After two years of touring, Von Heldt departed the band due to financial reasons, Ruedy was let go a few months earlier and later joined Whitesnake. Patlan also departed the band, but no reason was given. The search began to find a guitar player. In March 2011, two weeks before a tour, Welch discovered "the perfect fit" for his band through Thousand Foot Krutch's public audition videos for a new guitarist on Youtube. 15 years old at the time, J.R. Bareis was chosen by Welch to be the new guitar player and became an official permanent member of the band, as they settled on establishing themselves as a four-piece. The group released a single, "Paralyzed" in November 2011, under the Brian "Head" Welch name. In February 2012, the touring band was re-branded into the group Love and Death.
Love and Death was formally announced in February 2012 through an official statement made by Welch. In the statement, Welch explained that "I have wanted to use a band name for branding my music for a few years. It has been an ongoing discussion with my management, but we were just starting to tour and I was in the middle of supporting my third book and it seemed like a bad time to switch names. Now with the new music coming out, its time to really separate the things I do. I want the music to be about music. I will still be doing public speaking under Brian Head Welch. I am happy that all the confusion will be over."
My Disaster
Love and Death Lyrics
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How does it feel
Why do you stay so silent
Will the time reveal
You're the leader I follow
Am I a victim of circumstance
Crashing down on me
Lost and so afraid
It's my disaster
Losing everything
Giving all of me
I feel so betrayed
In my disaster
How can you say you love me?
It's so unclear
I hope the pain will leave one day
With all the fear
You're the leader I follow
Am I a victim of circumstance
Feeling everything
Crashing down on me
Lost and so afraid
It's my disaster
Losing everything
Giving all of me
I feel so betrayed
In my disaster
But I'll make it through
But I'll make it through
I've got to dominate
I will not tolerate it
Will I appreciate
The pain that leads me to you
Feeling everything
Crashing down on me
Lost and so afraid
It's my disaster
Losing everything
Giving all of me
I feel so betrayed
In my disaster
But I'll make it through
My disaster
But I'll make it through
My disaster
The lyrics of Love and Death's song "My Disaster" seem to speak to the pain and confusion that can come with a difficult relationship. The song addresses a loved one who seems to be watching the singer suffer, but won't speak up about their feelings. The singer questions if they are a victim of circumstance, and wonders if the time will reveal why their loved one is staying silent. The chorus speaks to the feeling of being lost and afraid, as if everything is crashing down on them. They feel betrayed by their loved one and the situation in general, but vow to make it through.
Overall, the lyrics suggest a sense of helplessness and confusion in the midst of a difficult situation. The singer is struggling to understand why their loved one won't speak up and why they are suffering. They feel like a victim of circumstance, but are determined to make it through whatever comes their way.
Line by Line Meaning
How can you watch me suffer
As I suffer, you watch my agony, but why?
How does it feel
Tell me, how does it feel to see me in such distress?
Why do you stay so silent
Amidst my calamity, why do you choose to remain silent?
Will the time reveal
Will time bring forth answers that I've been searching for?
You're the leader I follow
You're in charge and I follow your lead, despite my misgivings
Am I a victim of circumstance
Is everything happening to me just a result of chance?
Feeling everything
I'm experiencing a multitude of emotions
Crashing down on me
All these feelings, whether good or bad, are overwhelming me
Lost and so afraid
I’ve lost my way and I’m paralyzed by fear
It's my disaster
Everything happening in my life feels like one big catastrophe
Losing everything
I'm losing everything I hold dear
Giving all of me
I've given my all and it still isn't enough
I feel so betrayed
I feel let down and deceived
How can you say you love me?
Your actions don't align with your words of love
It's so unclear
Your love and intentions seem obscure and murky
I hope the pain will leave one day
I hold onto the hope that this pain will eventually fade away
With all the fear
Alongside all the fear that engulfs me
But I'll make it through
But I'm confident that I'll be able to endure this
I've got to dominate
I need to take control and not let my circumstances control me
I will not tolerate it
I won't stand for being the victim anymore
Will I appreciate
Will I come to realize the lessons learned from this pain?
The pain that leads me to you
Perhaps, in the end, all of this pain will lead me to you
My disaster
This chaos and calamity belong to me alone
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC
Written by: BRIAN WELCH, JASEN RYAN RAUCH, MARK L. HOLMAN
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