Loose Ends
Loyle Carner Lyrics

In love, when the going is tough
When things get tough in a romantic relationship

I wait 'til it falls on deaf ears
I ignore the problems and wait for them to go away

Hearsay, without the boundaries of love
Gossip and rumors that are not confined by love

My take is, I wish there was a better way
My opinion is that there has to be a better solution

Uh, I got a lot of love, a lot of loose ends (Way)
I have a lot of love in my life, but also a lot of unfinished business

A lot of people that I wish I knew then (Way)
There are many people who I wish I had gotten to know earlier in my life

Friends beckon every second you spend (Way)
Friends are always calling for attention and time

I'm wettin' the pen, every letter you send
I'm writing letters and expressing myself through my music

Yo, I been listening to Dreamy Days, I'm in disarray
I have been listening to Dreamy Days music and feeling disorganized and confused

I realise it's everybody else who's still astray
I realize that everyone else is lost, not just me

I feel ashamed, I know there ain't no savin' away
I feel guilty and know that I can't save everyone

They went astray, I went Australia
They got lost, but I went to Australia

So what I'm supposed to say to 'em?
I don't know what to say to them now

Uh, when all this love's out of range
When all this love is unavailable or unattainable

Everything around me changed, I'm supposed to stay the same
Everything else has changed, but I'm supposed to remain constant

Turn down these free drinks I couldn't even name
Rejecting unknown drinks offered to me for free

And I like all this money, 'cause I'm fuckin' up my brain
I enjoy having money, even though it is messing with my head

I been goin' insane, shelf full of family remains
I have been losing my mind, with reminders of dead relatives on my shelf

Brokenhearted is seein' none of them again
It breaks my heart that I will never see them again

I, I pour the glass, stick my head out in the rain
I pour a drink and stand out in the rain, trying to numb my pain

Try and find another person I can blame
I try to find someone to blame for my pain

Sat upon this plane, uh
Sitting on a plane, possibly traveling to escape my problems

And yo, I'm prayin' that we don't crash
I'm praying that the plane doesn't crash

'Cause every night, I shiver at the sight when we go back
Every night, I am scared when we start to descend

'Cause every night could be my last, and yeah, I know that
Every night could be the night I die, and I am aware of that

So I crack a smile 'fore it goes black, trust
So I smile before everything goes dark and I possibly die, trusting that everything will be alright

Trust, uh, I wish you'd been there when my dad had died
I wish you had been there for me when my dad died

I, I wish you'd been there when my mother cried
I wish you had been there for me when my mother cried

I, I wish you'd been there in the drag of night
I wish you had been there for me during the difficult times

To see my side, look me in my eyes when I was paralysed
To support me, understand me, and look at me when I was feeling incapacitated

And tell me everything's alright and push it to the side
To reassure me that everything is okay and try to ignore the problems

It's just a sacrifice, at times, I told a bag of lies
It is sometimes necessary to make sacrifices, and I have told many lies to cover up the truth

But not a pack of lies, we always told a couple ones
We didn't tell a lot of lies, only a few

Of course it was true, you only knew me from the dramatise
Of course it was true, you only knew me from the exaggerated portrayal of my life

I feel an agonising risk, 'cause in a thousand islands
I feel an overwhelming sense of uncertainty, because I am on a remote island

This is where I really wanna be when we were cracking wise
Despite the uncertainty, this is where I want to be, when we used to joke around

'Cause it was black and white, literally black and white
Because things were simple and straightforward, almost like a black and white movie

White from my mother and my father was the blackest skies
My mother was white and my father was dark, like the night sky

Skies, I, I can see it's true
The sky, I can see it's real

I, I see my mother up in you
I see my mom in you

Shit, I think my dad'd see it too
I think my dad would see it too

Yo, I just wish he knew, uh
I just wish he knew

Uh, imagine all the friends you see most
Imagine all the friends you see the most

Each one you peggin' away
Each one you are giving a piece of yourself away

Is dependin' on you puttin' pen to the page, uh
They rely on you writing and expressing yourself

And so, you break it down, checking they're paid
So you break it down and make sure they're getting paid

Another day you're heartbreakin', you resented the stage
Another day you're sad, and you hate performing on stage

You feel that same rage
You feel the same anger and frustration

Watch the crowd, watch the stage thinkin', "Shit"
Watching the crowd and the stage and thinking, "Oh no"

Rather in the crowd with your mates drinkin'
You would rather be in the crowd, drinking with your friends

Misbehaviours, catch another dame winkin'
Misbehaving and catching women flirting with you

You feel ashamed, guzzle Jagers, your brain's sinkin'
You feel ashamed, so you drink more, and it takes a toll on your mental health

You think it's deep, don't think it's depression
You think it's profound, but you don't realize it's actually depression

A misspent adolescence
A youth spent poorly

But all this time, all this time, time's of the essence
But all this time, time is still passing quickly

You would never learn from your lessons
You don't learn from your mistakes

You're stuck in that same quintessence
You're stuck in that same pattern and habit

Heartbreak, one in the same
Heartbreak, it is all the same

Days change, but you're stuck in the game
Days keep passing, but you're still stuck in your ways

It's like, she's tellin' you you're young enough to be at uni
It's like, she's telling you that you're still young enough to be in college

Somehow, the one who sees through me
Somehow, the one who sees past my facade