Lose My Mind
Luki & Boy Lyrics
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I've been sipping, I've been drinking, I've been getting fucked up, from this heny I've been drinking
Sipping all that lean, pop another bean, making all that bread from selling that green
Been on the grind since I was nine, keep saying that you aren't fine, baby girl you more than a dime, oh yeah, oh yeah
Been wishing this pain would go away, been wishing this rain would go away, wiping all these tears on her face
Lose my mind, lose my mind, lose my mind, lose my mind when I see you
I've been sipping, I've been drinking, I've been getting fucked up, from this heny I've been drinking
Sipping all that lean, pop another bean, making all that bread from selling that green
Been wishing this pain would go away, been wishing this rain would go away, wiping all these tears on her face
The lyrics of Luki & Boy's song "Lose My Mind" delve into the complex emotions of a person who is struggling to cope with the mental and emotional turmoil of their loved one's illness. The opening lines reveal the persona's dark and disturbing thoughts about their loved one's death, which suggests that they have been grappling with intense feelings of fear and anxiety. The next lines reveal that the persona has become stuck in their head, unable to escape the worry and uncertainty that comes with their loved one's health condition. They have resorted to smoking again, which can be seen as a form of self-destructive behaviour to cope with the stress.
The chorus expresses the persona's struggle to find a balance between supporting their loved one and preserving their own mental health. They are torn between wanting to help and feeling helpless, unsure of how to make things better. The lines "How do I decide / To let it all slide? / Picking apart my insides / Holding on tight" reflect the mental exhaustion that comes with trying to maintain composure in the face of a crisis. The persona implores their loved one to do what they need to do to get better, while they try to hold on and not lose their mind.
In the verse, the persona explores the difficulty of maintaining a façade of normalcy while grappling with the intense emotions that come with their situation. They try to keep up appearances, pretending that everything is under control, but deep down, they are struggling to cope. The line "Using scripts you've memorized / To get out of it" suggests that their loved one is using the same excuses repeatedly, which results in increasing frustration for the persona. The song ends with the persona questioning their own ability to handle the situation and whether they are actually fooling themselves.
Line by Line Meaning
And I've been Romanticising you dying
I've been thinking a lot about your death and imagining it in a romantic way
And I've been Locked up in my head
I've been trapped in my own thoughts and unable to think clearly
Just hoping for the best
I'm trying to stay positive and hope that everything will be okay
Started smoking again
I've started smoking again as a way to cope with stress
I think you've lost your head
I think you've lost your mind and aren't thinking clearly
And I'm following suit
I'm also losing my mind and not thinking clearly
I guess it's too soon
It's too early to tell what's going to happen
To know what happens to you
To know what's going to happen to you
And I'll make trips back and forth
I'll travel back and forth to the hospital to visit you
Just to try and be sure
Just to make sure that you're okay
You're comfortable At the hospital
You're comfortable while staying at the hospital
How do I decide To let it all slide?
How do I decide to let everything go and stop worrying?
Picking apart my insides Holding on tight Don't lose my mind
I'm tearing myself apart from the inside but trying not to lose my mind
You do your thing I'll do mine
You handle your problems and I'll handle mine
Hide behind this wasted time Pretending I'm on track this time
I'm wasting time and pretending that everything is going according to plan
Who do you think you're fooling, boy?
You're not fooling anyone with your lies and pretending
And you've been hurting And lost now for so long
You've been in pain and feeling lost for a long time now
I just wanna' be outside Searching for a peace of mind
I just want to get out of my head and find some peace and clarity
Triple nine right on time Maybe they could save your life Maybe I'll be alright
An ambulance might save your life and maybe I'll be okay
Forget the lines you told me Time and time again You know I don't find this amusing
Stop repeating the same lies to me because I'm not finding it funny anymore
Using scripts you've memorised To get out of it You're out of it
You're using rehearsed excuses to avoid facing the real issues and you're not thinking clearly
How do I decide To let it all slide?
How do I decide to let everything go and stop worrying?
Picking apart my insides Holding on tight Don't lose my mind
I'm tearing myself apart from the inside but trying not to lose my mind
You do your thing I'll do mine
You handle your problems and I'll handle mine
Hide behind this wasted time Pretending I'm on track this time
I'm wasting time and pretending that everything is going according to plan
Who do you think you're fooling, boy?
You're not fooling anyone with your lies and pretending
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: luke davis
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