Because Of You
Lymie Lyrics

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I refuse to repeat the mistakes that you made

I will not let myself
I will not allow myself to fall into the same traps as you

Cause my heart so much misery
You caused me so much pain and sorrow

I will not break the way you did,
I won't crumble under pressure like you did

You fell so hard
Your downfall was deep and severe

I've learned the hard way
I learned through painful experiences

To never let it get that far
I won't let things get out of control like they did with you

Because of you
You have had a profound impact on my life

I never stray too far from the sidewalk
I play it safe and avoid taking risks

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
I learned to protect myself from pain and hurt by being cautious

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Your actions have made it difficult for me to trust anyone, including myself

I am afraid
I am fearful of getting hurt or repeating the same mistakes

I lose my way
I get lost and confused sometimes

And it's not too long before you point it out
You are quick to criticize and point out my flaws

I cannot cry
I don't allow myself to cry because you see it as a weakness

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
You see vulnerability and emotionality as weaknesses

I'm forced to fake
I have to pretend and put up a facade

A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
I have to pretend to be happy and cheerful all the time

My heart can't possibly break
My heart was already broken and damaged from my experiences with you

When it wasn't even whole to start with
My heart was already damaged and incomplete before I even met you

I watched you die
I witnessed your decline and eventual death

I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I heard your pain and sadness even when you were asleep

I was so young
I was just a child when you leaned on me for support

You should have known better than to lean on me
You should have realized that I was too young and inexperienced to handle your problems

You never thought of anyone else
You were only focused on your own pain and problems

You just saw your pain
You were blinded by your own suffering and couldn't see the impact it had on others

And now I cry in the middle of the night
I'm now experiencing the same pain and sadness that you did

For the same damn thing
Because of the same issues that haunted you throughout your life

I try my hardest just to forget everything
I do my best to push away memories and feelings associated with you and the pain you caused

Because of you
Because of the impact you had on my life

I don't know how to let anyone else in
I struggle to trust and let others get close to me because of the pain and trauma you caused

Because of you
Because of the pain and damage you inflicted on me

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
I feel ashamed and inadequate because of the emptiness and lack of fulfillment in my life

Because of you
Because of the lasting impact you had on me

I am afraid
I am still fearful of the pain and hurt that I associate with you

Because of you
You are the root cause of so many of my struggles and fears