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Lyu:Lyu Lyrics

憧れていた女の子を
I lost the girl I admired right in front of me

目の前で無くした夜
The night when she disappeared from my sight

顔が引きつったままだった
My face was twisted with shock

割と暑い夏の夜だった
It was a fairly hot summer night

それからは見ての通りで
Since then, as you can see,

ずっと他人の影に怯えて
I've been afraid of other people's shadows

ほらよく見ろよ 人はいつだって
Look closely, people always

平気であんな事をするんだ
do such things without any trouble

選択の余地が無いってのは
Not having any choice

実はとても幸せな事かも
might actually be a very happy thing

アダム以外に人が居ないから
Because there was no one else except Adam,

イヴは疑いようもなかった
Eve had no reason to doubt

きっともっと素敵な人が居て
There must be even more wonderful people out there

もっと素晴らしい人生の筈で
and they should have a more amazing life,

でも見付からないから仕方が無い
but since they can't find them, there's nothing they can do about it

じゃあ見つかった時はどうすんの
What are they going to do when they find them?

臆病過ぎて 触れなかった
I was too cowardly to touch it

光に立ち眩み 座り込んで
I sat down, blinded by the light

いつか いつかって震えながら
While trembling and telling myself someday, someday,

その日はまだ訪れぬ
That day has not yet come

自分の名前が嫌いだって
You said you don't like your own name

あなたがそんな事言うから
that's why I never called you

僕は一度も呼びやしなかった
Hey, how did that make you feel?

ねえどんな気分でしたか
Were you scared of being rejected by me?

あなたに拒絶されるのがただ怖くて
I clung to you desperately like a dog,

犬のように必死で纏わる
thinking it was an act of kindness

それを優しさだと思ってた
Where and how did I make a mistake?

昨日噂で聞いたよ
I heard a rumor yesterday

いつも楽しそうな顔していた
That person who always looked happy

皆から愛されるあの人の
was covered in scars

腕が傷だらけだったと
I can only believe what I see

あぁもう見えるものしか信じないよ
There's nothing else I can believe, it's all the same

それ以外など無いも同じだ
If I do, the world will surely be beautiful

そうすりゃきっと世界は美しい
So why did you say such a thing?

優しい言葉 細く長い手
Finally felt like I forgot, but

やっと忘れたと思ったのに
I keep running out of breath but can't get away

息も絶え絶え 走り続けて
because you said you can't trust anyone

誰のことも信じられないと
I never blamed you once

あなたがそんな事言うから
Hey, was it a relief for you?

僕は一度も責めやしなかった
Did you change my weakness without me knowing?

ねえ気分は楽でしたか
Where did I go wrong?

自分の弱さをいつの間にすり替えて
I thought I was protecting something by locking it up and hiding,

鍵をかけては閉じ籠もって
but it was just me being scared of losing it.

それで何か守った気がしてた
Where did I go wrong?

どこで道を誤ったの
What is the true wish?

馬鹿げた人間関係
I don't want to go back, I don't even feel like it.

自意識過剰 代償行為
Those days will never come again

本当の望みは何処
I overlooked what was right beside me because I was afraid of losing it

「あの日に戻れたら」なんて
It wasn't about being afraid of losing it all along,

もう戻りたくもない 戻る気など無い
It was about being afraid of getting hurt.

もう二度とあんな日は
You said you had nothing, that's why I never fulfilled you.

何もかもが 遠く思えて
Is it too late to say anything now?

側にあったものまで見過ごしてた
I hated you so much I wanted to strangle you, and yet I loved you.

無くす事が怖かっただけ
Goodbye

違うだろ

傷付けられるのが怖かったの

私には何も無いからって

あなたがそんな事言うから

ついに一度も満たされなかった

僕は存在してましたか

今更何を言ったって遅いから

もう思い出すのも止めにするよ

ああ絞め殺したいほど憎くて

きっと好きだった

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