KILLER
M.A.S.I. Lyrics

I ain’t the first with this damn curse
I'm not the only one who has this problem.

My mind craves for bloodthirst
I have a strong desire to kill.

I wanna be better not worse man it hurts
I want to be a better person but it's painful.

Shut up I don't care how you think my mind works
I don't care what you think about my mental state.

These Images in my head fuels the pain
The violent images in my head make me suffer.

FUCK NO drugs ain't in my vein
I'm not on drugs.

I always talked about going insane
I used to discuss being crazy.

I should have know I would get hurt playin these games
I knew the risks of my actions.

Seems like everyone knows what's best for me
Everyone thinks they know what's good for me.

Seems like everyone is putting me through stressed
Everyone is causing me stress.

Seems like everyone is testing me
Everyone is trying to provoke me.

Fuck everyone for making me depressed
I'm angry at everyone for contributing to my depression.

Try walking in on your girl having sex
Imagine catching your significant other cheating on you.

Now you know why my mind is possessed
That's why I have these violent thoughts.

And get so fucked over with the side effects
All the negative consequences of my actions.

So everyone is fucking suspects
Everyone is under suspicion.

Doctors say my mind is too complex
My mental state is difficult to diagnose/treat.

Approaching me with different fucking subjects
People are constantly trying to talk to me about my issues.

Until her car rolls over and wreaks
Something really bad happens to someone I care about.

Been told life will be nice if you live it right
People say that life will be good if you make good choices.

But that's not true it's been a fucking fight
That's not accurate; life is a constant struggle.

So I started to hate and it was a delight
I started to feel good about being angry/hateful.

I bottle my depression inside ya
I keep my sadness and negative emotions to myself.

Tears when I rap and write ya
I cry when I express myself through music.

Rapping is a way I cry for help
I use music to ask for assistance.

I can't keep this in anymore I want to die
I'm no longer able to hold these emotions in.

I always been lost in this evil lie
I've always been deceived by this false reality.

I'm not the monster that people imply
I'm not as bad as people make me out to be.

This place is dark and cold I need to be saved
The world is a gloomy and harsh place and I need assistance.

Demons have took me over I've been enslaved
My internal demons control me and I feel trapped.

Seems like my tombstone been engraved
I feel like my fate has already been determined.

But there's roads that still have yet to be paved
There's still opportunity for change and improvement.

But that's every humans determination
We all have to make our own choices in life.

I try but I realized I can't with my frustration
I attempted to improve but my anger made it impossible.

Cause I forgot I'm not human I have no relation
I feel disconnected from other people because of my struggles.

But we don't need to have that conversation
We don't have to discuss my lack of relatability.

I only stay true with my music it's my salvation
I only stay genuine with my music, it keeps me sane.

I'm not a copy of my generation
I don't conform to the societal norms of my age group.

But truth be told were all weak against temptation
We all have our weaknesses and struggle with temptation.