Starring Role
MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS | Lyrics

You're hard to hug, tough to talk to
You're emotionally distant and difficult to communicate with.

And I never fall asleep, when you're in my bed
Your presence doesn't comfort me, it keeps me awake and restless.

All you give me is a heartbeat
You don't provide me with love or emotional fulfillment, just a physical presence.

I've turned into a statue
Your emotional absence has caused me to become emotionally numb and unresponsive.

And it makes me feel depressed
Your lack of emotional connection with me is causing me to experience sadness and hopelessness.

'Cause the only time you open up is when we get undressed
The only time you show any emotion or vulnerability is during sex.

You don't love me
You don't have genuine feelings of love for me.

Big fucking deal
It's not a significant issue to you.

I'll never tell
I won't express my feelings to you because I don't want to be vulnerable to rejection or hurt.

Not a big deal
It's not a significant issue to me if you don't love me back.

It almost feels like a joke to play out the part
It feels ridiculous to pretend to be something I'm not and go along with this unfulfilling relationship.

When you are not the starring role in someone else's heart
I feel like I'm not the most important person in your life or the one you truly care about.

You know I'd rather walk alone
I'd rather be single and alone than continue in a relationship where I'm not the priority.

Than play a supporting role
I don't want to be a secondary character in someone else's life or relationship.

If I can't get the starring role
If you can't fully commit to me and make me a priority in your life, then I don't want to be with you.

Sometimes I ignore you so I feel in control
I distance myself from you at times to regain a sense of emotional control and independence.

'Cause really, I adore you, and I can't leave you alone
Despite your emotional unavailability and lack of commitment, I still care for you and find myself unable to let go completely.

Fed up with the fantasies, they cover what is wrong
I'm tired of clinging to idealized versions of our relationship and ignoring the underlying problems and lack of emotional connection.

Come on, baby, let's just, get drunk, forget we don't get on
Let's use alcohol as a temporary escape from our issues and pretend that our lack of emotional connection isn't a problem.

You like my dad
You have a good relationship with my father.

You get on well
You have a positive dynamic with my father.

I send my best
I express polite greetings and well-wishes, but nothing more.

Regards from hell
My feelings towards you are unpleasant and unhappy, even though I express politeness on the surface.

I never sent for love, I never had a heart to mend
I never actively sought out love and haven't experienced heartbreak before because of my emotional distancing.

Because before the start began, I always saw the end
I always perceived the eventual breakdown of a relationship due to my emotional detachment and unwillingness to fully commit.

Yeah, I wait for you to open up, to give yourself to me
I'm waiting for you to show genuine emotional vulnerability and invest in our relationship on a deeper level.

But nothing's ever gonna give, I'll never set you free
However, I realize that you will likely never change or meet my emotional needs, and I can't fully let go of you despite this.

The starring role
The primary, central role in someone's life or relationship, which the artist desires but feels she cannot attain in her current situation.