Violence
MARY MAGDALAN Lyrics

Fuck you and your selfish ways
I am frustrated with you and your lack of consideration for others.

Somebody kill me slice my neck somebody show me some fuckin respect
I feel disrespected and worthless, to the point where I would rather die than go on feeling this way.

Instead of all this violence cuz I'm angry I need silence
I recognize that my anger is leading to destructive behavior and I need to find a way to calm myself.

Fuck me up spill my guts someone teach me to trust
I am in pain and need someone to help me be vulnerable and learn to trust again.

I'm high and drunk faded as fuck staring down barrels I'm lookin for love
I am trying to fill a void with drugs and alcohol, but ultimately what I really want is love and connection.

Instead I see corpses and slow rigor mortis in coroners offices
My current path is leading me towards death and destruction, and I am seeing the consequences of that.

Sippin on tussin
I am abusing cough syrup as a way to escape my pain.

Father will you forgive me cuz to love I'm a slave
I recognize that I have made mistakes and am in need of forgiveness, and that my desire for love has led me down a harmful path.

I've been fucked by temptation and smacked in the face
I have been led astray by my own desires, and have suffered the consequences of that recklessness.

And I've faced everything I had to face when my family was erased
I have experienced immense loss and trauma, and have had to deal with the aftermath of that tragedy.

And everyday I'm awake is just another disgrace
I am struggling to find meaning and purpose in my life, and every day feels like a failure.

Give me pills I'm addicted to the thrill put my body in a chill
I am addicted to the rush of drugs and the numbness they bring to my body.

Give me shit that shoots to kill like you killed my mother
I am filled with rage and want to strike back at those who have hurt me.

Little girl in the mirror with no one to love her
I feel alone and unloved, like the little girl I see in the mirror.

Take a look at my soul tear me apart
I want someone to see the pain I am carrying inside and help me process it.

Cuz I'm livin cold I'm livin cold I'm livin cold
I am living a life without warmth or affection, and it is taking its toll on me.

Now I need discipline I need silence sicker than sick my virus is violence
I need to find a way to control my anger and find peace, because otherwise it will continue to consume me.

Rip at my flesh and then make me whole I'm losing control I'm losing control
I am struggling to maintain my grip on reality and need someone to help me regain my sense of self.

Jesus Christ give me a sign give me a cross let me crucify
I am desperate for some sense of purpose and meaning in my life, and am willing to turn to religion to find it.

I'm so fuckin vain vanity whore I'm such a fiend I gotta have more
I am consumed by my own desire for attention and pleasure, and can never seem to get enough.

I need some affection I need some distraction I need some attention
I am craving intimacy and connection, even if it is fleeting or superficial.

Smack me choke me pull my hair promise you'll stay but you'll never be there
I am willing to accept abuse and betrayal in exchange for even the briefest moment of affection or attention.

Do you love me do you care fuck you I hate you life isn't fair
I am feeling angry and betrayed, and am questioning the motives of those who claim to love me.

I need to feel something before I'm just nothing
I am so disconnected and isolated that I need to feel anything, even pain or sadness, to remind myself that I am alive.

So cut me or kill me or fuck me or something
I am so lost and desperate that I am willing to accept any form of attention or connection, no matter how harmful or dangerous.

Violence it takes over me Violence it takes over me
I am struggling to control my violent impulses, and they are beginning to take over my life.

And I don't want your love your love
I am rejecting the love of others, because I am so consumed by my own pain and anger.

Fuck you and your selfish ways
I am still frustrated with you and your lack of consideration for others.