Daffodils
MAY-A Lyrics
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Crowning myself my own king
Hoping I can blindly make it better
By pretending I didn't destroy everything
Puttin' daffodils on fires and lavender on broken luck
I'm pretending I'm not drowning in my self-destruct
In my own fuck ups
In everything that I've done
Try hold myself up now
Don't lean on me
Please, don't lean on me
I'm not the one you need, I'm
Barely standing on my own
Legs holding me, I've outgrown
This weight I cannot hold, so don't
Don't lean on me
You've been begging me for pieces
Things that I can't cut and paste
Stick you back together while I'm holding all these tethers
And I'm pulling myself in place
Puttin' daffodils on fires and lavender on broken luck
I'm pretending I'm not drowning in my self-destruct
Can't find the words
To let you know I'm hurting
So I'll just let it all burn
'Cause I can't fix the things that I'm burning
Don't lean on me
Please, don't lean on me
I'm not the one you need, I'm
Barely standing on my own
Legs holding me, I've outgrown
This weight I cannot hold, so don't
Don't lean on me
Look at me sitting here talking to myself
The only person I lean on is nobody else
Who would've thought?
Who would've thought?
That pushing everyone away wouldn't make him wanna stay?
So please
Please don't lean on me
Please don't lean
'Cause caring makes it worse and I don't wanna hurt, so
Don't lean on me
Please, please
Don't lean on me
The lyrics of MAY-A's song "Daffodils" focus on themes of self-destruction, isolation, and the struggle to maintain emotional stability. The opening lines, "I've been buying myself flowers, Crowning myself my own king," suggest a desperate attempt to find solace and validation within oneself. The reference to daffodils and lavender, typically associated with beauty and tranquility, being put on fires and broken luck symbolizes the destructive tendencies and negative outcomes that the singer has brought upon themselves.
The lyrics further reveal the singer's internal turmoil and their efforts to hide their pain and mistakes from others. They express a desire to hold themselves up and not be reliant on others for support, stating, "Don't lean on me, Please, don't lean on me, I'm not the one you need." The repetition of this plea emphasizes their inability to handle the weight of someone else's expectations or problems while dealing with their own personal struggles.
The second verse introduces the idea of someone begging for pieces of the singer, searching for emotional connection and support. However, the singer feels unable to provide what is being asked of them, feeling broken and unable to fix themselves or the situations they have created. They communicate their frustration and inability to express their pain through words, resorting to allowing everything to burn instead.
As the song progresses, the singer reflects on their isolation and the consequences of pushing people away. They realize that their attempts to distance themselves have not resulted in anyone staying or offering support. The plea "please don't lean on me" becomes a declaration of their inability to handle the burden of caring and the fear of causing further harm to others.
Overall, "Daffodils" captures the complex emotions of self-destruction, isolation, and the difficulty in finding emotional stability. It speaks to the struggle of holding oneself together while feeling overwhelmed by personal mistakes and pain.
Line by Line Meaning
I've been buying myself flowers
I've been trying to find comfort and happiness within myself
Crowning myself my own king
I'm trying to assert my own power and control over my life
Hoping I can blindly make it better
I'm hoping that by ignoring the problems, they will magically improve
By pretending I didn't destroy everything
By pretending that I am not responsible for the damage and destruction I caused
Puttin' daffodils on fires and lavender on broken luck
I am trying to find beauty and positivity in situations that are already ruined or unlucky
I'm pretending I'm not drowning in my self-destruct
I'm denying the fact that I am slowly destroying myself and my life
In my own fuck-ups
In all the mistakes and failures I have made
In everything that I've done
In every action and decision I have taken
I'm tryna hold myself up now
I'm trying to support and lift myself up at this moment
Try hold myself up now
I am making an effort to keep myself strong and stable
Don't lean on me
Please don't rely on me for support or assistance
Please, don't lean on me
I am not the person you should depend on or seek help from
I'm not the one you need, I'm
I am unable to fulfill your needs or provide the support you require
Barely standing on my own
I am struggling to maintain my own stability and balance
Legs holding me, I've outgrown
I am no longer able to rely on my own strength and abilities
This weight I cannot hold, so don't
I am overwhelmed by the burden I carry, so please don't add to it
You've been begging me for pieces
You have been asking me for fragments or parts of myself
Things that I can't cut and paste
Things that are difficult or impossible for me to fix or mend
Stick you back together while I'm holding all these tethers
I am attempting to fix you or mend your brokenness while dealing with my own struggles and attachments
And I'm pulling myself in place
I am trying to regain control and stability in my own life
Can't find the words
I am unable to express or communicate my feelings
To let you know I'm hurting
To make you understand that I am in pain
So I'll just let it all burn
So I will allow everything to fall apart and be destroyed
'Cause I can't fix the things that I'm burning
Because I am incapable of repairing the things I am destroying
Look at me sitting here talking to myself
I am alone, having conversations with no one but myself
The only person I lean on is nobody else
I solely rely on myself and have no one else to depend on
Who would've thought? Who would've thought?
It is surprising and unexpected that pushing everyone away hasn't made someone want to stay
That pushing everyone away wouldn't make him wanna stay?
I never anticipated that pushing people away would not make them want to stay in my life
So please, please don't lean on me
Therefore, I request you not to rely on me or seek support from me
Don't lean 'cause caring makes it worse and I don't wanna hurt
Don't rely on me because when I care, things tend to get worse and I don't want to cause any more pain
Writer(s): Robby De Sa, Maya Cumming
Contributed by Anna J. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@krishitajina6784
Daffodils symbolises change. And a new beginning and rebirth. They can also be seen as a life affirming. got all that from google and this song make me get in my feels. And you know when you go into really long grass and your just watching it sway side to side, this song reminds me of that. In conclusion this Song is real good
@mayawithadash
wow I love this thank you!
@krishitajina6784
@MAY-A no problem and your music had really been so helpful while in lockdown. Iysm
@bibble9339
The first time I heard this I cried. It hit me right in the feels and I can’t even describe the feeling this song gave me. It’s has to be my favourite song by far this year.
@stayweirdwithjames1176
love it, love you. You're going to bring so much love to this world
@maya_bananas1146
Ayyyye yes this song is so amazing you are such a queen omg this is so good l can’t even get my words out ! 😍👑
@Eef3216
This is such a lovely song ♥️
@tailschick3655
Such a lovely song, and music video is beutiful ❤️❤️
@sammyg6741
this is so beautiful
@bil9852
hi sammy