When I Go
MC Eiht A.K.A. Tony Smallz Lyrics

I'll tell you flat out
I'm going to be honest

It hurts so much to think of this
I don't want to think about this because it's painful

So from my thoughts I will exclude
I'm going to try to push this out of my mind

The very thing that
What I hate more than anything is

I hate more than everything is
the lack of control I have over my emotions

The way I'm powerless
I feel helpless to change this

To dictate my own moods
and it's frustrating that I can't control how I feel

I've thrown away
I've given up on

So many things that could've been much more
opportunities that I didn't take advantage of

And I just pray
I hope

My problems go away if they're ignored
If I don't think about my problems, maybe they'll go away

But that's not the way it works
But I know that's not true

When I go down
When I hit rock bottom

I go down hard
I suffer a lot

And I take everything I've learned
I reflect on what I've gone through

And teach myself some disregard
and try to be less affected by it in the future

It hurts to hit the bottom
It's painful to hit rock bottom

And of the things that got me there
Of the things that led to my downfall

I think, if only I had fought them
I regret not resisting them

If and when I can
If there comes a time when

Clear myself of this clouded mind
I can get rid of this confusion and anxiety

I'll watch myself settle down
I'll relax

Into a place where
To a state of mind in which

Peace can search me out and find
I can find inner peace

That I'm so ready to be found
I'm willing to welcome it

The hope I had in friendships
I was hopeful about making friends

The secret to find an end to this
The key to putting an end to my struggles

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
I thought I had control, but it's slipping away

While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
I feel guilty about it

Then and there
At that moment

I confess
I admit

I'll blame all this on my selfishness
I take responsibility for my problems

Yet you love me
But I know that you still love me

And that consumes me
And that gives me strength

And life is now worth living
And now I see the value of life

If only because of you
Only because of my love for you

When I go down
When I suffer

I lift my eyes to you
I turn to you

I won't look very far
I don't have to look far

Cause you'll be there
Because you're always there

With open arms
To embrace me

To lift me up again
To help me get up again

And do so willingly
And I am willing to do that

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
Your hope keeps me going

You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
Your love makes me feel better

As I exhale I hear your voice
As I calm down, I feel your presence

And I answer you, though I hardly make a noise
And I respond to you, even though I hardly say anything

And from my lips the words I choose to say
The few words I say

Seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
Mere words cannot fully express my gratitude

Because I love you
Because I truly love you

Oh God, I love you
My love for you knows no bounds

And when they say that I'm dead and gone
When people think I'm gone

It won't be further from the truth
But I know that I'm always with you