Lament
Ma'anish Lyrics

I am a hollow man walking towards his end
I am devoid of emotions and purpose, merely existing towards my inevitable death.

And no light enters my vacant, dead gaze
I have numbed myself to the world and do not see any hope or goodness in life.

I seek no refuge from the cold
I am accustomed to the pain and emptiness of life, I do not wish to seek comfort nor avoid suffering.

No food, no comfort
I have detached myself from any physical or emotional pleasures.

My body aches but my soul is still
Despite my physical pain, my soul has already died and ceased to feel anything.

There is nothing left to hurt me
I have already experienced the worst pain and despair, and there is no more left to inflict upon me.

I will finally be free
By embracing my nothingness, I will attain a freedom from the burdens of life and expectations of society.

Once I cast myself into the abyss
By willingly jumping into the void, I will completely let go of my existence.

Where I belong
My true place is in the darkness and emptiness, rather than in this world.

Where I am nothing, and nothing is I
By becoming nothing, I become everything at the same time, as everything is connected and nothing truly exists.

Where forever I fall, blank
My descent and infinite fall into the abyss will strip away any remaining identity and consciousness.

No longer a shadow in this life
I will no longer be a mere reflection of societal norms or expectations, but rather embrace my true self and nothingness.

Cast aside and forgotten
I am willingly discarding any remnants of my former self and societal roles, no longer relevant nor attached.

Let the dust cover my remains
I am accepting my physical death and decay, no longer attached to my body or worldly possessions.

Let me fall down from this earth
I am renouncing my physical existence and leaving this world behind.

And as I approach the great rift
As I near the chasm of nothingness that I embrace.

Cold winds begin to blow
I experience the last sensation of my physical being as I leave it behind.

From the depth of everything
From the nothingness that underlies all existence.

The source of all and none
The all-encompassing void that is the origin of everything and nothing.

A gaping smile torn in the ground
The physical manifestation of the nothingness that awaits me, a mouth that beckons my fall into the abyss.

And I stare into it
I gaze into the abyss, accepting its call.

Black eyes that stare right back
The void reflects my nothingness and acknowledges its kinship with me.

Black claws that sink and pull me to the abyss
The darkness enfolds me and guides me towards my desired destination.

I crave to walk where the shadows fall,
Despite my acceptance of nothingness, I still long for the comfort of the darkness.

Where angels lie with blooded stumps for wings
Even in the darkness, there is no comfort or solace, only pain and decay.

A place forlorn, a palace fit for kings
The emptiness fulfills me, accepting and welcoming me as a true ruler of nothingness.

A world where pain and pleasure are mere fantasy
In the void, there is nothing to feel or experience, no pain nor pleasure, only nothingness.

I wish to kill the human side in me
Despite my acceptance of nothingness, I still struggle with my human side, yearning to shed it completely.

To become the clockwork, ever pacing
In my quest for nothingness, I wish to become a mechanical and emotionless entity that is guided only by the void.

To feel no pain
I seek to eliminate all sensations and emotions from my existence, including pain.

But I see a light emerging, from no sun or star above
Despite my efforts, a hint of hope and light arises, from a source that is not physical or tangible.

A blaze from deep within, a sense of strength I've never known
This light awakens something within me, a strength and resilience that I thought was lost forever.

From the bottom I see all from the bird's sight, I open my third eye
This newfound perspective allows me to see the world from a higher and more profound perspective, as I transcend my own limitations.

To be none is to be all
By embracing my nothingness, I become one with everything and nothing, and attain a sense of unity with existence.