A Song Called Clive Barker
Machine Girl Lyrics

All of the things I've never been
Reflecting on everything the singer has never been or accomplished

All of the things I never said
Acknowledging the words that were never spoken or shared

All of the things I never did
Regretful of the opportunities that were never pursued or seized

All of the people I let down
Feeling guilty for disappointing others and not living up to expectations

All of the things I've never been
Repeating the line to emphasize the pervasive feeling of inadequacy and unfulfilled potential

All of the things I never said
Repeating the line to reiterate the unspoken words and their consequences

All of the time I let go by
Ruminating on the time that has passed without making progress or changes

All the dreams that have haunted me
Acknowledging the persistent dreams or aspirations that have yet to be fulfilled

All the lust and the sodomy
Describing the temptations and immoral behavior that the artist has indulged in

I need Christ I need therapy
Hoping for salvation or guidance from Christ or a therapist

A simple thought and I'm on my knees
Feeling overwhelmed and powerless in the face of intrusive thoughts or inner demons

A broken neck
Possible reference to a suicide attempt or recurring suicidal thoughts

Solitaire and sex
Seeking solace or distraction through isolation and sex

Is this true love?
Questioning the genuineness and validity of a romantic relationship

Feels like a glove
Describing the ease and familiarity of the relationship, but also suggesting a lack of individuality or uniqueness

The tail between my legs
Feeling defeated and submissive

Is this really how it ends?
Questioning the future and the direction of the artist's life

I wet the bed again
Possible reference to a recurring nightmare or a sign of emotional distress

The affirmation of man
Reflecting on the impact and importance of human validation or approval

Weird pain
Describing an inexplicable physical or emotional discomfort

Go away
Expressing a desire for relief or escape

I'm debased
Feeling degraded or morally corrupted

Out of phase
Feeling disconnected from reality or others

Out of sight
Forgotten or ignored by others

Out of mind
Excluded or dismissed from others' thoughts or concerns

No ones there
Feeling abandoned or alone

And I'm fine
Paradoxical statement that suggests the singer may be in denial of their struggles or pain

What a lie
Contradicting the previous line and acknowledging the false facade of wellbeing

There's the gun
Possible reference to suicidal ideation or a desire to escape

And there's the plague
Possible reference to a destructive force or disease

And there's the house
Possible reference to confinement or entrapment

And there's the plane
Possible reference to a way out or a symbol of freedom

And there's the gun
Repeating the line to reinforce the haunting image of the gun

And there's the plague
Repeating the line to reinforce the destructive force of the plague

And there's the house
Repeating the line to reinforce the feeling of confinement or entrapment

And no one's saved
Suggesting that there may be no hope or savior to rescue the artist

And -
Interruption that suggests a sense of loss or disruption

He says
Possible reference to a voice in the singer's head or a direct interaction with another person

Well fuck
Expressing frustration or anger

Out of sight
Repeating the line to emphasize the feeling of being forgotten or ignored

Out of mind
Repeating the line to reinforce the sense of exclusion or indifference

My addictions
Acknowledging the singer's dependency on substances or behaviors to cope or escape

Personified
Giving human characteristics or personalities to the addictions

Reality
Examining or confronting the truth or harshness of the present situation

Circumcised
Possible reference to a loss of innocence or purity

In my sleep
Suggesting a sense of inevitability or the impact of the artist's subconscious

I die
Possible reference to a figurative or literal death

Someone's there screaming
Suggesting the presence of internal or external chaos or conflict

There's the gun
Repeating the line to reinforce the image of the gun and the potential for fatal action

And -
Interruption that suggests continued uncertainty or instability

Paralyzed face down
Potentially describing a physical or emotional state of immobility or surrender

I know somebody's watching me
Feeling exposed or monitored by an unseen force or ominous presence

All of the time that will be wasted
Acknowledging the potential for future regrets or missed opportunities

Avoiding my fate until it kills me
Suggesting a futility in trying to resist an inevitable destiny

Losing my self and all my patience
Feeling a gradual loss of identity and control over one's own life

How much longer can I wait
Expressing a sense of urgency or desperation for change or resolution

All of the time that will be wasted
Repeating the line to reinforce the ongoing anxiety about the future

Avoiding my fate until it kills me
Repeating the line to reinforce the idea of fighting against an inevitable fate

Losing my self and all my patience
Repeating the line to emphasize the sense of hopelessness and frustration

How much longer can I take this
Repeating the line to emphasize the desperation and desire for change