The Return
Machine Gun Kelly Lyrics

And they say they know me, get the fuck outta here.
People claim to understand me, but they have no clue about the trials and hardships I've faced.

Only god know what i've been thru man.
Only God truly knows the extent of the challenges I have faced, my struggles are known only to Him.

So if you want to talk
If you wish to discuss my life or make judgments about me,

Get your facts straight first
Ensure that you have accurate information and a solid understanding before doing so

And if you really want to know
And if you genuinely desire to understand

Let me ask you something
Allow me to pose a question to you

Have you ever walked in the shoes of a giant
Have you ever experienced the immense responsibilities and pressures of someone important and influential

Or had the feel the position of a boss before you were even a client?
Or have you ever understood the power dynamics and authority of being a leader even before having the necessary qualifications

Its no wonder growing up under the roof of a tyrant
It's not surprising that having been raised by an oppressive and controlling figure

That i would be the poster boy for defiance
I would become a symbol of rebellion and resistance

Now in the voice of the silence, fuck being quiet
Now, in the midst of silence and secrecy, I refuse to stay silent or conform

I've seen twenty years worth of violence,
I have witnessed two decades filled with brutality and aggression

I'm tired it's a burden for me to open my eyelids
I am weary, even opening my eyes feels like a heavy burden

Not an under cover cop but it's safe to say that i'm wired.
While I am not a covert police officer, it is accurate to describe me as always alert and on edge

I can't even get a grip on my life with pliers, i'm fucked up in the head
I struggle to gain control over my own life, feeling mentally disturbed and damaged

Close my eyes 'cause i see demons round my bed
I shut my eyes to escape the haunting presence of my inner demons

So depressed, open em up, hopin i'm dead
Feeling so deeply saddened and hopeless, I sometimes wish for death

Thought the fame would make it better, but it only fucked me over.
I believed that becoming famous would improve my situation, but instead it has caused more harm and pain

Never used to touch a bottle, now i'm hardly ever sober.
I previously never relied on alcohol, but now I am rarely in a state of sobriety

People want to be my friend,
Individuals strive to become my friend

But where the fuck were y'all when i was ten, eleven and getting bullied and beat up in the gym.
But where were all of you when I was just a child, facing bullying and physical abuse at the gym

I couldn't never get a girl now all of a sudden i'm the man
I was consistently overlooked by women, but now suddenly I am seen as desirable

Students try to get back cool with me again
Former classmates now attempt to mend our relationship and regain my friendship

Fuck em all.
Disregard and dismiss all of them

Because guess where theyre gunna be when my records stop playin
Because guess where they will be when my music is no longer popular and in demand

Gone with the wind off in the record shops saying that kells fell off
Vanish and be forgotten like the wind, while spreading gossip in record shops that I have lost my talent or relevancy

I knew what would happen, stop hating
I had foreseen this outcome, so cease with the animosity

'cause a month ago you was all over my jock sayin'
Because just a month ago, you were desperately seeking my attention and praising me

That i'm that mo-fucker, but now i'm wack mo-fucker?
That I am a talented and exceptional individual, but now you claim I am mediocre?

Opinions change but you cannot change facts mo-fucker
People's viewpoints may shift, but the objective truth remains unchanged

If you want bullet points then call me a gat mo-fucker
If you desire clear and concise explanations, then consider me a weapon

I'll lay my whole life out like a mat mo-fucker
I am willing to lay bare my entire life, revealing everything just like a welcome mat

And i've experienced some things that will stop you from eating
I have witnessed and endured traumatizing events that would cause you to lose your appetite

My schizofrenic cousin tried to end my life while i'm sleeping
My cousin, who suffers from schizophrenia, attempted to kill me when I was unconscious

My bummy uncle wanna call now that he's sees me succeeding
My lazy and unreliable uncle only reaches out to me now that he witnesses my success

My momma left me for a teacher lost my dad the the preaching
My mother abandoned me to be with a teacher, while I lost connection with my father due to his religious activities

Half my friends are buried six feet all the rest in the precint
Half of my friends are dead and buried, while the remainder are imprisoned

Litterally watched my grandmother die from diabetes
I literally witnessed my grandmother's death due to complications from diabetes

I guess my prayers were answered when aunt got cancer and beat it
I suppose my prayers were answered when my aunt had cancer and successfully overcame it

Now i wanna get her out of there give her the garden of eden.
Now I wish to liberate her from her current circumstances and provide her with a paradise-like existence

I did a lot of bad shit
I have engaged in numerous negative and regrettable actions

God got even but for the price i had to pay
God sought retribution, but I had to endure significant consequences in return

I wish i'd stopped breathing
I yearn for an end to my own existence

My girl sat in the bath tub 8 hours bleeding
My girlfriend spent eight hours bleeding while sitting in the bathtub

Hearin the doctor tell us our child's heart stop beating.
Hearing the doctor inform us that our child's heart had ceased to beat

Fuck a million, i wouldn't take a dollar for a life
I would not trade a million dollars for a human life

But i will do whats in my heart and trade this dollar for a mic.
However, I will follow my passion and exchange this currency for a microphone

I wrote this song in hopes that it could help someone get through the night
I composed this song with the intention of providing solace and support to someone during their darkest moments

With no intention of getting paid, i'm doing what it's right
Without any desire for monetary gain, I am doing what I believe is morally correct

I do it for the fans, no, the real fans
I do it for the genuine fans, the ones who have stayed loyal and supported me

Who stuck with me through the storm
The individuals who remained by my side during the challenging times

'cause they understand
Because they comprehend and empathize with

That there's a genuine pain
The fact that there exists a true and profound suffering

Behind the words i'm sayin, and they embrace me
Behind the words I express in my music, and they fully accept me

So i thank you all for stayin'
Therefore, I express my gratitude to all of you for remaining loyal and supportive

Ain't it crazy that passion in my achilles heel?
Isn't it remarkable that my passion is simultaneously my greatest vulnerability?

Either that or keepin it way too real
It's either due to that vulnerability or my refusal to conceal the truth

But they don't know how it feels
However, they do not truly understand what it feels like

The feed off the energy of a crowd
They thrive on the energy emanating from an audience

Step on stage and they get loud
As soon as I step onto the stage, the crowd erupts in cheers

And dad, imma make you proud
And father, I will strive to make you proud

I know we don't speak right now
I understand that we are not currently in communication

But i think turning new leaves what we need right now
But I believe that starting fresh and healing our relationship is what is necessary at this moment

I love you and you may not see right now
I love you, even if you may not realize it at this moment

But i'm begging for forgiveness
However, I am pleading for your forgiveness

I'm on my knees right now
I am humbly and sincerely requesting your forgiveness

You saw your son as a drop out stuck around when i ran
You viewed me as a failure who dropped out of school, yet you remained present in my life when I was on the run

Saw your son as a felon
You saw me as a criminal

Now see your son is a man
Now witness the fact that your son has grown into a mature adult

See you son be a father, to a beautiful child
Observe your son taking on the role of being a loving father to a wonderful child

Or just see your son, dad and see me smile.
Or simply see your son, dad, and witness the joy and happiness on my face

Who would have thought what started at the bottom would someday grow
It's surprising to see how something that began in a lowly position has now flourished

From three people in the crowd, unpaid shows
From performing in front of only three spectators at shows where I wasn't paid

Six people in the room, one meal a day
Living in a cramped room with only six individuals, sharing one meal per day

Another opening act when no one knows my name
Being an unknown opening act with no recognition or fame

Saw the demos that i passed out layin on the ground
Witnessed the demo tapes that I distributed ending up discarded on the ground

Saw the rappers i be-friended copying my style
Observed the rappers that I befriended imitating my distinctive style

Saw opportunities pass while these fakes got rich
Watched as opportunities slipped away while these fake individuals became wealthy

Now i can't stop speeding like brakes aint shit
Now I am uncontrollably moving forward at an accelerated pace, as if my brakes have failed

For six months i went thru hell and back
I endured a period of extreme hardship and suffering for six months

Right at the height of my success all of a sudden doctor said i couldnt rap
At the pinnacle of my career, the doctor suddenly informed me that I was no longer able to pursue rapping

I had a polyp on my vocal cords, left with a choice, stop now or possibly lose my voice
An abnormal growth was discovered on my vocal cords, leaving me with the decision to either quit immediately or risk permanently damaging my voice

But i woke up every morning and recorded til my throat swelled shut
However, I persisted in waking up every morning and recording music until my throat became swollen and closed

Coughed blood after every show, because it hurt that much
After every performance, I coughed up blood due to the immense pain

I went weeks without even sayin a word to myself
There were periods where I remained silent and did not utter a single word to myself

No health insurance so doctor bills piled on the shelf
Lacking health insurance, my medical bills accumulated and remained unpaid

But for my daughter and my family and every single fan
However, for the sake of my daughter, my family, and every devoted fan

I pushed through it and now i'm back for ya'll again
I persevered and now I have returned for all of you once more

As for my competition this the beginning of the end
As for my rivals, this marks the start of their downfall and ultimate defeat

But right now this is my return, amen
But at this moment, this is my triumphant comeback, so be it