Five
Machine Head Lyrics
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In a garage I was standing scared and somber
I could smell your breathing and the pain your leaving
So ashamed I'm feeling
And now I am left to fate
For all the times I'd be losing my mind
You molest and destroy just a five year old boy
Ripped my heart out
It was so good
I remember words that never left me
For a scull of silver here's what you'd do for me
If you tell, I'll kill you
Rip the child out from you
Wish that I could stop you
Please god make this go away
For all the times I've been losing my mind
You molest and destroy just a five year old boy
And you make me suffer, mother fucker
Ripped my heart out
Innocence was lost
And I feel it
I can't take it
I don't want it
Anymore
Was only five
And I feel it
Can't take it anymore
For all the times I heard you
Say in my god damned mind
Make it sooner if I suck you
I'd make you suffer
Make you suffer
Motherfucker
For all the times I'd be losing my mind
You molest and destroy just a five year old boy
And you make me suffer, motherfucker
Ripped my heart out
I was only five
Five
The lyrics to Machine Head's song Five tell the harrowing story of a young child who has been sexually abused by a perpetrator, and the singer's struggle to come to terms with what happened. The opening lines describe a moment of horror and trauma, where the singer is standing in a garage feeling scared and somber, overwhelmed by the pain of the abuse that he has suffered. The repeated lines that "I was only five" emphasize the youth and vulnerability of the victim, and add to the sense of injustice and horror that permeates the song.
The second verse describes how the perpetrator used threats and intimidation to keep the singer quiet about the abuse, telling him that he would kill him and rip the child out of him if he ever told anyone what had happened. The song suggests that the victim has spent years struggling with the aftereffects of the abuse, and that he has been plagued by nightmares and distressing memories. The repeated refrain "For all the times I've been losing my mind" describes the ongoing psychological impact of the abuse, and conveys how difficult it can be for survivors to move forward from traumatic experiences.
Overall, Five is a powerful and deeply troubling song that explores the psychological impact of sexual abuse on a young child. The repeated emphasis on the victim's youth and vulnerability, and the vivid descriptions of the abuse and its aftereffects, make for a haunting and disturbing listening experience.
Line by Line Meaning
I remember it was the month October
The singer recalls the specific month of October when the traumatic event occurred.
In a garage I was standing scared and somber
The singer was in a distressed state, full of fear and sadness, standing in a garage.
I could smell your breathing and the pain your leaving
Through the perpetrator's breathing, the singer could sense the harm and destructive impact they were about to inflict.
So ashamed I'm feeling
The artist is experiencing overwhelming levels of shame.
And now I am left to fate
The artist feels they have no control over what happens next.
For all the times I'd be losing my mind
The singer has experienced repeated bouts of distress and anguish.
You molest and destroy just a five-year-old boy
The abuser sexually assaulted and caused serious harm to a child.
And you make me suffer motherfucker
The abuser caused immense suffering to the artist.
Ripped my heart out
The abuser's actions completely shattered the artist's emotional state.
It was so good
The abuser took pleasure in causing harm.
I remember words that never left me
The singer recalls specific, haunting phrases that the abuser said.
For a skull of silver here's what you'd do for me
The abuser offered a skull shaped silver object in exchange for the artist's silence.
If you tell, I'll kill you
The abuser used threats of violence and death to ensure the singer remained silent.
Rip the child out from you
The abuser threatened to take the child away if the singer spoke out.
Wish that I could stop you
The singer wishes they could have prevented the abuse.
Please god make this go away
The artist begs for the traumatic memories to disappear.
Innocence was lost
The abuse forever robbed the artist of their innocence.
And I feel it, I can't take it, I don't want it, anymore
The singer is overwhelmed by the distressing memories and wants them to go away.
Was only five, and I feel it, can't take it anymore
The singer was only five years old when the abuse occurred, and is still struggling with the trauma.
For all the times I heard you, say in my god-damned mind
The abuser's voice still haunts the artist's mind.
Make it sooner if I suck you, I'd make you suffer, make you suffer, motherfucker
The abuser made disgusting, degrading sexual requests and enjoyed inflicting pain.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: ADAM DUCE, AHRUE LUSTER, DAVE MCCLAIN, ROBERT CONRAD FLYNN
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