Next To Me
Machinemade God Lyrics


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There she is, once again on her knees
breaking down right in front of me
Once again I just fall for her lies
I deceive myself

This is murderous I know,
Like leading the sheep to wolves,
I believe in her words
and make the same mistake again

I cannot sleep without her breath
right next to me
and I can't breath
each time she's leaving me

Here I am, once again on my knees
until the moment, it all comes down
The day, the hour I understand

This kills me
And I surrender!
You kill me

This is murderous I know,
Like leading the sheep to wolves,
I believe in her words
and make the same mistake again

I cannot sleep without her breath
right next to me




and I can't breath
each time she's leaving me

Overall Meaning

The song "Next to Me" by Machinemade God speaks about a person's struggle with a toxic relationship. The first verse describes the singer's partner breaking down in front of them repeatedly, and how they keep falling for their lies. Despite knowing that being with them is harmful, the singer deceives themselves into believing in their partner's words.


The chorus shows the singer's dependency on their partner. They cannot sleep without their partner being right next to them, and every time their partner leaves, they feel like they cannot breathe. The second verse describes the singer being on their knees until they reach a point of realization where they understand that the relationship is killing them, and they surrender to it.


Overall, the song depicts a person's struggle with a toxic relationship, where they feel uncertain and dependent on their partner despite the harm they inflict.


Line by Line Meaning

There she is, once again on her knees
She is repeatedly showing her vulnerability in front of me


breaking down right in front of me
Showing her emotions to me, unable to hold it in


Once again I just fall for her lies
I am deceived by her again and again


I deceive myself
I let myself believe her lies and deceive myself in the process


This is murderous I know,
I am aware that this is harmful and potentially deadly


Like leading the sheep to wolves,
I am putting myself in harm's way, like a sheep to a pack of wolves


I believe in her words
I have faith in what she says, even though it may not be true


and make the same mistake again
Despite knowing better, I keep repeating the same mistakes


I cannot sleep without her breath
Her presence is crucial to my peace of mind and ability to rest


right next to me
In close proximity to me, physically and emotionally


and I can't breath
Her absence leaves me feeling suffocated and uneasy


each time she's leaving me
Every time she departs, it causes me emotional distress


Here I am, once again on my knees
I find myself once again in a vulnerable and humbled position


until the moment, it all comes down
I am waiting for the moment when everything falls apart


The day, the hour I understand
The day and time when I finally comprehend the truth


This kills me
This situation is causing me great harm and pain


And I surrender!
I give up trying to fight against the situation and submit to it


You kill me
It is her actions and words that are causing me harm and distress




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