The band went on a semi-permanent hiatus in 1996 due to the band members' conflicting schedules and Staley's problems with substance abuse. Attempts were made in the late 1990s to revive the group without Staley, and material for a follow-up release to Above had been worked on; however, the band dissolved following the death of bassist John Baker Saunders in 1999 from a drug overdose. Staley also died of a drug overdose three years later. Martin and McCready have since made two short partial reunions, one in 2012 and one from 2014 to 2015. A special edition box set containing a remastered edition of Above and various unreleased material was released in March 2013.
During the production of 1994's Vitalogy, Pearl Jam guitarist Mike McCready went into drug and alcohol rehab at the Hazelden Clinic in Minnesota, where he met bassist John Baker Saunders.[5] In 1994, when the two returned to Seattle, Washington, they formed a side band with drummer Barrett Martin. McCready played in such bands as Pearl Jam and Temple of the Dog, Martin with Skin Yard and the Screaming Trees and Saunders with blues talents such as Little Pat Rushing, Hubert Sumlin, Sammy Fender, and The Lamont Cranston Band.[6] Immediately the trio set up rehearsal time together and wrote the music for two songs that would later become Mad Season's "Wake Up" and "River of Deceit", both of which would later appear on the band's album Above. McCready then brought in friend and Alice in Chains frontman Layne Staley to round out the line-up. McCready had hoped that being around sober musicians would push Staley to get himself sober.
Despite not having a single song completely prepared (only beginnings of songs, according to Martin) and not even having a name for the band, McCready scheduled an unannounced show at the Crocodile Cafe on October 12, 1994, which turned out to be a big success. The song "Artificial Red", which was also to appear on the album, actually came together during the show itself. Two more gigs were scheduled (November 6 & 20, 1994) at the same venue, with the band calling itself The Gacy Bunch, after both the notorious serial killer John Wayne Gacy of Chicago and the 1970s sitcom The Brady Bunch. On January 8, 1995, the band made an appearance on Pearl Jam's Self-Pollution satellite radio broadcast, a four-and-a-half-hour-long pirate broadcast out of Seattle which was available to any radio stations that wanted to carry it, performing "Lifeless Dead" and "I Don't Know Anything".
After gaining more popularity, the band recorded its only album and changed its name to Mad Season, which is an English term for the time of the year when psilocybin mushrooms are in full bloom, and a term which McCready related to "the seasons of drinking and drug abuse." The album, Above, which was recorded in Seattle, Washington at Bad Animals Studio (co-owned by Ann and Nancy Wilson of Heart) and co-produced by the band and Pearl Jam sound engineer Brett Eliason, featured ten songs. It also included guest vocals and additional lyrics by Screaming Trees frontman and solo artist Mark Lanegan. McCready said, "We did all the Mad Season music in about seven days. It took Layne just a few more days to finish his vocals, which was intense since we only rehearsed twice and did four shows." The album was released on March 14, 1995 through Columbia Records to critical and commercial success. Over the course of 1995, Above scaled the Billboard 200, eventually peaking at No. 24 and spawning two singles: "River of Deceit" (#2 Mainstream Rock Tracks, No. 9 Modern Rock Tracks) and "I Don't Know Anything" (#20 Mainstream Rock Tracks). Above was certified gold on June 14, 1995.
McCready described the songs on the album as "some jazzy stuff, some blues, some arena rock." Stephen Thomas Erlewine of Allmusic said that the album "sounds like a cross between Alice in Chains and Pearl Jam, taking the ponderous seriousness of Alice and PJ's '90s update of winding '70s guitar rock." Staley's lyrics dealt with his personal troubles, with Martin saying, "Layne Staley felt as though he was on a spiritual mission through his music." During the lyric writing process, Staley was reading the book The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran, which was a strong influence on the lyrics and the overall tone of the album. "I Don't Know Anything" is a heavier, blues-influenced track, while "Long Gone Day" takes considerable jazz influence, combining the use of samba-style bass, xylophone, and saxophone.
Staley is credited for writing all the lyrics on the original release within the liner notes of the 2013 deluxe issue. As was the case with much of his work with Alice in Chains, Staley's lyrics dealt with his struggle against addiction as well as other personal troubles. Lyrically, much of "River of Deceit" was inspired by Khalil Gibran's The Prophet. Vocalist Mark Lanegan of Screaming Trees contributes guest vocals on "I'm Above" and "Long Gone Day"; he is also credited for co-writing the music to those tracks along with McCready and Martin. Lanegan also wrote the lyrics for the three bonus tracks on Disc 1 of the deluxe issue - "Locomotive", "Black Book of Fear", and "Slip Away". R.E.M. guitarist Peter Buck is credited for co-writing the music to "Black Book of Fear" along with McCready, Martin, Saunders, and Lanegan.
I Don
Mad Season Lyrics
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I don't wanna be a soldier mama
I don't wanna die
Well
I don't wanna be a sailor mama
I don't wanna fly
I don't wanna be a failure mama
I don't wanna cry
Well
I don't wanna be a soldier mama
I don't wanna die
Oh no
Oh no
Oh no
Oh no
Oh no
Well
I don't wanna be a rich man mama
I don't wanna cry
Well
I don't wanna be a poor man mama
I don't wanna fly
Well
I don't wanna be a lawyer mama
I don't wanna lie
Well
I don't wanna be a soldier mama
I don' wanna die
Oh no (12x)
Well
I don't wanna be a beggar mama
I don't wanna die
Well
I don't wanna be a theif now mama
I don't wanna fly
Well
I don't wanna be a church man mama
I don't wanna cry
Well
I don't wanna be a soldier mama
I don't wanna die
Oh no (11x)
The lyrics to Mad Season's song "I Don't Wanna Be a Soldier" express a yearning to avoid taking on the various roles and responsibilities that society often imposes on individuals. The repetition of the phrase "I don't wanna" emphasizes the singer's resistance and reluctance to conform to these norms. Specifically, the lyrics reject the roles of soldier, sailor, failure, rich man, poor man, lawyer, beggar, thief, and church man.
The rejection of these roles seems to come from a desire to avoid the pain and suffering that may come with them. The phrase "I don't wanna cry" is used multiple times, suggesting that emotions and vulnerability are things to be avoided. Similarly, avoiding flying and dying seems to be a way of evading risk and danger.
Overall, the song expresses a resistance to the pressures and expectations of society, highlighting a desire to chart one's own path and avoid conformity.
Line by Line Meaning
Well, I don't wanna be a soldier mama
The singer doesn't want to enlist in the military and potentially lose their life.
I don't wanna die
The singer is afraid of death.
Well, I don't wanna be a sailor mama
The singer doesn't want to join the navy and risk their life at sea.
I don't wanna fly
The artist doesn't want to pilot a plane or be subject to the potential dangers of flying.
Well, I don't wanna be a failure mama
The artist doesn't want to fail in life and feel the emotions that come with it.
Well, I don't wanna cry
The singer is expressing a desire to avoid feeling sadness and the tears that come with it.
Oh no
This is an exclamation showing the intensity of the singer's fears and desires.
Well, I don't wanna be a rich man mama
The artist doesn't want wealth if it means feeling sadness or pain.
Well, I don't wanna be a poor man mama
The artist doesn't want to struggle financially and experience the hardships that come with poverty.
Well, I don't wanna be a lawyer mama
The artist doesn't want to become a lawyer and potentially have to lie to succeed in their career.
Well, I don't wanna be a beggar mama
The singer doesn't want to live a life of poverty and have to beg for survival.
Well, I don't wanna be a thief now mama
The artist doesn't want to resort to stealing to improve their situation in life.
Well, I don't wanna be a church man mama
The singer doesn't want to become involved in religion and have to confront the sadness and pain of the world.
Oh no
This is a repeated exclamation showing the strength of the singer's convictions.
Well, I don't wanna cry
The singer doesn't want to experience sadness and the tears that come with it.
Well, I don't wanna die
The artist expresses the desire to avoid death and the fear that comes with it.
Oh no
This final exclamation is a repetition, emphasizing the intensity of the artist's feelings.
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@dgranite50
Born & raised in Sea Town, I was fortunate to see everyone from
Mother Love Bone, Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Soundgarden, Mud Honey,
SuperSuckers, Melvins, Screaming Trees, Candlebox, Temple of the Dog,
Alice in Chains in the late 80's thru mid 90's and this show, Mad
Seasons, standing just left of center balcony level. watching many
different band members from different bands descend down into their own
abyss and prisons, weakening physically, emotionally, and vocally, but
this was a very special night and show whereas a mutual appreciation
between band and audience grew as the night progressed, and you could
see a light on in Layne that i hadn't seen in some earlier AIC shows. It
was truly a magically time to be alive, and to witness one of Rock's
all time greats taken too soon from us. Enjoy and if you are suffering
and dealing with addiction or mental health, talk to someone, be
proactive and know there is hope and a better way to live!
@michaeldelgado2107
Layne’s voice is one you could hear 100 years from now and it would still resonate because it’s so unique. RIP to one of the icons of the 90s grunge era.
@9sarat
💯 RIP to the greatest "grunge" vocalist ever. Layne was a monster human to pull this off!
@67woozy
For a guy who “doesn’t play guitar” he sure wrote some catchy riffs. “Angry Chair”, “Hate to Feel”, “I Don’t Know Anything”.
@jaymz
brush away
@drperkyreal4686
Rowan Melton I think Jerry played guitar in that song. There’s like 1 or 2 AIC songs where layne plays
@michaelbartholomew8155
Head Creeps
@chip9649
Simple easy riffs can be the most effective.
@StephenRahrig
this is basically the Angry Chair riff tho
@dkroyley
Probably the best concert I've had the pleasure of seeing live
@SeanEnginetechnology
Oh I can only imagine!! Damn, here I thought I was lucky seeing AIC open up for Van Halen in like '91, immediately was my favorite band before morning hit and got dirt and hour later!
Not till These guys got together have I loved any music and group better than AIC❤❤