They were probably formed sometime in 2006 and broke up in 2009.
Disorder
Maddison Lyrics
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These hands around my neck
Taking my youth but carry on pretend
Oh my fever burns
It's keeping me awake
I'm turning on my friends trying to deal with this hate
What do you want from me?
Woah
Woah
Is there an end in sight?
Woah
Woah
I can't even see to read the truth
Don't know what's lies don't know what's true
It's killing me maybe it's you
It's killing me trying to find the truth
They tell me to smile
Problems in my head
Take down your pills they'll straighten out the bends
Sweating in my sleep
Dreaming wide awake
Can't figure out myself or what I need to change
What do you want from me?
Why are you haunting me?
Is there an end in sight?
Is there an end in sight?
I can't even see to read the truth
Don't know what's lies don't know what's true
It's killing me maybe it's you
It's killing me trying to find the truth
I can't even see to read the truth
Don't know what's lies don't know what's true
It's killing me maybe it's you
It's killing me trying to find the truth
I can't even see to read the truth
Don't know what's lies don't know what's true
It's killing me maybe it's you
It's killing me trying to find the truth
The song "Disorder" by Maddison is a powerful expression of the emotional turmoil that comes with struggling to find oneself in a world that can be both confusing and hostile. The lyrics speak of the feeling of being suffocated and drained by the challenges of life. The opening lines, "I've seen better days, these hands around my neck, taking my youth but carry on pretend" set the tone for the rest of the song. The lines suggest a sense of helplessness and being trapped in a situation that one cannot escape from. The next few lines speak of the physical and emotional toll this takes on the singer: "Oh my fever burns, it's keeping me awake, I'm turning on my friends trying to deal with this hate."
The chorus is an anguished cry for help, as the singer is feeling lost and overwhelmed, and cannot see a way out: "What do you want from me? Why are you haunting me? Is there an end in sight?" The repeating refrain of "Woah, woah" adds to the feeling of being trapped and unable to break free. The second verse speaks of the conflicting messages that the singer is being given: "They tell me to smile, problems in my head, take down your pills they'll straighten out the bends." The singer is being told to suppress their emotions and medicate to deal with their problems, but they are not finding this to be effective.
Overall, the lyrics of "Disorder" conveys a powerful and poignant message about the challenges of navigating life and finding oneself despite the obstacles that one faces. The singer expresses their profound struggle, but also their resilience and determination to find the truth, even if it means "trying to find the truth" while "killing me maybe it's you."
Line by Line Meaning
I've seen better days
I'm feeling down and things have been better
These hands around my neck
I feel like I'm being suffocated and can't breathe
Taking my youth but carry on pretend
I'm losing my youth and trying to pretend like everything's okay
Oh my fever burns
I'm burning up with fever and anxiety
It's keeping me awake
I can't sleep because of my anxiety
I'm turning on my friends trying to deal with this hate
I'm hurting my relationships with my friends because I'm struggling with self-hatred
What do you want from me?
I'm feeling attacked and want to know what the other person is expecting from me
Why are you haunting me?
I feel like I'm being haunted or pursued by something negative
Is there an end in sight?
I'm wondering if there's a resolution or a way out of this situation
I can't even see to read the truth
I feel lost and confused, unable to discern what's true or false
Don't know what's lies don't know what's true
I'm feeling helpless and unable to distinguish between reality and falsehoods
It's killing me maybe it's you
This situation is causing me pain and I'm not sure if it's due to external factors or something within myself
They tell me to smile
People are telling me to be happy and put on a happy face, even when I'm struggling internally
Problems in my head
I'm dealing with mental health issues and it's affecting my life
Take down your pills they'll straighten out the bends
People are suggesting I take medication to alleviate my mental health issues
Sweating in my sleep
I'm experiencing physical symptoms related to my mental health issues
Dreaming wide awake
I'm struggling to separate reality from my dreams and fantasies
Can't figure out myself or what I need to change
I'm having a hard time understanding my own identity and what changes need to be made for me to feel better
It's killing me trying to find the truth
I'm consumed by the need to find answers or clarity, and it's taking a toll on me
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: James Chorlton
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