Because Heaven Knows
Major League Lyrics

I haven't been avoiding you, don't think that I don't care
I haven't been ignoring you because I don't care, it's just hard for me to be around when I know you're not there.

I just can't seem to bring myself, knowing you're not there
It's difficult for me to face the reality of your absence.

I go into each and every year, with heavy hearts and shaking hands
Each year feels heavy and overwhelming because of the weight of your absence and the grief that follows.

A feeling in my gut comes back, with thoughts that I can't stand
The grief and emotions associated with your absence keep resurfacing and are difficult to handle.

You're the reason I still stand up straight, you help to keep my head high
Your presence and impact in my life have allowed me to maintain strength and positivity in the face of adversity.

I know that I'll see you again someday, for now I'll look up at the sky
I find comfort in the belief that I will be reunited with you someday, but until then, I'll treasure your memory and the positive impact you had.

These markings on my chest are for the angel on my shoulder
These tattoos and marks serve as a permanent reminder and tribute to you as my guardian angel.

I try to tell myself, it's just the pain of getting older
I try to rationalize and cope with the pain of your loss by attributing it to the natural process of aging and time passing.

I know it's not my place to say, I'm sorry
I recognize that I am not responsible for the circumstances of your loss and therefore it's not my place to apologize for them.

Nothing I could say would make this change, or go away
I understand that my words cannot change the reality of your absence and the pain that comes with it.

But I hope I still have time left, to let you know
I hope to have more time to express my gratitude and love for you.

Everything that I've done, is because of you
I acknowledge that your presence and impact in my life have shaped who I am and the choices I make.

I know that deep inside my heart, you were content
I have faith that you were at peace and fulfilled during your life, which brings me comfort.

And I hope you're catching up on years, that you lost with your daughter
I hope that in the afterlife, you are reunited with loved ones and able to make up for lost time and missed experiences.

I can't help but be so selfish, because I wish you were here
Despite knowing that your absence may be a relief from pain or suffering, I still yearn for your presence and guidance in my life.

And the best way to move on from this, is to celebrate all your years
I believe that honoring your life and legacy through celebration and remembrance is the most healthy and positive way to move forward.

If I could pump my blood in to your veins, id take the air right from my lungs
I would do anything to restore your life and the time we could have shared together.

I'd do anything, to get rid of the pain
The pain of your loss is overwhelming and I wish to do anything to alleviate it.

And it's taking everything, to hold my tongue
It's difficult to keep my emotions contained and not express them in unhealthy or harmful ways.

Cause heaven knows, id love to burn it down
The emotional pain and struggle of your loss sometimes makes me feel consumed by anger and destructive tendencies.

And if I could speak to god, I'd give him hell
I feel anger and resentment towards the higher powers or circumstances that led to your loss.

Like the kind he put in your life, he's the reason we can't sleep at night
I attribute the pain and hardship in your life to greater powers or circumstances beyond our control, and it weighs heavily on me.

He's the reason we can't, sleep at night
The grief and pain of your loss have led to sleepless nights and ongoing emotional hardships.