Lead SD
Manchester Orchestra Lyrics


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There are parts of me just stuck inside the grocery
In the produce aisle with the dead beats
Rustling trying to look busy but they're high like me

There are parts of you, I see you argue with yourself and I think you're crazy, really
We're both running out of days, I pray you get by like me

This is temporary, I just heard I'm gonna be a dad
South Dakota, every winter someone loses it
I'm lost without a single clue as to where I'm headed
I wait for her because without her I'm gonna sink

Would you marry me? Repeat repeat
There's no clarity tomorrow
I'm not even trying to swat those demons away from me

Is it temporary? I don't think I want to be a dad
Nobody knew today would be the day he loses it
I'm lost without a single clue as to where I'm heading
I look for her because without her I'm going to sink

The snow is piling up, our temporary grid
It was just like this, this time last year
There's nothing in the wind, just white up to the trees
And it's been that way for eternity

The grocery, Elise, thirteen, was buried by your arrow
Steep shriek of the softball team, it rewinds me

Will you pray for me? Repent, repeat
I'm a clock and a balance beam
If I die there's nothing I keep that reminds me

Microscopic specks of love being raptured to you
I heard a sound that was paranormal
Must've thought I had begged him to bury me
Bleeding out, better buy one to get one

The snow is piling up, our temporary grid
It was just like this, this time last year
There's nothing in the wind, just white up to the trees
And it's been that way for eternity

The time has come to abide by your folly
It's so unusually bright for the scene




You are the blood in my blood, you pretender
It took your blood on my blood to believe

Overall Meaning

The song “Lead SD” is a melancholic portrayal of a man who is struggling with addiction and mental health issues. He is haunted by his own demons and sees his life and future as temporary. The lyrics are raw and honest, vividly describing the emptiness and despair he feels. There are references to being lost, to sinking, and to the snow piling up as a metaphor for the overwhelming sadness he faces. In the produce aisle at the grocery store, he sees people trying to look busy but high like him, and finds comfort in knowing he is not alone. He also sees parts of himself in his partner, who argues with herself and he worries is crazy too.


As the song progresses, he reveals that he is going to be a father and is uncertain about it. He also mentions South Dakota, where every winter someone loses it, hinting that even though he wants to believe things will get better, he is aware of the possibility of things falling apart. In the end, he asks for prayers before repeating the phrase “I'm a clock and a balance beam,” emphasizing the fragility of his state of mind. The last line, “It took your blood on my blood to believe,” suggests that he may have found some hope or redemption in a relationship, despite its struggles.


Line by Line Meaning

There are parts of me just stuck inside the grocery
There are parts of my life that I can't move on from and feel stuck in like being in a grocery store.


In the produce aisle with the dead beats
I'm surrounded by people in my life who are just going through the motions and not living to their fullest potential.


Rustling trying to look busy but they're high like me
We try to seem like we're doing something with our lives, but really we're just getting by and getting high to cope with the reality of our situation.


There are parts of you, I see you argue with yourself and I think you're crazy, really
I see that you struggle with inner demons and it concerns me, but I also know that it's a common experience we both share.


We're both running out of days, I pray you get by like me
We are both getting older and time is running out, so I hope that you can survive in our imperfect world like I am surviving.


This is temporary, I just heard I'm gonna be a dad
Even though having a child is a big responsibility, I know that it's only temporary and that life will continue to move forward.


South Dakota, every winter someone loses it
Winter in South Dakota can be tough on people, and it's common for someone to struggle or break down mentally.


I'm lost without a single clue as to where I'm headed
I feel directionless and unsure of where my life is going, which can be a disorienting and lonely feeling.


I wait for her because without her I'm gonna sink
I rely on the presence and support of someone I love to keep me afloat and maintain my mental and emotional health.


Would you marry me? Repeat repeat
I constantly ask myself if committing to a lifelong partnership is the right decision for me, but the answer is never clear.


There's no clarity tomorrow
It's hard to know what the future will hold and what choices will be right for me in terms of career, relationships, and more.


I'm not even trying to swat those demons away from me
I'm not actively fighting against my inner demons or trying to get better, which can be dangerous and lead to further issues down the line.


Is it temporary? I don't think I want to be a dad
I'm not sure if having a child is something that I really want or if it's just a temporary phase that I'm going through.


Nobody knew today would be the day he loses it
It's impossible to predict when someone will break down or give up, and it can happen suddenly and without warning.


The snow is piling up, our temporary grid
The cold and harsh reality of life is weighing down on us and making it difficult to move forward.


It was just like this, this time last year
I feel like I'm stuck in a cycle of repeating the same mistakes and facing the same issues over and over again.


There's nothing in the wind, just white up to the trees
Our lives feel barren and empty, with no sense of purpose or direction that we can sense.


And it's been that way for eternity
It feels like our problems have existed forever and that we will never be able to overcome them.


The grocery, Elise, thirteen, was buried by your arrow
My thoughts are scattered and I struggle to make sense of the tragedies and hardships that I've experienced or seen in my life.


Steep shriek of the softball team, it rewinds me
Certain sounds or memories can trigger traumatic experiences and bring back painful emotions from the past.


Will you pray for me? Repent, repeat
I'm reaching out for help and asking someone to pray for me, but at the same time, I feel like I'm stuck in a never-ending cycle of making mistakes and asking for forgiveness.


I'm a clock and a balance beam
I feel like my existence is a constant struggle to maintain balance and stability, but at the same time, time is always ticking away and I have limited opportunities to get things right.


If I die there's nothing I keep that reminds me
I feel like I have no real legacy or accomplishments that I can be proud of, and that my life will fade away and be forgotten after I'm gone.


Microscopic specks of love being raptured to you
Even though love can be hard to see or quantify, there are tiny, beautiful moments of it that can make life worth living and bring joy to our existence.


I heard a sound that was paranormal
I had an experience that was out of the ordinary and unsettling, possibly related to the supernatural or the unknown.


Must've thought I had begged him to bury me
I feel like someone or something is actively trying to bring me down or end my life, even though I never asked for that kind of fate or punishment.


Bleeding out, better buy one to get one
I feel like I'm slowly losing everything that I once had or wanted, and that I need to find something or someone to hold onto before it's too late.


The time has come to abide by your folly
It's time to accept and confront the mistakes, errors, and shortcomings in my life or my personality, even if it hurts or is uncomfortable.


It's so unusually bright for the scene
Even though things in my life might seem bleak or dark, there are moments of unexpected hope or triumph that can shine brightly and break through the darkness.


You are the blood in my blood, you pretender
I feel like the people around me are pretending to care or love me, and that I'm stuck in relationships that are based on false or incomplete emotions.


It took your blood on my blood to believe
Only by forming deep and authentic connections with the people in my life can I truly believe in their love and support, and feel like I'm part of something meaningful.




Lyrics © WORDS & MUSIC A DIV OF BIG DEAL MUSIC LLC
Written by: John Andrew Hull

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