Escape Plan
Manga Saint Hilare Lyrics

A lot of my exes look the same
I have made the mistake of dating similar types of people in the past.

i kept making the same mistake
I continuously repeated the same error.

i used to sit down waiting for things to change
I used to passively wait for circumstances to improve.

but things never changed
However, nothing ever improved.

because i never changed
Because I did not make any personal changes.

i was in the smallest room in my mums house
I found myself confined to a small space in my mother's house.

looking for space
Seeking freedom or room for growth.

I'd just stare into space
I would simply stare into empty surroundings.

i think i need to escape
I believe I must find a way to break free.

the feeling that i'm going to get stuck here wouldn't go away
The fear of remaining trapped in this situation persisted.

i had a lot of dar energy around me that i couldn't explain
There was a negative aura surrounding me that I could not comprehend.

i didn't want to be saved
I did not desire assistance or rescue.

i woke up late
I consistently overslept.

i didn't know myself,Only knew my name
I lacked self-awareness, only recognizing my own identity.

they seem to think tat they know my heart
Others mistakenly believe they understand my emotions.

just because they all know my face
Simply because they recognize my appearance.

i had no foresight, i had no faith
I lacked the ability to anticipate and had no belief in the future.

i had no focus,I had no way
I lacked concentration and direction.

to get out all these things that i was thinking
To express the multitude of thoughts I had.

i was struggling to find my way
I faced difficulties in discovering my path.

ending my texts with,Cool & safe
I concluded my messages with a casual and secure tone.

but i never felt cool or safe
However, I never experienced a sense of calm or security.

questions all the calls i made
I doubted the decisions I had made.

my purpose needs to get reclaimed
I must rediscover and reclaim my sense of purpose.

i just want some peace in my head
I simply desire mental tranquility.

pieces of me started feeling strange
Certain aspects of myself began to feel unfamiliar.

i felt like nobody else has felt like this
I believed that no one else had experienced similar emotions.

i became a person i hate
I transformed into someone I despise.

so i'm laying here awake
Therefore, I find myself lying awake.

getting money & i'm pissing it away
I am wasting the money I am earning.

some days that i wish i wouldn't wake
There are certain days where I wish I wouldn't wake up.

what's it gonna take
What is necessary to instigate change?

feel like i'm living on the edge
I perceive myself to be constantly on the brink.

got thoughts that i know i shouldn't say
I possess thoughts that I understand should not be vocalized.

its happening again
The same situation is recurring.

sitting here & feeling so alone
I am sitting here and experiencing intense loneliness.

in reality it never was the case
In truth, it was never the actual scenario.

i'm digging my own grave
I am unintentionally causing my own downfall.

really i'm just troubling myself
In reality, I am only causing distress to myself.

been battling with my own brain
I have been engaged in an internal struggle with my own thoughts.

i felt like i died, at least one or two times
I experienced the sensation of death, at least on a figurative level.

old versions of me that i don't recognise
Previous iterations of myself that I no longer identify with.

i watch day turn to night
I observe the transition from day to night.

i know im the cause of my own demise
I am aware that I am responsible for my own downfall.

i don't take my own advice
I fail to follow the guidance I give to others.

watch things get worse so its no surprise
I witness the deterioration of circumstances, thus it is not unexpected.

sat & i smiles when im supposed to cry
I sat and forced a smile instead of expressing my true emotions.

i need to make it out alive
I must successfully navigate through this situation.

things wasn't going right's so i wrote
When things were not going well, I turned to writing.

i set a few goals & let go of my ego
I established specific objectives while shedding my ego.

worked for the ting, There wasn't a cheat code
I put in effort for my endeavor, without any shortcuts available.

me against the world i'm giving out free smoke
I consider myself in opposition to the world, confidently expressing my opinions.

oh
Expressing surprise or realization.

i started seeing the results
I began to witness the outcomes of my efforts.

different type of bruddah i started to evolve
I transformed into a different kind of person, undergoing personal growth.

new energy new me
I acquired a fresh vitality, leading to a changed version of myself.

i started all again like i'm getting a reload
I initiated a fresh start, as if restarting or reloading a game.

things are going to be what they will be
Events will unfold as they are meant to.

finally got back to the real me
I ultimately returned to my authentic self.

had so much baggage on my back
I carried a significant amount of emotional weight.

but i dropped them bags like a spent a few g's
I released those burdens as if I had spent a significant amount.

devil in my head i couldn't let it kill me
I had negative thoughts plaguing my mind, but I resisted their destructive power.

madness in my head so i couldn't feel free
My mind was consumed by chaos, preventing me from experiencing liberation.

i'm rich in spirit & soul
I possess wealth in terms of my spiritual and emotional well-being.