Narcissist
Marc Goone Lyrics

He and I; had somethin' beautiful, but so disfunctional, it couldn't last...
Despite the beauty of our relationship, the dysfunction was too much to sustain it.

(Shit) uptown joe, but I let him go... (you let me go)
I let go of someone who cared for me deeply even though I needed them.

Cuz' i knew he'd never, love me back... (ugh)
I ended things because I knew my partner was incapable of truly loving me.

Imagine that were makin' love, were naked in the cut Ur cellphone rings, baby dont get up...
You receive a phone call during an intimate moment, and I stop you from answering it, though I will eventually answer and respond rudely.

Girl thats how im livin', dont you get it, im in love with me and the world wont stop ringin', yeah
I'm so self-obsessed that I ignore everything else going on around me, leading to a lack of compassion towards others.

So I never love these women, imma' monster, you, your just another victim
I don't truly love anyone, and I see you as simply another person I can hurt.

I warned you, I forced you Said thats horseshit, but its so true...
I warned you that I can't truly love anyone, even though you didn't believe me.

Too much to say to you, didn't mean to cause pain to you Truthfully im afraid of you, and I dont say if I stay with you...
I don't want to stay with you because I am afraid of the pain that I will cause you.

Ugh, and I never wanna endanger you, but if you love me, I'll eventually end up hating you...
I don't want to hurt you, but I know that as soon as you become attached to me, I'll start to resent you.

They told keep it real, what? You fail to see the truth, I got a bumper sticker that says what we say and do
People say to be honest, but I fail to do so. Instead, I put up a facade and pretend to be a certain type of person.

A narcissist, Mark is this... Burning bridges, an arsonist...
I am a narcissist who burns bridges with those who care for me.

Pick something sharp, push hard as shit, I dont feel it cuz no mother fucking heart exists!...
I am so devoid of emotion that I don't feel the pain I cause to others even when I'm hurting them badly.

But I will say this, its indisputable; ur patient, and ur loving, and ur absolutely beautiful But if you grow on me, i'll cut you like a cuticle
Despite your positive qualities, I will still hurt you if you try to get too close.

So why you wast ur time? Ur planning ur own funeral!...
You're wasting your time with me because I'm ultimately going to hurt you.

Castle walls, an alligator moat You swam across it, scailed it with a rope...
My emotional walls are strong, but you have managed to break through and get close to me.

Looking down upon the city, bruised and callused Try not to fall man, don't loose your balance...
Despite being hurt and hardened by past experiences, I try to not let it affect me and can only hope that you don't fall from trying to break through my walls.

Think you can save it, think you can fix me?... Think you can change it, through how you kiss me?...
You believe you can change me or fix my emotional walls through your affections and love.

But when I run away, I know that you gonn' blame me... I'm distant, from everyone around me...
When I inevitably run away and avoid your affections, I know you will blame me. I distance myself from everyone to keep from getting too close.

Notice that i'm distant, everday is always cloudy... Notice that i'm threated by anyone who doubt me, Notice i'm at my best only when its not about me!...
I keep people at a distance, am always emotionally distant, feel threatened by anyone who questions me, and only do well when the spotlight is not on me.

Ur self absorbed, ur selfless... Ur self assured, i'm helpless...
You are selfless, while I am entirely self-absorbed and helpless to change who I am.

Yeah, you do this at your own accord Only communicate through music when I go record Ur full of warmth, i'm empty as a kiss...
You show your love and warmth through your actions, while I can only do it through music when I'm isolated and emotionally devoid.

Break down that door, and i'll put up a fence... Starin' in the mirror thinkin' who is that?...
If you try to get too close or break down my emotional walls, I will put up more defenses. I don't recognize myself when looking in the mirror.

Go on and love me, I just wish that I could do it back!...
Despite everything, I wish I could love you back but my emotional detachment keeps me from doing so.

Its me to you, I am healing but it's taking so long Cuz though he's gone and you are wonderful, it's hard to move on...
I am healing from past emotional traumas and hurt, but it's hard to move on and love someone new despite your wonderful qualities.

Will you?...
The song ends on this note, asking if the listener is willing to stay despite the difficulties of loving a narcissistic person.