Mena was thirteen years old she moved to live with her musician father. She sang and wrote lyrics as a form of therapy for her feelings and frustrations. Not all the stories in her diary became songs, but "My Lullaby" was one of them, expressing her pain from her parents' divorce. After pleading with her father to make a demo, he contacted some industry experts to record Maria's songs in the studio. Then he presented his daughter's demo to the music industry. Sony Music signed Maria Mena to their label.
In March 2002, Mena's single "My Lullaby" reached number five in the Norwegian charts. The young singer quickly gained fans and soon earned her first platinum record. 2005 saw the release of Apparently Unaffected, including singles "Miss You Love" and "Just Hold Me". A significant success in Norway, the album gained three Spellemann nominations: best female artist, best hit, and best music video.
In September 2008 Mena's fifth studio album was released, Cause and Effect.
Internal Dialogue
Maria Mena Lyrics
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Knowing your influences insisted all the time
It must have been strange; living in blue
And see me shut down as though
It was an easy thing to do
But you could tell where I had been
By the way I held my gun
While being mocked by an off beat drum.
But I was not honest
I was not healthy
I was not honest, honest
You did the right thing
Covered your scars
Challenged your faith
And closed your eyes driving cars
For all that they knew
You were safe home
But you went through hell
Whenever you were left alone
But you could see where I had been
From the pictures that they took
I tried to look positive at things
Faced myself but didn't look
That was not honest
I was not healthy
I am not honest, honest
I wish you could see
Yourself through my eyes
There's no need to cling
To unnecessary lies
The voice in your head
Whose spirit you stole
Left you for dead
But you dug the hole
And I can tell where you had been
From the marks around your wrists
The red water washed around your sins
But are you as pure as this?
No, you are not honest
You are not healthy
You are not honest, honest
No, you are not honest
You are not healthy
You are not honest, honest
In Maria Mena's Internal Dialogue, the lyrics express the story from the perspective of someone who struggled with their own inner demons, while recognizing the struggles of someone close to them. The song explores the idea of self-doubt and the masks people wear to hide their true selves. The lyrics imply that the person to whom the song is directed had a difficult time staying in line and conforming to the expectations of those around them. The singer recognizes how difficult it must have been for the person to live in a state of sadness or depression, but also expresses regret for not being honest about their own struggles.
The song also touches on the theme of personal growth and the difficulties people face when trying to improve themselves. The singer acknowledges the sacrifices the person made to overcome their problems but also hints at the possibility that they may not have been completely honest with themselves during that process. The song's final lines make it explicit that the struggle with honesty extends to all parties involved. The singer falls short of expected behaviors and regrets their own lack of transparency.
Line by Line Meaning
It must have been hard; staying in line
It must have been difficult to follow the expectations and rules set by others
Knowing your influences insisted all the time
You were aware that the people you looked up to demanded obedience from you at all times
It must have been strange; living in blue
Your life had a sad and depressing tinge, which would have been unfamiliar to those around you
And see me shut down as though
It would have been easy to see my withdrawn behavior as a sign of complacency
It was an easy thing to do
However, staying silent and not speaking out about my struggles was actually much harder than it appeared
But you could tell where I had been
You could see the suffering and pain that I had endured, even though I tried to hide it
By the way I held my gun
My underlying emotional turmoil was evident in my body language and behavior
Trying to write anything
I attempted to express my emotions through my art, but I struggled to convey the depth of my pain
While being mocked by an off beat drum.
Despite the criticism and ridicule that I faced, I continued to try to create something meaningful
But I was not honest
I wasn't truthful about my struggles and pain
I was not healthy
My emotional and mental well-being was negatively impacted by my inability to express myself
You did the right thing
You made the correct decision to focus on getting better and healing
Covered your scars
You chose to hide the wounds of your past and focus on moving forward
Challenged your faith
You were forced to confront your beliefs and values in order to overcome your struggles
And closed your eyes driving cars
You tried to escape and distract yourself from your problems by focusing on mundane tasks
For all that they knew
To others, it appeared that you were safe and secure
You were safe home
You were able to find a sense of safety and security in your home environment
But you went through hell
You endured immense emotional pain and suffering behind closed doors
Whenever you were left alone
Your inner demons and struggles would come to the surface whenever you were by yourself
But you could see where I had been
You were able to empathize with my struggles and pain
From the pictures that they took
The evidence of my emotional turmoil was apparent in photographs that were taken of me
I tried to look positive at things
I attempted to put on a happy face and display a positive attitude, despite the sadness and pain that I was feeling
Faced myself but didn't look
I tried to come to terms with my problems, but I wasn't ready to confront them head on
That was not honest
I wasn't being truthful with myself or others about my struggles
I was not healthy
My inability to process my emotions and pain was damaging to my overall well-being
I am not honest, honest
Even now, I struggle to be truthful with myself and others
I wish you could see
I hope that you would be able to understand and empathize with my struggles
Yourself through my eyes
I wish that you could see yourself from my perspective, so that you could better understand your pain and struggles
There's no need to cling
You don't have to hold onto painful memories and emotional scars
To unnecessary lies
It's important to be truthful with yourself and others, in order to heal and move forward
The voice in your head
The negative self-talk and critical inner voice that you struggle with
Whose spirit you stole
The inner voice that robs you of your joy and well-being
Left you for dead
The negative self-talk can be so damaging and toxic that it feels like it is killing you
But you dug the hole
You have to take responsibility for your healing and well-being, and actively work towards improving your situation
And I can tell where you had been
I can see and empathize with the pain and suffering that you have experienced
From the marks around your wrists
The scars and physical manifestations of past trauma that are visible on your body
The red water washed around your sins
The blood that flowed from your wounds represents your emotional pain and suffering
But are you as pure as this?
Although you may feel like a victim of your past, it's important to recognize that you are not defined by your suffering
No, you are not honest
If you continue to hold onto the pain and negativity of the past, you will struggle to heal and move forward
You are not healthy
Failing to take care of your emotional well-being can have negative consequences for your overall health and happiness
You are not honest, honest
It's important to be truthful with yourself and others about the pain and suffering that you have experienced, in order to heal and move forward
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: MARIA MENA, ARVID WAM SOLVANG
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
Honest Reviews
she's SO underated literally this is one of my ALL time favourite songs
Rosie
I relate to this song so much..... Makes me wanna reach out and hug everyone
פולי טיקטינסקי קליינר
Virtual hug?
AshGrant
I can relate this to my struggles with self harm and anxiety disorder. When I was left with my own thoughts it was a really horrible,self-hating experience. I have this constant battle in my head when I relapse and I know being anxious and overworking myself is not healthy but I can't help but do it anyways. I would always lie to myself and say things weren't bad when in fact they were. I would lie to my family and friends when they asked if iI'd hurt myself. Maria Mena is a goddess!!!!
shivag73
I happen to like this song very much. Everyone is entitled to his or her opinion. And no need to feel sorry for us, if we like the song, we have our reasons. I love pretty much every song of Maria's. <3
Emily Williamson
She's the mother i've always wanted. Holding my hand and telling me im not okay, but things can get better♥
Katie
I don't know about you guys, but I relate this song to my struggle with self-harm. I have this war within myself after I cut, when people ask if I'm okay. I criticize myself for not being honest, because I know what I do isn't healthy. And, like in the song, I hide my scars; the marks on my wrists that tell my story. So I don't know how all of you relate, but thats what this song is to me.
Ladyladieladee
I want there to be a documentary on Maria Mena like really bad
Girlwithspunk
I lost all my music some time ago and maria mena used to be on my most played ... somewhere in between then and now I sort of underwent a little therapy so listening to all this over again gives me mixed emotions... i love her and all... but her lyrics kill me a little bit...
Faith VanVleet
I relate to this song with my eating disorder and cutting. I'm not honest when I say I was in the bathroom because my stomach was messed up when really, I was purging.