She was born in Hampshire and has lived in Devon, Brighton and London. She is of Finnish descent.
Hackman went to Bedales School where she met Cara Delevingne. Together they formed a short-lived band where Hackman played drums and Delevingne played guitar and sang.
Johnny Flynn also studied at the same school and knew and appreciated Hackman's music. He was instrumental in getting her first record deal with Transgressive and produced her debut single.
In 2013 she toured Australia and Europe as an opening act for Laura Marling
Apple Tree
Marika Hackman Lyrics
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Oh, take a little bite, take a bite for me
The pain, it keeps me sane for I am more than a taste
The taste in the mouths of the starving crowds
Oh, pulling at the leaves, pulling off to me
In feet first the savage dust
Don't leave me be, leave me be
Leave me be, I'm tired
I feel so damn cold
Hold me like a child
'Cause I feel so damn old
I got so damn old
Here I hang for the seated ground
To look upon my eyes, look upon my mouth
And say "we were there that day
I saw a face, heard a sound"
But now I sit where they used to be
A quiet little scene on an apple tree
White rooms and balanced fruit
The winter glowed on her leaves
Hold me like a child
'Cause I feel so damn cold
Bind me like I'm wild
'Cause I feel so damn old
I got so damn old
And I feel so damn old
I got so damn old
Marika Hackman's song "Apple Tree" is a hauntingly beautiful piece that delves into themes of pain, death, and longing for comfort. The song starts with the artist declaring that she is hanging from an apple tree and inviting someone to take a bite for her. While this may seem unusual, the very next line unpacks the various layers of emotions that the artist is feeling. She declares that the pain she is experiencing keeps her sane, which indicates that it may be an escape from something more significant than the pain itself. She then goes on to describe the taste in the mouths of the starving crowds, which could be a metaphor for the hardships that people are facing in their daily lives. The artist suggests that she is more than just a taste, which may allude to her hopes for an identity beyond her physical being.
The song then transitions to a scene where the artist is being pulled off of the apple tree by people who are stepping on the leaves. She begs them not to leave her be, which could be a plea for help or a desire to connect with others. In the next verse, she expresses feelings of exhaustion and loneliness. The artist feels cold and old, and she longs to be held like a child. The final verses of the song describe a scene where the people who were once there to pull her down from the apple tree have now been replaced by a "quiet little scene." This could symbolize a loss of community or a fading of memories. Through these lyrics, Marika Hackman creates a vivid and poignant picture of human suffering and the search for comfort.
Line by Line Meaning
Here I hang from the apple tree
I am in a vulnerable position, like a fruit hanging from a tree
Oh, take a little bite, take a bite for me
Someone else should experience what I am going through, to understand it better
The pain, it keeps me sane for I am more than a taste
The suffering I am enduring reminds me that I am a complex being, not just an object to be consumed
The taste in the mouths of the starving crowds
Others are hungry to consume and experience what I am going through
Oh, pulling at the leaves, pulling off to me
Others are interested and invested in my experience
In feet first the savage dust
I may be headed towards death and decay
Don't leave me be, leave me be
I want to be noticed and understood, but also left alone
Leave me be, I'm tired
I am exhausted and need rest
I feel so damn cold
I am emotionally numb and distant
Hold me like a child
I need comfort and care, like a helpless child
'Cause I feel so damn old
My suffering has left me feeling old and weary
Here I hang for the seated ground
I am enduring pain so that others may benefit or learn from it
To look upon my eyes, look upon my mouth
Others want to witness my pain and suffering firsthand
And say "we were there that day
They want to be able to claim some ownership of my experience
I saw a face, heard a sound"
They want to have a personal connection to my suffering
But now I sit where they used to be
I have survived and outlasted those who were interested in my pain
A quiet little scene on an apple tree
I am now in a peaceful and subdued setting
White rooms and balanced fruit
I am surrounded by calm and orderly surroundings
The winter glowed on her leaves
Even in the midst of calm, I am still aware of the hard times and suffering
Bind me like I'm wild
I feel like a wild and uncontrollable creature
I got so damn old
My suffering has aged me beyond my years
And I feel so damn old
I am still struggling with the lasting effects of my pain
Lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: MARIKA LOUISE HACKMAN
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@alexandredematosluna1266
Here I hang from the apple tree
Oh, take a little bite, take a bite for me
The pain, it keeps me sane for I am more than a taste
The taste in the mouths of the starving crowds
Oh, pulling at the leaves, pulling off to me
In feet first the savage dust
Don’t leave me be, leave me be
Leave me be, I’m tired
I feel so damn cold
Hold me like a child
Cause I feel so damn old
I got so damn old
Here I hang for the seated ground
To look upon my eyes, look upon my mouth
And say “we were there that day
I saw a face, heard a sound”
But now I sit where they used to be
A quiet little scene on an apple tree
White rooms and balanced fruit
The winter glows on her leaves
Hold me like a child
Cause I feel so damn cold
Bind me like I’m wild
Cause I feel so damn old
I got so damn old
And I feel so damn old
I got so damn old
@kanellita
Here I hang from the apple tree
Oh, take a little bite, take a bite for me
The pain, it keeps me sane for I am more than a taste
The taste in the mouths of the starving crowds
Oh, pulling at the leaves, pulling off to me
In feet first, the savage thirst
Oh leave me be, leave me be
Leave me be, I’m tired
I feel so damn cold
Hold me like a child
‘Cause I feel so damn old
I got so damn old
Here I hang for the sated crowd
To look upon my eyes, look upon my mouth
And say “we were there that day
I saw a face, heard a sound”
But now I sit where they used to be
A quiet little scene of an apple tree
White roots and balanced fruit
The winter glowed on her leaves
Hold me like a child
‘Cause I feel so damn cold
Bind me like I’m wild
‘Cause I feel so damn old
I got so damn old
And I feel so damn old
I got so damn old
@ToughCookieClaire
Why the heck is this gold not viral yet? Well I guess its our little treasure to keep.
@vidyasrinivasakesarla2029
She is so underrated. She gonna make it so big one day. Can't really wait. 💞
@lizbeth1217
I just discovered this song and omg how is this song not a super big deal it's beyond amazing and beautiful!!! Just now discovering this artist I'm beyond impressed and excited to find her!!!!
@2WinGs2
Jesus. I need another True Detective season with female detectives as main characters and this song as main theme. And nihilism. Tons of it.
@cb9811
Agh yes, I so love this comment
@enigmaedits1559
Exactly what I was thinking
@quinmp3
marika knows exactly what shes doing and im HERE FOR IT
@dickdickdickdickduck
ur my favourite comment-person of all time
@quinmp3
dickdickdickdickduck thank u its one of my many talents
@parafreak92
Hhaahah marika fan award goes to u